AGORAPHOBIC NOSEBLEED LYRICS

1. Not A Daughter

Not knowing
Where illness ends
And you begin

At night
Confusion worsens
I become the center
Of hallucinations

You call
I come
These last memories...

Stop hurting me
Why are you doing this to me

I am nobody
Not a daughter
My face, empty
Empty as your eyes when you asked me
To end you

You stopped eating months ago
You were meant to die, months ago
When the cancer was caused by them

I wondered when
You would die

Your mind, a prison
My last moments with you

Get out!
Get out!

I am nobody,
Not a daughter,
Empty

2. Deathbed

Too late
The light left
Your hand twitched
Warm still

I cried your name
Forgive me
For not being there
Too late

I hate that you went
Without me
Unaware

I cried your name
Forgive me
For not being there
Too late

Blush left
A yellow hue
A frame so thin
I cried your name

A cold room
The TV buzz
A nurse who barely knew
Your name
Your living face

Forgive me
For being too late

3. Gnaw

"Before the advent of modern anti-psychotic medication most suffered of schizophrenia were unable to live or function independently."

[I]

A sharp snag,
caught against
in the snare
guilt clutch
guilt clutch cut
a dead end
struggle to understand

stunt
slow breathing
Give my early years back

and I can begin
and I can begin

Stretch the reject
Punish and affect
the wild wretch
the wild

the wild wretch
the wild wretch
the wild
the wild wretch

the edges we gnaw
caustic and sour
I beg for better

scrawl and watch you
murmur hope,
I beg for better

Punish and affect
the wild wretch

Punish and affect
the wild wretch
the wild wretch

Punish and affect
the wild wretch

the wild wretch

"Am, ...
... to understand, but I ... someone
I love my life.
And I don't even know ... survive like ... to die
How many notice ...
I just ...
My mom died, my father took off of me.
It hurts, it hurts so long."

[II]

Tear and trap
Knot
Stump slaughter
Sanity pulled
taught
pulled tight
shot

Stamp slaughter
knot
Tear and trap

murmur hope,
live in shame.
murmur hope,
live in shame.

Tear and trap
Knot
Stump slaughter
Sanity pulled
taught
pulled tight
shot

Stamp slaughter
knot
Tear and trap

murmur hope,
live in shame.
murmur hope,
live in shame.

Stretch the reject
Punish and affect
the wild wretch
the wild wretch

Stretch the reject
Punish and affect
the wild wretch
the wild wretch







AGORAPHOBIC NOSEBLEED LYRICS