ADALIAH LYRICS

1. Mistakes

My mistakes…
My fucking mistakes…
My mistakes weigh heavy on me
I can’t help but keep dragging my feet
Truth is that without stability, I am pushed to insanity

2. Ghosts

Can you feel these phantom limbs?
These memories will stay memories that I no longer sway
I’ve fallen short and I’m still broken from the path you’ve chosen
I will no longer dread, I am no longer dead
You were never alone, it was all in your head
And I can’t deny…I can’t deny my chest is swollen
I did this to myself…and I’d go through hell for you and no one else
And can you feel these phantom limbs?
Here I am with hands behind my back
I will break the mold around me
You swear that I have changed but I’m starting to stabilize
Your passion burns out
Only time will rid this shame that sits inside my brain
Reoccurring patterns never end unless something in here changes
I’ve got to fill empty spaces
Distractions and familiar faces
It’s getting harder every day
It’s getting harder to pretend that you’re still there
I guess I still believe in ghosts
All I do is stare but there’s no one there
I guess I still believe in ghosts

3. Break Or Bleed

I see my Dad glaring at me and by the hole in his chest I can tell he knows just how I feel
(With nothing to say)
Silenced, with nothing to say.
You have nothing to say
No peace of mind and nowhere to rest your dissonant thoughts that keep us up at night
I get a feeling of deep understanding
How do you get rid of what’s already gone?
It seems so unmotivating to me to just move on
A constant reminder you’re living in fear, you’re staying up later for things you hold dear
I get a feeling of deep understanding, I feel like I’ve lost this fight
The sound of a voice you’ll never forget slipping away
Repetition has gotten the best of me again
I try and stray from the cycle but these things are just so hard to ingest
You always seem to forget
How come you always neglect the things you say you will do?
Days seem longer as I sit alone and waste my time
I know there’s got to be a way to simply feel alive
Anchored at the bottom of the fucking pile
This is not the place for me
I’ll break my way out
Just let me out, get me the fuck out
The only way to the bliss I know
I will break my way out
Just let me out, get me the fuck out
The only way to the bliss I know
Break or bleed , it’s clear to me the things I need
No longer will you hold me back from who I need to be
I can’t keep up with all the shit you say
We can both agree that you will never see my face
Break or bleed
It’s clear to me the things I need

4. Shedding Skin

Oh please I hope these wounds will stay with me. Like the words you left me with, I hope they scar.
I hope they harden in my soul so I never forget the unforgettable.
It hurts to see, so I don't bother looking anymore.
What a terrible chapter, what a horrible book.
I see dead flowers everywhere I look.
I can see the reasons for the cruelty of this world because of you.

Let's burn these pages, let's agree to burn these pages.
So I can stop myself from being out of line.
Let's burn these pages, let's agree to burn these pages.
So I can stop myself from being out of line.

So I can save myself, so I can get out alive.
Who's to say if you choose if I live or die?
Can you clarify the thoughts in my mind?
So let's burn these pages.
So I can save myself, so I can get out alive.

You're such a waste, a waste of skin. You're such a waste, from limb to limb.

You fucking waste, I can't stand to waste my time on the thought of you.
I'll rid myself of this old skin. I'm feeling lost, where have I been.

Oh please I hope these wounds will stay with me. Like the words you left me with, I hope they scar.
I hope they harden in my soul so I never forget the unforgettable.
So I never forget the unforgettable.

So I can save myself, so I can get out alive.
Who's to say if you choose if I live or die?
Can you clarify the thoughts in my mind?
So let's burn these pages.
So I can save myself, so I can get out alive.

So let's burn these pages.
So let's burn these pages.
So I can save myself, so I can get out alive.
So I can save myself, so I can get out alive.
Let's burn.

5. Cursed With Disease

[feat. Caleb Hatton]

My insecurities will be the death of me
My insecurities are all I ever see
I can’t seem to find the normal in myself
I live with burdens, I live with self-doubt
Unmotivated, just hanging on by a thread
It seems so selfish…but sometimes I wish that I was dead or just in someone else’s shoes
To see this world in a different view
I need something new…

Cause all my problems keep raining down on me
They throw the chains around my neck and I can barely breathe

For three years I’ve felt like this
I’ve been searching for someone to bring me bliss and put me at ease
I’m not asking for much just a sigh of relief
And when I saw your face that day…something told me that I would, I’d be okay
You showed me a new way but now I’m leaving and I’ll be back some other day
Please take me back
I want to release myself
I want to leave it all behind
Cause every day I’m fucking losing my mind and waking up every day is such a waste of my god damn time
Straight to the bottle, it drowns my pain and in this sorrow I’ll slowly waste away
I’m wasting away
Please take me away
Cause all my problems keep raining down on me
They throw the chains around my neck and I can barely breathe

6. Relapse

Here I am again trying to forget the past but I can’t pretend that it won’t make its way back
I can’t look at you the same as I could before
Even though apologies were made I feel it more and more
In the back of my head lies memories repressed as I begin the salvage the happiness I have left
Too young to take in all the problems at hand but old enough to know exactly where I stand
Rebuild, rebuild
I’ll do whatever it takes to have my mind sit still
Cut you off cause I’ve had enough
I’m sick hearing I need to “toughen up”
This is not the way that I’m supposed to be
I’m fucking drowning and you’re letting me
Please, no more
I’m too far gone to float back to shore now
You’re still reading the book but guess what?
I skipped to the last chapter
We all die at the end.
Regardless of the way you pretend that my best interest is at hand
It’s just the way you pull me down
It’s like I can’t do a thing for myself without you…
Pulling at my sleeves
All you want to do is drag to my knees
Pulling at my sleeves
All you want to do is drag me to my fucking knees
And now I find myself believing in fictitious heroes
I’ve come to know at the end of the day it’s just the way that the wind blows
I can only save myself without your help
So if this is what it has to come to, you’re another burned bridge under my belt
The calm before the storm…forming around me, closing me in
The feeling begins
Here I am again trying to forget the past but I can’t pretend that it won’t make its way back
I can’t look at you the same as I could before
Even though apologies were made I feel it more and more

7. Coffin Nails

[feat. Storm Strope of The Last Ten Seconds Of Life]

I can’t get over the fact that it’s building up since the day we met
Say what you need cause you don’t even know this is the last chance you’ll ever get
Coming from your truest friend, I see why you turned and fled from all the things I never said
I kept my word I stood my place but…
Look who pulled the gun out first.
You have been elusively building my casket from day one
Hammering every nail day by day
I am starting to think that things will just be getting worse until the day I get inside
Until the day I’m lying in my coffin
I’ve been fading away
I wouldn’t be surprised if I’ve gone blind from staring at the light
These thoughts are killing me faster than the smoke from your cigarette
I can predict the future
My eyes they see the truth
We are bound together forever
You just never knew…
Forgive me
Who knew that my hand would end this and there would only be silence
I never took you for granted…
Who knew that my hand would end this and there would only be silence
I never took it for granted; I just mistook it for guidance
Fuck you
My shoulders are broken from the weight of the world I saw in you
I saw the truth for what it was and then I turned away
Engulfed in flames, I am surrounded
I’ve been waiting to seep through
I am the end and you’ve always known about me
My eyes see the truth at last.

8. Mind Eraser

It was all part of the plan
Just think a year from now you won’t remember my name
We hydroplaned
And I watched us crash and burn before we hit the wall
Stepping stones don’t exist when I’ve fallen off a cliff
Selfishness, ignorance, fucking bliss
It wasn’t enough, I’m never enough
You say that you cared, I’m calling your bluff
I’ll never be fucking good enough
I tried to erase you but the words smeared on the paper
I need a…mind eraser
One so vile and abrasive that I won’t remember all the pain you put me through
This was all part of your plan
It’s been a year and I can’t remember your face
My minds gone blank but nothing feels the same
Memories replaced with the let-down of an empty promise
I should have called this from a mile away
But I was blinded by what was and what could have been us
And so I’ll stay awake at night haunted by the thought of years lost
And time spent caring for someone…
Who didn’t give a fuck whether I was still breathing at the end of the day
I still can’t believe how easily you dropped everything and pushed me away
So let me set this straight
I am everything you hate
I’m the grime that lines your sink
I’m the fucking demon seed
All I wanted was for you to fucking care for once in your selfish life
The time we wasted
The feeling of being alone, out in the cold
A misguided soul, destined to spend his life on his own
I hope you’re happy
I’m standing here with a sense of regret for the things I have said

9. Transitions

Why do I keep it in mind?
To keep you there in spite of your absence
Damned, with unsettling agony
No matter what’s in front of me
I can’t shake this off for the life of me
Is there any way to just forget?
You should know by now that this never fucking ends
It swallows me whole, my body and soul
Cold and alone, my hearts turned to stone
Moving forward has never meant so much to me
I put my heart and soul into everything you ever wanted me to be
I guess I’m just not good enough for you this time
You spit in my face, you left me behind
But I still keep you in mind (I still keep you)
I’m chasing your flame
A flame that went out long ago…
But I still follow the smoke
I still follow your smoke.
Possessive compulsive, I cling to every thought
This guilt has turned me into something that I’m not (I’m never coming back)
Intrusive to every corner of my life, I’ll find myself in due time
Cold and alone, it swallows me whole
Cold and alone, my hearts turned to stone
It just swallows me whole
This red wall is the only thing that can relate
Sick of trying, sick and tired of holding onto this hate
For every memory washed down with a bitter aftertaste
You think of happy endings while you’re cursing me to waste
But you leave me with the opposite to choke on for the taste
This disease will be the death of me
Fuck this negativity that clings onto every part of me
You will never really know what it’s like
It’s not the same, when there’s no one to blame but yourself
It’s a shame but I’m just another wolf with hunger pangs
Cold and alone, it swallows me whole
Cold and alone, my hearts turned to stone

10. American Dream

Separate from everything that I hold dear
I’m walking into everything that I fear
There’s only so much that I can bare
You know what they say, life is always unfair
I feel the woe as it grows, being torn from within
Anger truly exposed
Forget all I’ve ever been taught
I’m not wasting time, it’s just a feeling I’ve got
I’m not wasting my time
I’m not wasting my life
You’re supposed to guide me but you’re leaving me behind
I have put everything into this just to have you turn your back and leave me blinded like the rest
You forced me to believe that life is preconceived
I will not abide by this normality
Break free from expectation
Maybe then you’ll find a life worth saving
Your doubt piles onto me
I won’t live your American dream
My head being torn in different directions
Your grip limits me through suffocation
I wake addicted to affliction
The frustration always wins
I feel it constantly
I feel it in my skull
Hiding underneath
I feel it in my chest
Always choking my breath
Always there to intervene
Nothing I’ve ever felt really compares to abjection
I will release myself from your fucking suffocation

11. Death's Counterfeit

I watched you walk as a dead man, pale skin
Blue lips, crystal balls behind your fucking eye lids
The color flushes from everything
But you keep that air pumping in and out unconsciously
Suspended by a string
I bet those blues keep you on your feet
Before the chair gives out…and I’m still sitting here calling you out
And I’m still calling you out
Cast yourself to the darkest corners of your own mind
Self-doubt consumes you like no other
And now I’m losing, losing you as a brother
I know you’re not afraid to die
I won’t be there to watch you go
I won’t be there to watch you go
And if you start to sink below….I won’t be there to watch you go
Every day you keep yourself from doing what you say
Maybe I should stay, Maybe I should fucking stay
Keep your head down cause you just when to walk away
I’ve had enough and when you die I won’t be there to see the day
I’ll keep my head pointed at the sky
Lifted with affection that will not let you die
And if you start to sink below, just know…
I won’t be there to watch you go
I won’t be there to watch you go
And if you start to sink below, just know…
I won’t be there to watch you go
Cast yourself to the darkest corners of your own mind
Self-doubt consumes you like no other
And now I’m losing, losing you as a brother

12. New Days

ADALIAH LYRICS