ASHENGRACE LYRICS

1. Lament

this darkening winter blows across my aching heart
my strength is ebbing, my soul is coming further and further apart
I've never seen a drier season, never known such burning heat
and just beyond the door, the constant reminders of defeat

I sometimes don't want to believe that all we were has come to this
all my hopes, all your promises so easily dismissed
you hear what you want to hear and see what you want to see
and all these things are all you want and none of them are me

this feeling is fading, this promise lied, this soul has nothing to feel inside
these friends forget, these stars will fall, these words mean nothing to you at all
this child is abandoned, this dark burns clear, the one who believed in me disappears
this love is over, this endless dread is all I have left to feel instead

oh, it grows upon you like a raven perched above your door
it meets you face to face but always leaves you face down on the floor
never summon what you cannot dismiss it goes on with every kiss
like shadows of all that came before it stays with you forevermore

2. In The City Of Light

I wake into the day upon the dawn of apathy
here in the city of light, I see it all for what it is and then
those eyes, that mouth, that face, that girl, that distant stare
this heat, this line, one more reason to leave it all behind

I wander through the streets, listen to a city breathing
see the light nighttime writhe beneath the neon ground
condemning, they all move in line against the grain
I press my fingers to my ears, can't seem to drive out the sound

I couldn't if I tried break free from what I keep inside
her words become my underground when the streets of the city are paved with time
these hands hold empty space and push me so far and out of place
where names are not remembered, in a city it's just another face

3. Walking In Your Shadow

I'm walking in your shadow beyond your aching stare
too close to consequence, too far away to care
I'm gazing in your smile broken by the girl
it's not the end of the line but it feels like the end of the world

I'm going down on my knees for the last time to make you see
I'm open wide before you know, who do you want me to be?

I'm walking in your shadow in the sands of heaven's door
I bury myself in the riverbed where so long ago I washed upon your shore
I slip beneath your waters, dragged down by the stone
I breathe in winter and wait for the kindly ones to come and take me home

I could be all that I am, I should be all that you want
I could be all that you see, if I am anyone but me

4. From A Distance

from a distance I see this cynical world has come to be

everything that it promised it never would become
from a distance I see the curtains draw to a close
on the dreamers and poets and all that you love
goes down with the setting sun

their words are written in stone, their faces adorned with gold
I've been to their sages and the wisdom of ages
but I've never been this cold
with cheshire cat smiles they shattered this trust
I used to have gold but it soon became dust
I don't believe in god, I don't believe in love,
but I've always believed in you

from a distance I feel the fabrics open in down in your eyes
holding close, holding fast, but always holding me down
in an instant I try to open these wings unlearning to fly
face up to the rain asleep in the stale underground

their words are written in stone, their faces adorned with gold
I've been to their sages and the wisdom of ages
but I've never been this cold
with all that you love, and all that you need
no matter how long you try to believe
in the dreams that won't come and the words
that won't go either way, in the end you know

one foot on the staircase, one foot on the plains
either way i'll be waiting for you in the sun and the rain
I've never been this high, I've never slipped this low
the things that I dream, the dreams that I love
are the only things left that you'll never know

you'll never know

5. Sonata In F#M (Amanda's Song)

[instrumental]

6. Throb (Hands Of Poseidon mix)

these echoes play across her footsteps in the undertow, fading through your winter
and all the places that we used to know
colder still these feelings drown beneath your feet in velvet sounds
you bring me here, and bring me home and hold me close, and hold me down

it's a change, it's a turn it's the wrong way in a city paved with time
it's a heart, it's a burn, it's a reason and all the blame was mine
it's a night, it's a time for breaking it's a throb in a soul unfurled
it's a loss, it's a bridge of silence from here to the end of the world

and all we were burns slowly in dying fires and falling trees
and we become just one more reaching hand slipped deep into the sea
these fading eyes can't catch the light so far in front of me
that shines from all you tried to hold and throbs forth to bury me

it's a sin, it's a lie, holy water that never removes the stains
it's a drug, it's a fix, it's a mainline of the purest form of pain
it's a word it's a page of promises that are always broken (but always remain)
it's a drown at the hands of poseidon, it will never be, it will never be the same...

7. Headclouds Over Rising

across the children close, beyond the faces where I hide
in this empty torn up word, this creeping deep inside
this heaven swims into the blue you know I still look up to you
in love in everything you do, in every everything you do

render me in shadow, hold me in the face of a girl
when the marching men are drawing shades around your useless empty world
no love no more no reasons for
no hope no light no open doors
no words no consequences
no truth no pride no elegances

the storm of pain in coming soon to make these lies pull down the moon
all that you love sets down below and drowning fast in the undertow
on comet's tails we're breaking free from what's to come, from what will be
we know just where we want to go, for all of you, you'll never know
(she will be more than all you are, she'll never see your falling star)

where no shadows block the sun
where no hope is lost, where no rivers run
where the sun blooms for just one day
where we find the place, a winter hideway
forevermore I live this day

I let my ashen graces down, and pull my heart up from the ground
just for one chance to shine brighter than a thousand suns
for love, for truth that now is gone
I once was lost, but now am found
was blind but now I see

and for rhiannon is my elation
and for the lost ones there is nothing
and for rhiannon is my elation
and for the father there is nothing...

8. Murrain

in the dark of night I watch the shadows loom
the entity waits in the corners watching my every move
a knock at the door, a break in the waiting, an end to the silence
an end to the hopes and remains

I turn to the light and open the door
but cannot break the static sound
and all my actions amount to nothing
whether giving up, or giving in, or never coming down
all the dreams I had to give were all the things you disdained
what used to be mine became yours in the end
what used to be pure had become so murrain

and the spirit of hope
lies hopelessly still
the hurting will heal
but the heart never will
the dreams that I share
are the first things they take
sometimes I believe
I was god's first mistake

I don't believe in progress, I don't believe in change
I don't have anything you'd want to steal
I don't believe in god, I don't believe in love
and I don't believe I can feel
with cheshire cat smiles she shattered this trust
we used to have gold but it soon became dust
set course on the waves and unfurled my sails
what used to be hope, just one more reason to fail

and the spirit of hope lies hopelessly still
and the hurting will heal but this heart never will
and the dreams that I share they are the first thing they take
sometimes I believe I was god's first mistake...

9. Blue Ruin

cold, distant light...
in this stale instant I might

believe I might be one with you
it seems it's all I ever do

this is pain, this hunger to be
more than I am but who I used to be
all I see in your sweltering gaze
is all that will never be

"you surround me in a tower of gold
you gave me dreams to dream and helped them to unfold
you saved me from myself and freed me from the stone
you are the bluest ruin I have ever known.
You took these broken wings and taught them how to fly
you gave me dreams to dream and gave me reasons why
you made me believe in you, you made me all you home
you are the bluest ruin I have ever known"

dark frozen stares...
across the aching sea of neverwhere
through the looking glass the sorrow swells
her bold pronouncement and her tale to tell
this is the (there is no) easy way out
through the Tower to the razor's shout
she spins the web around me and pulls me to my knees
she sets ablaze the Giving Tree and throws it to the sea

"you submerge me in your static gaze
you leave me burning in the shimmering haze
you are the one who leaves me clawing down alone
you are the bluest ruin I have ever known
you inspire me in ways you cannot see
and when I let go of my failings you'll be there to remind me
i'll drown in sorrow's wake, dragged down by the stone
you are the bluest ruin I have ever known"

10. Lament (Reprise)

this feeling is fading, this promise lied, this soul has nothing to feel inside
these friends forget, these stars will fall, these words mean nothing to you at all

this child is abandoned, this dark burns clear,
the one who believed in me disappears
this love is over this endless dread
is all I have left to feel instead

sleep... perchance to dream...





ASHENGRACE LYRICS