ALUSTRIUM LYRICS

1. A Tunnel To Eden

Always overlooked
Exists behind the scenes of my world
A hunger deep within
My perfect self dwells in my shadow
Reality goes black as tides of pain recede
Thoughts of my daily stressors dissolve from consciousness
Take hold of all that matters, a burning light within
Dispel all false illusions
Return to my perfection
Just out of consciousness to hide me from you, hide from all
Dig down away from earth
I enter a realm of peace
I retreat from this existence to embrace a greater form
Stripped away from mind and body
Endure only as sensation
Euphoric, delightful feelings stimulate my useless arms
Ripped away from mortal coil to a heaven free from toil
This, my end result
The justifying of my means
Self mutilation, poison is the final cure
Reality goes black as tides of pain recede
Dispel all false illusions
Return to my perfection
My shell, my useless corpse of dust
Silently, gracelessly crawls over blood and needles
A draining pulls from below
A haunting, dreading want
A terrible need for substance
A cry for more
The story begins anew
The quest for an escape
The charred remains of what was once a life exist only to taunt me
I retreat from this existence to embrace a greater form
Stripped away from mind and body
Endure only as sensation
Euphoric, delightful feelings stimulate my useless arms
Ripped away from mortal coil to a heaven free from toil
This, my end result
The justifying of my means
Self mutilation, poison is the final cure
Reality goes black as tides of pain recede
Dispel all false illusions
Return to my perfection
Just out of this, my world exists only pain
I’ve been hurt
Free from all weaknesses
I say my last farewell to you
I slip from my shell
I move into euphoria
A shapeless world with no bounds
Never mind the physical and never mind the consequence
Just keep on digging further down, and digging and dig
Layers of skin just melt away
Fall away at a touch, peel away as scabs
Sensitivity decreases as the world who never understood
Can never understand, will never understand why I dig

2. The Atheist Phenomenon

They try to dominate
Tell us what to think
But you believe differently so you are the devil
Spreading their white wings to envelope us all
Hoping to illuminate
Forward their agenda
They dismiss what you know intrinsically
All you know is a lie
Wrong
They offer their false proof to everyone
All while keeping closed minds
Wrong
Shouting words of disapproval to those who are content as is
Wrong
Forcing their precious books straight down your throat and who are you
to deny?
What kind of fool are you?
It’s plain to see
You have no proof otherwise
Give up your beliefs
Widely accepted prophecies
Laws to live your life by
They were once prosecuted, yet they do the same despite
This is a fact, you see
It’s objective truth
All that you know is faith
Why do you blindly accept it as fact?
Confirm all the evidence that applies
But dare not determine for yourself
Condemned by all who disagree
You must constantly try
Try to back up your beliefs as they repeatedly pry
All that you know is faith
Why do you blindly accept it as fact?
Confirm all the evidence that applies
But dare not determine for yourself
You are equally as blind as you think I am
All your facts are just blind faith
Hidden, disguised as truth
The blind lead the blind
The deaf hear the dumb
The dumb smite the deaf
The blind shout what they see
The deaf hear what they wish
The dumb speak no words
Hatred has always been directed at those deemed “non-believers”
The court may have changed, the audience new, but the rules and bloodshed remain
The atheist phenomenon, a church of defiance
The new worlds own crusade
Hatred will always be the antithesis of tradition and the past’s truth
But thesis and antithesis come together
Synthesis; born from hate
Humans seek their own truth
Disagreeing and denying
Science and religion function through the same means
Hard to accept that what you know is not knowing
It’s faith
Show us all some proof that is something you have found
Words of another do not count as evidence towards objective truth
What you believe is all written in some book
Just some book
Act as though you just know centuries of discoveries
These are not your own thoughts
Just the ones you believe
Force others to explain why they hold their values
Object, mock them, hate them
Pray upon their faith
These are not your own thoughts
Just the ones you believe

3. In His Own Image

Four point six billion years
Crafting, shaping, molding
The final inheritors of God’s land poised to bring it to an end
The extinct and the living and all to come bow in the wake of the new gods
With a hunger billions strong they spread out and conquer
And no other species is safe
The prophecy comes true, made in God’s image
The perfect race perfected at last
The planet now is doomed
As they feed, expand, and they wreck
Lets celebrate because evolution has worked
The final form has come to be
Fill the lands from end to end
Kill everything and drain the sea
Plague runs rampant through populations but constantly defeated by their science
The heavens send disasters, viruses and cancer
But no amount of rain could douse this fire
The blinded masses wonder of the apocalypse
But they do not realize their power end
Without regard for natural cycles or gradual depletion we’re bleeding the
planet dry
Plague runs rampant through populations but constantly defeated by their science
The heavens send disasters viruses and cancer
But no amount of rain could douse this fire
Lets celebrate because evolution has worked
The final form has come to be
Fill the lands from end to end
Kill everything and drain the sea
A culmination of liars and cut throats rule the world as masses of morons grow fat and tired
Without regard for natural cycles or gradual depletion we’re bleeding the planet dry
Bear upon your back responsibility for this devastation
Created in your image?
A little too well, too precise
Survival of the fittest is no more
Only the fit are alive
Witness perfection, masters of famine, pestilence and science
Go forth my sons
Put this world out of its misery
Tear it down
Wear down the mountains and build up the valleys
Push your boundaries further and further and further; end to end
Then build up
Grow tall and expand into heaven
Dominate that too
Strip it all away
Leave it bare
Leave this world hollow
Expand and then do it again

4. Wander

[Instrumental]

5. Slackjaw

In a world based on social norms, there are those who don’t fit the mold These people... are called insane
The machines work feverishly throughout night
Never ceasing, always driving
Working to keep up the pace, continue producing
Dangerous, overheating
The surveyors pick those who underperform, the stupid to hold them back, to replace their parts
Make them fit in, fix all their problems
The slow undergo a furious process to make them right
Never ceasing, always changing
Working to become the best, to get back in line
Constantly made to appease
The elites are well versed in machinery
Built to coerce the ones who are broken to make them function
Why is it that you refuse to stay in the lines?
I am asking you please just shut up and give in
I know it doesn’t make any sense to you now, but I promise by the end that you won’t even care
We’ll medicate, put him under
Get the restraints, tie him to the bed
Now behave, be one of us
Why are you screaming?
He resisting, he’s so sick
Just listen to us, we know what’s right
Why is it that you refuse to make up your mind?
I am asking you please just shut up and give in
I know it doesn’t make any sense to you now, but I promise by the end you won’t even exist
We’ll medicate, put him under
Get the restraints, tie him to the bed
Now behave, be one of us
Why are you screaming?
He’s resisting, he’s so sick
Just listen to us, we know what’s right
Crash, burn, now learn
This will not work
In our world of social norms, this one does not fit the mold
This boy has gone insane
Now, tie him down nice and tight, this is not going to go very smoothly
I’m going to shove this long metal rod into his eye and fix his brain
Good boy, now hold still
I would not want to slip up and destroy your mind
Good boy, now hold still
I would not want to slip up and destroy your mind
You have been fixed
The empty shell is all that remains
The person before now is dead
Staring slack-jawed at the wall
He’s now much less of a burden
We’ll parade him around, a triumph for science
Once guilty, now innocent
A sweet little angel, he’s helpless now but surely it’s an improvement
You have been fixed
Now offering a one time solution
A cure for mental illness
A crude, bloody, but easy trick capable of bringing them into the flock

6. Procreate, Eviscerate

Love seems so sweet, so important
Necessary to survival?
I think so
Procreate
Form a perfect life, forge a perfect world
Then cut it in half and throw it away
Eviscerate
She meets your desires
She is all you need
And so you work
To try to impress
Because you don’t know
If you can keep living alone
She doesn’t like it
So live a lie
And wear a smile
Don’t pretend that you don’t know
The stone drags down as dead weight
You cannot claw your way back to the top
The air flows from within as drowning screams
And is replaced by years of suffering
Love seems so vile, unimportant
Necessary to survival?
I think not
Procreated
Set off with good intentions, came back with only regret
And now you want a bullet in a brain
Hers or yours?
You stick around
It’s what you know
You can be happy
Don’t pretend that you don’t know
You’re dying inside
But there’s no escape
Just keep on acting
One of you will surely break
The stone drags down as dead weight
You cannot claw your way back to the top
The air flows from within as drowning screams
And is replaced by years of suffering
Better or worse
Its always worse
Maddening Disdain
Suffering
Chained together by promises and deceit
And all the while you keep feigning your smile
The stone drags down as dead weight
You cannot claw your way back to the top
The air flows from within as drowning screams
And is replaced by years of suffering
Forever is a long time to spend with your own bane
Love fleets so fast, time does not
And now you just want it to waste away

7. My Possessor

The beast feeds within
Feasting on my blood
With malicious intent
Teeth that rip
I feel it tearing organs
And shredding hope
It’s clawing at my stomach
With claws that burn
I cannot shake this
This feeling of self-loathing
I cannot take this
This gradual suicide
Something or someone eats away at the back of my mind, my identity
Scouring my every thought and notion
Turning pure thoughts into murder
The beast takes control of our shared body
Doing as I only watch
Spectate helplessly
I feel it slowly take all I am
Waves overflowing
Our consciousness
I cannot shake this
This feeling of self-loathing
I cannot take this
This gradual suicide
Something or someone eats away at the back of my mind, my identity
Scouring my every thought and notion
Turning pure thoughts into murder
I must fight the black that has now appeared
Within my veins
Inch by inch I’ll take control
Relearn how to stay my hand
My mind is torn apart
Ripped in two
Consciousness ripped in twain
Looking to find the root
Cut the head off this, my possessor
So a war rages in my head
I fight with all
My strength is not enough to fight
I lose track of the defining seam
We begin to meld
We begin to mesh
I will tolerate no more of this behavior from you
I have worked to raise us up, and I have worked to drag you down
I have worked raise me up, I have worked to pull you down
I have worked to make me great; I have worked to make you small
I will work to dominate; I will work to possess all
I will soon exterminate whatever piece of you remains
I accept this offering
It’s all for me
It’s always been for me
This is no longer yours
As we are now only one
As we go forward
Take comfort
I will bring us to an end

8. Lucid Intervals

[Instrumental]

9. The Illusion Of Choice I: Genesis

Encased in darkness all alone, drowned a sea of my plight
Being pulled farther down
Voices, muffled, far away, shrieks of pain and terror
Being forced out of my world
There is light
Crying for mercy
There is blood
Hoping for sympathy
Filthy and naked I’m pulled from the womb
I scream and am blinded by fear
This is our son and he will be great and he will make us proud
There is light
Crying for mercy
There is blood
Hoping for sympathy
Everyones smiling, amused by my pain
This world is a cold heartless place
He is so healthy and he looks so strong and he's excited to live
This is what we’ve worked for
The miracle of life
He will grow and he will love us
Why does he seem terrified?
Our lives are changed now for good
It feels as good as they’ve said
Such a shame this newborn babe will inevitably end up dead
I want to go back, but what is this?
I am so ravenous
Insatiable thirst for mothers milk
So cold, helpless, cannot fight,
Arms of the giants embrace
Squeezing me tightly and whispering evil
What shall we call this child?
Who shall we force him to be?
Pass the child
Clean the child
Feed the child
Love the child
Who are these monsters round me?
What is this body I'm in?
Who is this person I am expected to become?
Birthed into the physical
Its laws are beyond me
My scope of reference pales
Limitless possibilities
Who defines the formula?
Who assigns the punishments?
Who designed the cage I’m in?
What have I done?
Who consigned and left me here?
Who decides who is to blame?
Who decides that I am wrong?
Who is in control?
Force fed whats right
Will does not apply
Made to quiet down
Will does not apply
Will does not apply
You cannot define
Will does not apply
You cannot survive
Doomed to work with whats been given to me
Can not ascend from what I am
Must work to survive
Ask not why I’ve come to wreck your life
The blame lies
with you, I had no choice
And I know that its a shame
We never get to choose where we start
But we get a say in what we do and how it will come apart

10. The Illusion Of Choice II: Eros

Self-awareness finally
I’m no longer puzzled
By what I am now
I am a child
So much expected of me
Grow up, obey, learn
I know what I must do
Grow strong, be a man
Subservient to my masters
Everyone is above me
I will learn who I am
Mother
Nurse me, clean me, and teach how I am to act
To young as yet to write the rules
Maybe some day that will change
I will be what I wish
Learning
Language, faces and shapes
Society’s rule over me
Strangers are in charge
Schooling followed by work
Life goes on and I grow and things change
Then things change and I grow, life goes on
I am getting sick of this
Being under your foot
Life goes on and I grow and things change
Then things change and I grow, life goes on
Forge an identity other than somebody’s slave
I will work to free myself from society’s evil grip, its hatred of the individual I will break the bonds that were forced on me at birth
“Man is born free but everywhere is in chains” -Rousseau
I am forced to work, to learn a trade, to earn my keep
I am told to slow, settle and find another
I have become what I have feared most, a spouse, a dad, I’m chained
I’m no longer free to pursue my dreams, my destiny has run its course
Born into this world I was free of sins, but not without a path carved in stone by generations of the same men
I’m trapped and I cannot get out!
I struggle with the chains on my feet but the harder at them that I pull, the links become more entangled and ensnared
I’m tired
I give in I will conform
If I must I’ll play by the rules
And I do and when I do
I succeed
Now I’m getting old
I prepare for my rest
I look back at what I’ve done, at what I’ve created
Maybe my kin can break the chains that have bound me from first light
Maybe the new generation can fix the problems that have plagued mine

11. The Illusion Of Choice III: Thanatos

Now with all the knowledge
And skills gained in life
I move into exile
I’ve said my goodbyes
I’ve conquered every plain
My body is satisfied
Created, destroyed, questioned
I need only to die
As I’ve continued to grow I’ve noticed
With one blink of an eye
What was abundant now absent
And it’s impossible to stay in one state
With each passing second
The present problems become the past
Grow no more
Terminate
A concept debated for years
So final, so solid, so absolute
A word feared by every soul
Each heart beats frantically in cowardice
As I’ve continued to grow I’ve noticed
With one blink of an eye
What was abundant now absent
And it’s impossible to stay in one state
With each passing second
This generation becomes the past
It is time
Initiate
I came with nothing
I’ll leave with knowledge
I’m at my end
I embrace for the final moments
With everyone grasping for straws
Trying to explain
The meaning of it all, and how to die
The message is repeated by billions
We don’t know, we just don’t know
And I’m just trying to explain
Trying to move on
Trying to accept my age
With my head tilted back
My throat open, I scream to the gods
With such intensity my throat fills with blood
I tell the sky, I’m ready to die
A gasp for air, I fall to the ground
Once body, now merely a corpse
My skin shreds, my bones go to dust
My blood boils and seeps through the soil
What’s left, a soul left unbound
Now begins a sought after passage
Dark encompassed, I search for a light
The smoke and fog engulf all around
Terrified shrieks turn to laughs
I cannot feel but am filled with sensation
Come below the world and find
Punishment for all your crimes
A river of tortured souls
Flows forth to a mouth of enormous size
Swallowed, cleansed in acid
Surrounded by prying eyes
Join us as we all sit here for all of time and repent our past mistakes, and curse the god who breathed our breath into our lungs in the first place
Cut the thread
I have felt so certain
But now I’m not sure that I’m ready to leave
I have yet to even consider the possibility of oblivion
Or if it’s Hell that awaits me at the light
Feel the drain
Feel no pain
What of the end?
What will I become?
Where will I go?
Why did I live?
What was the point?
What did I gain?
Did I ask for this life?
When it’s your time to go, it’s your time to go
I never asked for this
I feel this is unfair
Ready
I need more time
Or
I am so afraid
Not
I lied to myself
Die
I don’t want to die
As I’ve continued to grow I’ve noticed
With one blink of an eye
What was abundant now absent
And it’s impossible to stay in one state
With each passing second
The present era the past
Grow no more
Terminate
It is time
Begin decay
This is the end
Pack all your things
Say your goodbyes
And evacuate







ALUSTRIUM LYRICS