AS LIONS AND LAMBS LYRICS

1. Flatline

I'm losing my sense of direction
I can feel my heart give in
This is the beginning of my end

Flatline

2. Bitter

These words that are written in pen
Are like a loaded gun to my head
You've pulled the trigger one thousand times
And I still feel the pain every time I died

Why is it that I never get the closure that I need to move on?
And that I'm always left behind second guessing my life
Do you remember, do you remember
When you would call me brother?

When you would call me brother? Oof!

A bond unbreakable
Trust, love, and respect
Honor until the end
Did it ever mean a thing to you?
Did it ever mean a damn thing to you?

I can't escape from this prison
These walls around me are caving in (Caving in)
I'm reaching out but you let me go
And now I'm all alone (Now I'm all alone)
So go ahead and live your life (Live your life)
And pretend like I don't exist (Like I don't exist)
Will you even miss me when I am gone?

Now I'm all alone

You left me. You left me.

Why am I so obsessed with approval?
Especially when I'm looking for yours
The silence was more than enough to kill me
And it's killing me
How could you throw me away?
Like I'm worthless and disgusting
I guess I never meant anything to you
Cause all you see is a self righteous bastard

I am so fed up believing things will be the same
Oh, who was I kidding?

I'm dying a little bit more on the inside
And each day is a struggle to survive
There's no one I can trust
There is no one
All my friends have turned their back on me
Maybe I'm better off this way
Dying alone

These words that are written in pen have blown a hole straight through my head.
Watch the light begin to fade from my eyes.
There is no turning back.
I'll rest in peace tonight.

Goodbye to the friend I knew
Goodbye, I'm sure you'll miss me too
Goodbye to the life I knew
Goodbye, I'm sure you'll miss me
No one will miss me

3. Hang Up

My emotions have been veiled for far too long
The seams are ripping
This rage can't be contained
My stomach is churning solely at the thought of you intoxicated

We're addicted to what gets us by
We're addicted to what makes us happy
We're addicted to what helps us sleep at night
We're addicted to our pride and selfishness

I'm not one for pointing fingers but I'm so done with this
Years of watching those I love succumb to ignorant bliss
I remember the night with your hands gripped around my neck
Oh God I've been trying to make myself forget

I shut my eyes and pretend everything is alright
But when they give in I feel part of me die
No one will ever know what was taken from me. Taken from me.

This has never been easy for me and I don't think that it will ever be

How can my soul ever be at rest?
When my heart's bursting through my chest
I took a glance into your hollow eyes to see a father who only lived to die
Nothing I do will bring him back
But the memory forever lies within

The memory of him forever lies within
Forever lies within

I shut my eyes and pretend everything is alright
But when they give in I feel part of me die
No one will ever know what was taken from me. Taken from me.

All I want is to forget
All I want is to forget
All I want is to forget
All I want is for you to come home

4. Confessions

Dear friends, I can't seem to remember the last time I felt alive.
Quite honestly it's been so long since I've felt anything at all.
My heart aches and my body trembles as the thoughts begin to swell in my mind.

Leaving me with nothing except emptiness and lust.
The bitter cycle that has me in shackles
She clawed at my door and I let her in.
I'm sorry my friends
I'm not the man you believed me to be.

I feel a disconnect between myself and your heart.
I can't breathe; pulse is fading
Now I'm stuck at the start.
Will there ever be any hope for me?
Cause I am drowning in this ocean of agony.

You are nothing
A disgrace
A failure
You amount to nothing
Sink deeper

5. Desolate

Sister, there's so much that's left unsaid
Like the hole that's in my heart
And the knife stuck in your back

Betrayed by those we love and left all alone
With no father to give us direction where we should go
Suppressing emotions to get you by and expecting it to last a lifetime
We can't go on living beneath these lies

I promise to hold you up when you're too weak to stand
On your own

With every bit of strength left in me
I will rebuild what's been taken within

And they were gone within an instant
Vanished before our eyes
How much can one endure until they've completely run dry?
And so we watched our father die
Our whole world it fell apart
I watched you give it all to a man who never cared for your heart

Desolate

When will enough be enough?
When will this ever end?
I replay these thoughts over and over
I am stuck on repeat

Sister it kills me to have seen you like this
I will hold on just for you
So we can see this to the end
I will do my best to silence my thoughts
So I don't suffocate and end up like the rest

God breathe life into these broken souls
Restart our hearts and make us whole
Make us whole

I refuse to let you fall

Somehow I'll see us through this
Even if we're the only ones left standing here
Always I'll be right here
This comes straight from my heart
A brother's love lasts forever

6. Riven

There is something clearly wrong with me
Something in my head is not okay
(Okay, okay, okay, okay)
And I can't seem to face the day
(I'm not okay)

My soul is tied to sin like a noose from a tree
Where misguided hands are free to take a piece of me
I tried to do every that's right
I've become the failure I feared I might
I've been swayed to and fro
With no stability for my roots to grow
All my branches have withered away
And all that's left is decay

Who am I?
What is left of me?
Will I ever find my true identity?
I've been searching in the void hoping to find my purpose
Cause I'm convinced I am worthless

Peel back the flesh
Open up my chest to reveal
Everything in me that I've tried to conceal

Everything is finally exposed
This is the life I chose, this is the life I chose
Everything is finally exposed
This is the life I chose, this is the life I chose

I've tried so hard to be your worthy son
It's impossible to undo the damage that's been done to me
God send me hell 'cause I deserve to burn like the rest

I betrayed the Father and abandoned the Son
I betrayed the Father for the sake of pleasing everyone
I betrayed the Father and abandoned the Son
For the sake of pleasing everyone

7. Remembrance

[Instrumental]

8. Bad Dream

I found a passion at the age of five
A burning light inside my soul
Then with absolutely no warning the spark was snuffed out
Now I'm lost in the dark
So now I'm all alone; my best friends are my fear and doubt.
Crawling on the floor clawing at the walls; trying to find a way out

Bad dream. Make it stop. Make it stop.
Bad dream. Let me wake up.

Slipping into the sorrow inside my mind
No one sees the chaos behind these eyes
I'm sinking. Sinking. Just say goodbye.
Let me go. Let me go. Let me go.
I'll be fine.

Let me go. I'll be fine.
Let me go. I'm not fine.

I still believe that there's a purpose for my life
But it's getting harder
Harder to see it, my vision clouded by the strife
When something you've take for granted is taken away
It can bring you to your knees

I'm sick of being sick
I'm tired of being tired
I'm broken and it's breaking me
Trapped inside my brain with no hope for victory
Cause every second of my life is plagued by doubt
I don't think I will ever get out
It's breaking me
This curse is never ending

Slipping into the sorrow inside my mind
No one sees the chaos behind these eyes
I'm sinking. Sinking. Just say goodbye.
Let me go. Let me go. Let me go.
I'll be fine.

I'll only get better I'll never get worse
I'll never get better I'll only get worse
I'll only get better I'll never get worse
I'll never get better

This torture will end, I'll be set free from the curse
I want to believe the better things that I have heard
But the voices in my head are screaming these words
The voices are screaming

Never better. Only worse.

9. Rest

[Instrumental]

10. The End

A relationship mired in difficulty
Actions are triggered that can't be undone
Father can you hear my voice tremble
This conversation has only just begun
These words slip from my mouth so quickly
Sometimes I wish that you'd never called me son

My anger builds as the darkness grows. Deadly poison pours like fire from my mouth.
A long history becomes exposed. After years of silence, it finally comes out.
Showing no mercy and no restraint. Cutting you down with the toxic words that I say.
A knife penetrating straight to your deepest fears. These remarks that I can't ever unsay.

Oh God. I can never unsay.

I did not hesitate to put you in your place
But I can't shake the feeling this was a mistake

Unforeseen your life is ended in a flash
With words regretted still lingering
Instantly panic starts to set in
I can't fix what I've done because I realize

Your life has ended
Life ended

Is this the hell that I damned you to
Caused by the pain I put you through?

Is this the predetermined outcome
Of false words that were spoken in hatred?

This is the hell that I damned you to
A piece of me that was forever left with you

This is the final resting place for you
As you left this world before the time had come for you

This is the end

Though the end has come my mind will not cease
Thoughts batter my mind keeping me from sleep
Your name repeated breaks me at the seams
Even coming into my dreams







AS LIONS AND LAMBS LYRICS