BEARDFISH LYRICS

1. The One Inside, Part One: Noise In The Background

Are we born to live our lives alone?
Are we meant to walk that straight line with our eyes fixed to the ground?
So we don't offend anyone
Through the pain and the grief
You've been my one and only relief
Cause this town is sad
And we like it that way
You're born here, you stay put

2. Hold On

Hold on
Hold on my friend
When was I replaced?
It wasn't I who raised a hand
To have my say
To have my say
I spoke anyway
And I really cared
That's probably why
I'm so scared, not anymore
I look into the mirror
But I don't recognize those eyes
They used to reflect the flame that burns within
Hold on
Hold on my friend
So I'm still alive
Serenity is playing tricks with my head
I can't hear my breathing
Harboring the soul
It's in a state of waiting for something new
Anything
But I don't recognize those eyes
They used to reflect the flame that burns within
They used to reflect a flame burning from within
Now in a colder state
Can we please begin
I got places to be and people to meet man
My voice matters too
But I don't recognize those eyes
They used to reflect the flame that burns within
Hold on
How can you ask me to be consistent
Nothing is as the sun won't rise today
Why do you want me to stay the same
Life wasn't meant to be that way
Crawl back in your dirty little hole
Hold on, don't let go
Terrible feeling of letting you slip away
Oh no they're coming to take you away from me
Over and over and over again

3. Comfort Zone

And so you come to serve me now in the concord of your arms
I may rest for a while
May the past be a hazy shadow
Cause you may think it's done with you
I can't believe those grey eyes could ever be so blue
Turn the past to a hazy shadow
From where we exit our comfort zone
What is it good for
In that aspect I was childlike, they said
Because I couldn't see beginning nor end
But on this bed I ride the guilt trip
Knowing in full
That it's my own fault
But aren't we all childlike,
I mean
Your crystal alp top dream of life in infinity
Amazes me that you're afraid of something beyond today
Death walks behind you I guess
I've always been childlike that way
Cause you will hear me when I can't have my say
I have to keep from bargaining with some higher force
To please extend my stay
But
Why?
I don't even like it here
And I do nothing but curse the very lot of you
I hate everything and everyone except for the chosen few
I often longed for this day
As your grip tightens you smother me with love
As good as it may feel
Suddenly I urge to break free and run
Watch me disappear, dissolve into thin air
I often longed for this day
But now I want to stay (and it's all because of you)
My body lingers, wants to fight
Knows nothing but to fight
Knows only how to stay
As your grip tightens you smother me with love
As good as it may feel
Suddenly I urge to break free and run
Watch me disappear, dissolve into thin air
I often longed for this day
But now I want to stay (and it's all because of you)

And as I draw my final breath
The world keeps spinning on like a worn out song from the 70s
Will it ever go off the air?

4. Can You See Me Now?

Setting out with a scythe to calm their hybris
All their stupid hopes will wither
I shall wake them from this dream
Oh, their murmuring tongues
I will slither
And the world shall tremble at my feet
Oh their laughter
As my nervous grin was smacked from face
I thought that
I deserved it
The mirror had already told me how deserving I was
Of abuse to body and mind
And so with time grew hate where love once resided
Years pass but a change won't surely come
You know that those who don't deserve it
They gnaw and they claw their way while always licking upwards and furiously kicking down
So what is status?
It's a value standing firm
But I will be the hand of those whose faces you stepped upon
I am plotting with every breath
I take life is at stake
And as your children shape themselves in your image
When they grow up to be just like you
And when they push the kid with the glasses
Face first in a puddle of mud
Will you secretly smile and think "that's my boy"?
One day you won't be so lucky
My only fear is to go by unnoticed
I demand you to see me this time
Therefore I long to be apprehended
And watch you closely as you learn it was always I...

5. King

And from now on I shall call them skeletons
Because that is what they are
Underneath that stinking flesh
Where does this "spirit" you speak of live
Come where I've been chosen King
I will teach your tongue to sting
As poison
What's your weapon of choice
All it will take are words and a voice
Always listening carefully
Tapped into the spiritual radio of yours
The broadcast is never-ending jibber-jabber
Form your legions in the streets
Mindless slaves in every fleet
Caress their minds with empty promises
You know what you want
That makes it easier
Always listening carefully
Tapped into the spiritual radio of yours
The broadcast is never-ending jibber-jabber
Centers round me, me, me
Come where I've been chosen King
I will teach your tongue to sting
To form the words they want to hear if they are true
What do I care
We silence anyone who's in our way
I hope you know that everyone is for sale
And I have kept my eyes on you
Ever since you were a child
Your lust for power was calling on me
It welcomed me to come inside and assume control
So I did
How could you know that I was evil
Bet you're sorry now, right?

6. The One Inside, Part Two: My Companion Through Life

Come into my life
Come share your strength
Let's make it ours
We'll carve our names out of thin air
Shock and awe by fang and claw
I will be yours
Will you be mine if
I confess everything?
Hurt me then smile
My feelings grow
Shock and awe by fang and claw
People will hate us
Into the darkness we go (my feelings)
Up the hill, down the hill (you lead me)
Into the wild dark night
I know you
I feel you
Now you are a part of me
I see you
You touch me
I can never do that to you
We both know with love comes trust
You will give me everything
And I allow you anything

7. Daughter / Whore

I can feel the hate mixed perfectly with love in my spine
Because deep down inside
I know she's not mine
There's a law to this call
I'm physically stronger than her so my will is her command
I'm physically stronger than her so let free will be her fall
I'm her father, mother, brother
She will listen to me
What does honor mean
She was born a woman
She can never be free
Is this fair
I admire you the most
You're braver than anyone I know
You sacrifice your life to live
I'm physically stronger than her so my will is her command
I'm physically stronger than her so let free will lose her fall
As you let this hatred outshine the love of your child
Your soul dies
Step inside
Where no words can touch you
This is where you came from
This is where your hate resides
Where fear and love lies waiting for you
You have got to think, think, think and then think some more
Did you just call your daughter a whore
Did you?
There's a law to this call
I'm physically stronger than her so my will is her command
I'm physically stronger than her so let free will be her fall
As you let this hatred outshine the love of your child
Your soul dies

8. If We Must Be Apart (A Love Story Continued)

She still thinks about him from time to time
It can be just a familiar feeling running through her
What would he have thought about this and that
Once upon a time he made her heart beat faster
Now he's more of a ghost who haunts her
And her husband can never know
Even with the new life that grows inside her
She still thinks about him from time to time
Ten years have passed since they lived together
Living through the trials of figuring out
That they were no good for each other
His love was dark and made hers darker
The kind of violence that leaves no bruises
Sings like when a hammer hits steel and resonates along her spine
Now he's more of a ghost who haunts her
And her husband can never know
Even with the new life that grows inside her
She still thinks about him from time to time
He's finished with his letter he thinks it sounds decent enough
It must be a real letter because that's the way you deal with love"
I cannot believe it's been so long since we last spoke
You should see me now and how my life is just a joke
Everything I do reminds me of everything we used to do"
She didn't know that he felt this way"
How could he keep this from me
Even though
I couldn't stay
I still feel for him in some funny way"
Can I come closer
Can't you come closer
Could we be closer
Would you want to meet me, just to see you would be nice
If there's nothing left, if we're like strangers then that's that
Everything would be a waste of time,
I'd might as well end it all
As they cling onto the past
Everything changes fast
While spying on her online
There's an unwelcome surprise
He can see that she's with child

There's no time for a letter now he just wanna leave but he doesn't know how
As the memories turn grey
Only one way left to make it all go away
Black magic in my broken heart
It's the only reason it's still beating
Black magic in my shattered heart
I take my life if we must be apart
Gather my thoughts,
I cry while they align
All play their part in the crime
Creeping and crawling, soon we stand
All hail by my command
There's darkness living in my heart
I take my life if we must be apart
Gather my thoughts,
I cry while they align
All play their part in the crime
Creeping and crawling, soon we stand
All hail by my command
Black magic lives inside my heart
It's the only reason it's still beating
Black magic in a shattered heart
I take my life if we must be apart
Her eyes are all
I see as she embraces me
I'm drowning in a dream while floating down the stream
She feels him can't let go
He's there, he's in her head
Oh let this be a dream
He can't be dead
She still thinks about him from time to time
She remembers that night when she found him laying
Curled up like a ball inside a circle of candle lights
He wasn't dead, he wasn't there, it wasn't him no more
He couldn't speak from all the pills he'd swallowed
The sight of his harrowed face could have made her sick
And when she sat by his side, holding his hand
The only words she could decipher were "black magic"
She reads the letter again, she knows it now by heart keeps it in a drawer along with some old photographs
It's a picture of a younger her together with someone she once loved
He lost his mind and he said it was because of her
She looks into her newborn daughter's eyes
She still thinks about him from time to time

9. Ode To The Rock'n'Roller

It feels like I've been doing this for a million years
Every note has been played before in this exact order too
And none of those buttholes out there really want anything new
So I just keep on cookin' this ol' familiar stew
And it's kind of rank
Hey, won't you look at me now
They seem to think that
I've lost it somehow
Hey mama look at this
I'm shooting cascades of boogaloo jizz
I am in a state of drunk as fuck on a stage in a city somewhere
But I know my guitar and I know this song
Cause I've been singing it for far too long
What's that noise in the background
I'm the noise in the background
Wait, what's this
Suddenly I'm sucked into a place
Maybe a different dimension, I don't know
This is a place where they make music that's not
Written to accompany the vacuuming of your flat
Whoa, what the hell was that
Like I was running around on a fucked up music sheet
One minute I was rollin' on a river
And in the next I got caught up in the rites of spring
I can't help wondering if the audience felt it too
If I close my eyes and squeal they look pretty pissed out there
What's that noise in the background
I'm the noise in the background
I opened my heart and my soul for you, but you didn't understand
Your mind was locked
You just thought I was trying to be cool
I might have been somewhere else in time and space
But you looked at me as if I was possessed
Through a bolt of electric shock
Clear as a mountain stream
It came to me
What I've always known and forever killed a lifelong dream
They didn't come to listen they came here to drink
So play those three chords over and over
So they don't have to think

It feels like I've been doing this for a million years
Every note has been played before in this exact order too
And none of those buttholes out there really want anything new
As long as the beat keeps pumpin' (play Creedence)
And if the pint of lager is cold
Flick of a switch and the organ is grinding
Be that noise in the background
Just keep it on the backbeat
The rhythm of drinking
Till the singer goes "Yeah Yeah Ye-ah!"
Everything is, yeah
I said
Everything is fine
Everything is yeah, you guessed it
Everything is just fine

10. The One Inside, Part Three: Relief

My companion through life but what's your name?
I thought I knew...
Whispered in code, in fragments and secrecy
Part by part, forty and counting
Through the pain and the grief
You've been my one and only relief
Cause this town is sad and we like it that way
You're born here, you stay put
What should
I call you my dear?
As you set my soul on fire
Burning only to carbonise
But not yet,
I'll use you first
You've fed on me
I'm almost gone
Time to sin before the dawn
Burning only to carbonise
Time to sin, shine so brightly one last time







BEARDFISH LYRICS