BEING AS AN OCEAN LYRICS

1. Pink & Red

[Instrumental]

2. Black & Blue

Have you ever heard that love is a metaphor
A metaphor for the taste of the bottom the fall to the floor
I fall to the floor
I remember me and you
I remember what you did
I remember being numb
I remember feeling sick
For the taste of the bottom the fall to the floor
Have you ever heard that love is a metaphor
For the way you failed me and now I'm failing you

"I want you to listen very very carefully"

Like the serpent's tongue
Like the storm that shakes me
Like the hand that beats me
Until I'm black and blue
Like the autumn chill
Like the love that failed me
Let the earth remove me
Black and blue
Black and blue

Have you ever heard that death is a metaphor
A metaphor for
What if I'm not good enough
What if I'm not strong enough
What if I'm not kind enough
For what happens next
For what happens then

Like the serpent's tongue
Like the storm that shakes me
Like the hand that beats me
Until I'm black and blue
Like the autumn chill
Like the love that failed me
Let the earth remove me
Black and blue
(Until I'm black and blue)

(Like the serpent's tongue)
Like the serpent's tongue
(Like the storm that shakes me)
Like the storm that shakes me
(Like the hand that beats me black and blue)
Like the hand that beats me black and blue
(Like the autumn chill)
Like the autumn chill
(Like the love that failed me
Let the earth remove me)
Black and blue

3. Floating Through Darkness, They Seemed

[Instrumental]

4. Glow

There can be so much tragedy
In a smile such desperation in embrace
We all ache for a taste of humanity
As the widow for one last glimpse of her beloveds face
We long for security
Sanctuary belonging
What then prompts the heart of stone
Often the object of overlooked affections
To slash and burn before the harvest reaps what was sewn
To look half themselves in the eyes see the scars on their skin and continue to not pay fucking attention

Like street lamps we glow so dim
Shattered people shatter hopes
The four walks you shut me in
Don't be misery's company

If only more of us would choose
To look back contemplate those springs of youth
Recollections of laughter
Recall that sense of wonder
When nothing else seemed to matter
(Running through rivers swimming in fields of sunflower)
Time has a funny way of coercion
Tricks us into thinking that our past dreams
Were only passing lunacies
Better scattered to the wind
Lamenting I'll never love like my first though I've forgotten their kiss
I'll never be truly happy though I can't remember joys of heaven
I can't stop paying attention I swear I'll keep remembering

Like street lamps we glow so dim
Due to the shade in which we're placed
The four walls you shut me in
Homes were never meant to be prisons

So every time I pick up a mic
I pray my words only serve to remind
This life is what we make of it though we feel trapped in our own minds
From every morning breath we can choose
End the cycles of abuse
I'll embrace the vulnerable
I'll embrace the broken we can only show what we're shown
And I know that love is worth the risk
Blood is thicker than water of the womb let me kiss the scars on your wrists
And no matter who has told you differently
You are worth everything

5. And Fade Away When Morning Came

[Instrumental]

6. OK

"We haven't been in what you'd call love long..."
"She knew that?"
"She knew it first"

That bed of lies I felt had only begun to cut an inch
As much as you tried to hide it I know you were just dying to flip your switch
Taught to play dress up never learned to play house
Fear giving license to the words falling from your mouth

A love was lost
Your heart turned cold
And that was when
I let you go
I let you go
I let you go

Begin courses and growing lines
How could I have thought I'd be the one to drive your demons away
Romanticism seduced by the beauty of love
Those simple lines a familiar warmth turned hard and cold as stone

"I've lost track of which is love and which is hate but I'm through with being your punching bag and your referee and your battleground. I'm going to help myself"

A love was lost
Your heart turned cold
And that was when
I let you go
I let you go

Fall back to the upstairs bedroom
Way back when it all just seemed to make more sense than
Fall in place
There was a time when I felt okay
I felt okay
I felt okay
I felt okay

7. As Though Each Of My Problems Would Slip Away

[Instrumental]

8. Dissolve

The wind carries us home
Tin cans recycled air end the minstrel's roam
Reunite body and mind
The walls left broken and crumbling
Oh but what did you expect
Gone for seasons of time
I've closed my eyes to dream
Woken only to have lost the spring
To bags cases and hearts on our sleeves
Held them high so they could watch them bleed
Held them high so they could watch them bleed

And I wear my heart on my sleeve
So you can watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
And I wear my heart on my sleeve
So you can watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
Watch it bleed

From up here the land a patchwork quilt
Sewn together by arthritic hands
Pursuit of passion persistent guilt
Anxious for a loving embrace
Dissolve this ache I've felt
Dissolve this ache I've felt

How could you have looked and seen anything but compassion
Left to watch alone jealous of false intentions
You'd felt it in my touch tasted it in my kiss
And still darling you screamed my affections were passionless
Despite every example of devotion every memory made
You still succumbed to boredom you let the pictures fade
You let the pictures fade
You let the pictures fade

And I wear my heart on my sleeve
So you can watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
And I wear my heart on my sleeve
So you can watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
And I wear my heart on my sleeve
So you can watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
And I wear my heart on my sleeve
So you can watch it bleed
Watch it bleed
Watch it bleed

9. Thorns

If cunning was our birthright
Than falsity became our sport
Being like trellises of roses
Vines whose beauty so splendidly hid
The vicious biting of recompense
Ours alone to bare and grit
Self designed deceptions
Jutting out of our skin
Warning all passers by
Careful I'm beautiful but you wouldn't like what's within
For while reveling in my form you'll only bleed from my sins
Perhaps the change began in the springs of our infancy
Watered with poison stunting in its toxicity
Or cutback too much in our pruning
Trimmed with shaking hands selfish neuroses
Left jagged with self loathing insecurities
But we don't have to let it dictate

Shake the death from your bones
Shake the death from your bones
Shake the death from your bones

Shake free of the yoke our mental oppressions
No longer frozen the key in our possession
Swing open your cell break off that rearview
Even as the tree grows out of the heart of stone
Our past will not dictate how tall we will grow

Shake the death from your bones
Shake the death from your...
Shake the death from your bones

Will dwelling in the negatives
Even bring out the light
Will living in the darkness
Ever expose what's right

Shake the death from your bones

10. eB eahT srewoP ehT

There has always been this sneaking suspicion
There's something critical we've missed
More connected than ever before
Yet we are all dying of loneliness
The trap was set; we've trusted a deception
As if there weren't fullness of life without incorporation
Into these churning and violent systems
(Outrage without information
Has left our spirits in shambles
Clanging cymbals, mindless babble)
We skirt around the issue
No matter how immensely prevalent
Everyone's so scared to breathe a word
No one wants to mention it
That after all they've sacrificed
We'd rather trust a fucking screen
Than sit in tactful humility
Discourse with a human being
Instead of think for ourselves
We'd rather be fed what to believe
They won't know what's on our hearts
Until it stops beating in our chest
Won't wait to see what's on our mind
Until it exits the back of our heads

Those sworn to protect us have become our captors
One-stop judge, jury, and executioner
Granted license to take a life without giving chase
Youth cut down in its prime
Oh G-d, what a fucking waste!
You took a solemn oath, placed your hand on that Bible
Pledged your protection and service
To adorn yourself in courage
Craven hands, dutifully raised
To uphold truth and justice
Would rather bend the knee to fear
Instead of flex that muscle between their ears
Coward, pull that trigger with haste!
I'll fire back with my words and a raised fist

Those sworn to protect us have become our captors
Don't make idiots your idols; so many bow down to fools
Strutting around like crownless kings
Raving mad aristocrats, crippled by insecurity
They prey upon the weak, both in will and mind
Preaching that compliance is peace
That the walls they'll build will bring sanctuary
Masses, blinded by fear, clutch and grab for stability
But one day, we'll look up and see the walls and wire
Our monoliths of false safety
And realize that our battlements have only served to shut us in
Stone only hardens our hearts
Isolation only constricts our souls
Hatred dominates when we refuse to see the other as our own
(We are still here)
Were we ever truly free?

11. Suddenly, I Was Alone

[Instrumental]

12. Blacktop

I drove myself out into the wilderness
Not a forced exile, I'm just searching for bliss
Blood orange crescent moon
Illuminate the blacktop's running lines
Carry my spirit far from the chaos and light
Of the city built upon brute and might
The soul deserves savor
The apple, heavy and over-ripe, on my simple pallet
Sickens the stomach

Blind my eyes with flashing lights
Dull my senses in over-sweet wine
Expose me to all of your grandeur
I'd still long for bitter savor

Egos taught to inflame from a young age
Images and influence twisted to persuade
Our common sensibilities toward entering a race
For which there is no end, no hanging yellow tape
Don't let your intellect be insulted
Don't be taken for a fool
It's in knowledge and experience
Wherein a soul's true fortune is made

So I won't buy what they've always tried to sell me
Give up your passions for that 401k
Put away your true callings
Chase the American dream
I'd rather run into the wild, experience the wind the cold
Than gain the wealth of the world and forfeit my soul
We fight against the tide to retain that spark of life
That's become all too extinguished
The prevailing of time
To never grow old, only become wise
Taking all the suffering and the bite
One breath at a time
Is all it takes to keep on growing, all it takes to stay alive

13. I Saw Before Me, A Bright Red Light, And Silently I Stood

[Instrumental]

14. Waiting For Morning To Come

I still lie awake at night
Dreaming doubting reveling
Please give my hand the words to write
Because I need this off my mind
Please give my tongue the language to speak
Refuse to bend this world of blight
Communication bleed from my veins to the page
Unlock the capillaries my inner securities
Given a preview to all of this pain
I'm only aching from their weight

I'll still sing about love
Even when it's so hard to trust
Still points toward compassion thought sometimes I'm scared of being touched

In truth this is our escape as much as theirs dancing sweating bleeding
Passion give my lungs the air to declare your name
Because I've seen gardens wither in apathy and shame
Seen the prevailing of frozen water over the splitting rock the sweeping snow o'er the plains
Give me strength to raise your banner
Testify not all is lost
Communion from the crowd to the stage
Baptisms in the rhythms
We all lose our way we all long to be saved we all bleed the same
We're only aching from the weight

Give us strength
Give us passion
Baptisms in the rhythms

So child take up your courage quiet your mind they are only strains of living the vibrating of the strings
We have to learn to see the beauty in the struggle play on when our fingers bleed
I'll take existence in all its substance count it all a blessing
This life will stretch and grow you we're only aching from beating out the time
And no matter how we mistrust the light
We're all waiting for morning

(Honestly it's mostly late at night
When clarity comes to me after all chaos and light
The dark prevails around me holding the lives of sleeping friends
The wheel in my fists the road and its bends
Between the second and third cup of coffee during my eighth or so cigarette
Warmth and life run through me despite the chill of mountain wind
It's then that my spirit takes comfort awash with thankfulness
That amidst all of this struggle our hearts can find rest
Even when the void creeps in around you it is light that will win
So child take up your courage quiet your mind they are only strains of living the vibrating of the strings
We have to learn to see the beauty in the struggle play on when our fingers bleed
I'll take existence in all its substance count it all a blessing
This life will stretch and mold you we're only aching from the growing pangs
And this beautiful thing remains
That no matter how we mistrust the light we're all waiting for morning)







BEING AS AN OCEAN LYRICS