BAYONET LYRICS

1. Nightmare

Is this oppression?
Or obsession?
With a life that I can't come to terms with?

Is this karma?
Or is it payback?
All from some unknown resentment?

Cause I just want to know myself.
Oh I just want to love myself.

Like an addict to a vein I want something to
blind me from the emptiness and pain.

So what's the point to all this mess?
{I} Want a face worth shaving,
{I} Want a soul worth saving.

I keep an arms length
distance from my lovers cause my father.
You know what he made me.
I'll never be set free.

And can you really tell me that
you know the person you lie in bed with?
All their secrets when they feel pathetic?

And it's our hope to feel that close
I try [x4] and I don't!

Everybody wants to believe
that their life is really filled with meaning.
When will I be free?

I wish I could, wish I could say everything
that I feel without judging.
Who I was in my eyes
cause then I just might disguise.

Speak with honesty, set my own heart free.

Just like I said before
is it worth even keeping score?
Cause everything that I ever did was a miss. (Take!)

I really wish that I was better than this.
I still want something that I probably won't get.
It doesn't matter who you are at the start.
It matters who you are when everything falls apart.

I live my life like I'm going to hell.
So when I get there I won't feel like I fell.
From heights, through the lights.
At least I'll know what just hit me.

A simple point, a simple fact
that I can't take my words with me.

2. Who's Gonna Want Me Now?

One, two, fuck you!

I hear the city sky alive
with cast iron vultures.
Screaming tirelessly
"you never did what you wanted."

It's all in my head
like a soundtrack. I'm haunted
by all the "what ifs"
by the missed chances.

From a drunken kiss
that could have been my ticket.
From that someone who cared
or that someone that dared.

Look inside this boy
and saw something worth repair.
Been beaten by all of my bad decisions!

It leaves the bottle
stuck to my lips like ribbons.
I'm a present
that should never be given.

I hope I'm history.
I hope I'm never re-written.
What does Jesus Christ know about redemption?

Cause who the fuck is gonna want me now?

3. Harsh

Her lashes stuck
with palm prints to my face.
I never wanted to be
what I always hate.

A new scent
from old regrets
like the backhand
from my fathers glance.

And I'm crucified
if I believed
the cross meant anything.

Oh heaven sent him?
Well I forgot him.
It didn't help my mother pay the rent.

And in the view of 'Perfect Town'.
I was the bastard with a broken crown.

I'm just trying to figure out
why I did this. (Why I did this!)

Believe me!
(Believe me!)
You need me
cause I'm fucked up.

And I'm just trying to figure out
why I'm so in love with doubt.
Why am I so afraid?

What is it that keeps me up at night? [x2]

The passion the feel,
the tear in the seal,
the lies and the lies
and the lies that I tell.

Why did I do this?
Why oh why oh why?
And how can I fix this
How could how could I?

And I'm just trying to figure out
why I'm so in love with doubt.
Why am I so afraid of myself?

What is it that keeps me up at night? [x2]

The passion the fail,
the blood in the sail,
the lies and the lies
and the lies that I tell.

I'm still so afraid
(Give me!)
of the life I'd like to live.
(A reason to go on!)
[x2]

Give me a reason to go on alone.
I'm still afraid.

And all I ever wanted was to not feel alone.
All I ever wanted was to find my way home.
All I ever wanted was to not feel alone
but that's exactly what I got
'cause that's exactly what I'm owed.

4. Black Bird

Anniversaries
they never comfort me.
Just a day reminding me
of disease.

I'm sniffing salt,
I'm sniffing salt,
at the coming week
it's all my fault.

All my fault.

Cause my father is a bastard
I should stuff like a pig!

But I'm left alone to watch you burn,
watch this city fucking burn!

I'm everything
that you taught me to be.
You know what? I'm a lie,
I'm a fucking disease.

Don't feel young,
don't feel love,
I'm a passionate kid.

Fuck hope,
fuck you
and fuck this city.

Life doesn't care about the things
that you think you had planned,
or what you want to turn out,
or what you need in the end.

Life doesn't care about your plans.
(Fuck hope!)

Goddamn, you old man
your not who I wanted to be.
When you turn out your lights
I hope that you see me. (I hope you see me!)

All I ever wanted was for you to want me.
All I ever wanted was for you to love me.

And when you read this
I want you to know
this is my last chance trying,
my last chance for you.

And don't you care
about your fucking daughter?
And how can you call yourself
my fucking father?

And I've hated you
since I was a young boy.
And now I'm all fucked up,
all fucked up from you.

Love me to death.

No matter what I do,
I always forget,
I always forget to forget you.

No matter what I do,
I always forget,
I always forget. (To forget you!)
[x2]

No matter what I do,
I always forget,
I always forget to forget

Regret.
(Regret!)
[x3]

Regret the years
you made me wait
to just find out
that I was your mistake.

5. New York Minutes

Where did you go?
So far from everything I know. (I know.)

Leaving no room to grow.
Where did you go?

So far from everything I know.
(Where did you go?)

I watch you ruin
everything good in my life.

Live in the moment and you'll see.
(Wake up wake up it's time to be!)
Everything that you want and need.
(Wake up wake up it's time to be!)

I'm caught in the past
now it's my time to stand.
I've got no home.
I've got no plan.

(Wake up wake up!)
Shut up.

Just leave it here
upon deaf ears.
The ones who fall away,
we fall. (We fall.)

It wasn't like this,
it wasn't at all.

Where did you go?
So far from everything I know.
(Where did you go?)

I am blessed by error.
I am blind by love.
[x2]

Live in the moment and you'll see.
(Wake up wake up it's time to be!)
Everything that you want and need.
(Wake up wake up it's time to be!)

I was caught in the past
now it's my time to stand.
I've got no hope.
I've got no plan.
(I've got no plan!)

I'll sail this ship across the sea.
In ritual waves of misery.
I find myself alone tonight.
Find myself without a light.
I've always been a tragedy
a fucking waste of everything.

I hate myself.
I hate my fucking self.





BAYONET LYRICS