ALPHAWOLF LYRICS

1. Ward Of The State

Neglected, abused, unspoken, recluse
Neglected, abused, unspoken, recluse
I'm a ward of the state motherfucker
Misunderstood and misread
I just want my own bed
The brain scans will have you lost inside my head

Where is help? Where is my guidance?
Where is someone who'll show me where the light is?
These walls are not my home
I've never felt so alone

I'm a ward of the state

2. No. 2

We fell in monochrome chaos
Selfishness brought resentment
But I do miss our moments in which we fell in unison

Your name is scarred on my heart
But please know I always loved you from the start

I'm so sorry dear, I never meant for this
Awake and missing you
Perpetual rest come gracefully
But please just know that I'm so sorry

3 AM artificial junctures instead of the astral plain
Fearing my grave in which my mind will lay

Painkillers are killing me, probably because the pain is me
Tell me that you love me, even though you're lying through your teeth

Acute mental attunement, I swallowed all these pills for you

You still had love to show, I still had blood to bleed
If you had so much love to show, why hold it to me?

You were my number one, you place me number two
My anxiety separated me from you
Cut it loose

My sounds still shackled to you

You were my number one, you place me number two
I loved how when you let me down, you took everything too

Eye, visualise ruining a fucking home
How does it feel to be the one with the second best?

3. Golden Fate; Water Break

You were my everything and you knew it
What did I do for this to be given?
No longer bound to this earth
No longer with me in remission
Here we go again, another loss, another false purpose
Here we go again, another metaphor for the absent
I slit my throat with the note that you left me
Not home, just a tilt shift monstrosity
I'll see you again if God doesn't hate me
Reaper show me your rib cage
They say it keeps the heart safe
Extortion's void, I've seen you pray
To rid the pain of a lover maimed
Consumed by cinder, a malicious defeater
It torched our home, like the rope burn around my neck
Brought upon the ash of cosmetic loss
Came a scar from the mind to the bone
And I hope you know, I can't do this on my own
You were my everything and you knew it
What did I do for this to be given?
No longer bound to the earth
Not one last conversation
You knew this from the start
It would break all our hearts
You knew this from the start (it's too goddamn far)
It would break all of our hearts (break all of our hearts)
I've got this hole in my chest, it's missing you I swear
Please come back home to me

4. Shinobi Naku

Sometimes I sit here and wonder if things were to be different
If I gave you more attention, if I wasn't so selfish
Could I really have been your lover?
Entwined to one another
Instead we lost ourselves
Lost ourselves and lost each other

The thoughts in my head
A sickened feeling of regret
Lovesick from love
I'm lovesick from love

This feeling is something I'll never forget
Please forget me

5. #104

It's live alone and die
With my heart on the outside
It's live alone and die
The choice of caskets threw me and left an empty reject
Made from missing mothers
I am now a defect
It's live alone and die

Quarter life lived, I'm a shell with no inside
Crying out for help but yeah, you don't realise
Years of pain and torment have you looked in my eyes?
Jump the lonely queue, bones hard to find
Okay you say? You've lost reality this day (no progress)
When there's nothing left to pretend, I've found I'm in love with my
depression

I pick myself up off the bathroom floor
Grit my fucking teeth, then put my head through the concrete wall
Grit my fucking teeth, then put my head through the concrete wall

I'm sorry it's lonely spending your time with me
Time flies pre-incarnated theories of Gauchais Reactions
I've got nothing to hold me
Let me go, tilt and grow, let me go I'm about to let go
Tilt an grow, let me go, tilt and grow

I pick myself up off the bathroom floor, look me up
I'm #104

Maybe I should just you know...

Click back barrel to the head? Maybe wrap some wire around the neck?
Suicide mosaic, make art with me
God without you I'm so lonely

6. Promise Stays

No sleep, whilst the promise stays
Pale skin upon a fragmented body
I extirpated what love told me
Knowingly, you were my melancholy
Knowingly, you were my melancholy

Sleep without you isn't right to me
I want you inside my head, a fallacious ghost I will see when I'm dead
These words come in black and white, reverberated and monochrome through my mind
Tailored to your broken sight, retribution for redemption
Not immune to lack of repentance, not how I hoped to be

No sleep, whilst the promise stays
Pale skin upon a fragmented body
I extirpated what love told me
Knowingly, you were my melancholy

Sleep without you isn't right to me

Fallacy they whisper in the ear of a recluse
My own perspective endures from chemical abuse
The nostalgia with this is no friend to I
No martyr complex, just the cycle of despair in your eyes

Sleep without you isn't right to me

No sleep, whilst the promise stays
Pale skin upon a fragmented body

Sleep without you isn't right to me

7. Mono

Can you say my name, for the wounds of yesterday?
Or should I say goodbye to the ocean in your eyes?
Can you say my name, for the wounds of yesterday?
Or should I say goodbye? Oh darling, one last time.

8. Failvre

I am sorry
The alprazolam rejects me
Please just pick up the phone, things are not that ugly
We're alright, I'm okay
Translucency to reluctant faith that everything won't be okay

But how long would it take for myself to suffocate?
A black hole prescription; an addiction
In hopes that things will get better
A black hole prescription; an addiction
Things are not getting any better

I'm sorry mother, I never ever wanted wanted this
But now I'm so goddamn close to pulling a Sid Vicious

I sold my heart to the tables, let the alcohol win
I swear I never ever ever meant for this
I should have grit my teeth kept it together for the kid
But these oxys always got me spitting shit

You told me it's with life you learn to live
With your body exposed, perpetuated oblivion

And I know it gets you off with my hands around your throat

Perpetually failing, consistently bleeding over and over again

You told me it's with life you learn to live
With your body exposed, perpetuated oblivion

What does it mean this time? Does it mean you actually love me?
Was it just fix? So that you are not like me
So goddamn lonely

9. Golden Fate; Gut Ache

I should have been there and I know it, there is no way to transpose it
Another text, another swipe to the left
I should have been there and I know it
The warning signs were there, I should have cared

I never thought you would let go
Your perceived strength was it all for show?

I know it was hard for you
And when I gave up you gave up too
And when I gave up you gave up too

My tunnel vision was vital leading you to desolation
And I wish I was there, all you wanted was resuscitation
Losing the self in constant oppression
My heart still mourns at the fault

Resent me
Resent me

I know it was hard for you
And when I gave up you gave up too
And when I gave up you gave up too

If I could turn back time, I wouldn't have run away (I'm sorry)

10. My Untold Memoir

Four men and still you were heavy
This was the one day I could near be ready
My brother, weeping in the distance
Our family, I'm really going to miss this
I stared at your name engraved in the casket
This can't be real, this sadness I must mask it
They lowered you down, accompanied by a song
And every time I hear those chords it hurts for so long
Your friends bid farewell by dousing you with flowers
These few moments felt more like hours
Greeting these people whom I barely knew
One thing was missing and it was you.
I love you

11. Epiphobia

Why do I always feel alone?
How do I stop these haunting thoughts?
Those violent sounds send me into shock
Where will I go? When will this stop?
My mind wants me to tie the knot

12. Devon St

This house, so fucking quiet
Death manifesting my thoughts
The breeze pushes on, moments lost
I stare at the glass, I see myself and see no other

These walls, these memories
Those holes, forget those holes
But this god shaped hole, found buried like a dark sigil within me
A broken mirror, distorted basket case
Our shielded skin is a thing of the past

Picture hooks where our photograph hung hook my soul from within

I am the decayed son

To bear witness to this, a life succumbed to this
Top to bottom, cardboard boxes, webs on the letterbox
The only thing stopping my dangling feet is having "Take Me Away" by Plot on repeat
I know I'm not the only one who's lost someone they love

If I can learn from this, then I will teach you this
Take all the time to reminisce
Take all the time to reminisce
Take all the time to reminisce

Grab someone you love, tell them that you love them and make sure that you mean it
I did that, I never got to fucking say goodbye

We are the dead generation, we're barely breathing and heavily grieving
You can count on us if you feel like you're lost
You haven't heard the last of us







ALPHAWOLF LYRICS