BLACKLISTED LYRICS

1. Our Apartment Is Always Empty

You let me sleep on your couch and your floor even in your bed window side You let me have the corner in your closet a place where my boxed up life could reside In return I showed you how life was like a painting One so violent and depressing you just closed your eyes When you saw me disintegrating You’d stand by and just watch me vaporize as the world fell in love with me You fell out or so it seemed Change your sheets to rid yourself of me Because its been weeks and you still speak in your sleep Remember when you brought home that picture of your dad Hung it on the wall as a reminder of what it is to be a man Well, I was lying when I said I didn’t know where it went I tore it up laughing and I'd do it again Because before I met you I had just that chance I could have been a loving father, but at the time I couldn’t bother And since then to be honest things haven't gotten any better You and I live as strangers, you’re always writing others letters As the world fell in love with me you fell out or so it seemed Change your sheets to rid yourself of me Because its been weeks and you still speak in your sleep I’ve thrown myself to the floor like a children’s doll Feeling so so volatile Why wouldn’t you talk to me when I tried Hid yourself behind a do not resuscitate sign Leaving me to decide Whether you fell in love with a girl or a guy Or did you get lost inside the world you hid from me all this time Letting me know exactly what was yours and never mine Still, Ill harvest the blame To me its all the same The guilty have no shame Jokingly said you’d burn all that was mine in your place With serious written all over your face So I sleep in my cloths just in case I feel the flames touch my face I cam make my escape with grace

2. Everything In My Life Is For Sale

Self worth is worthless when I’m constantly on trail Armed with a smile that just smells of stomach bile I need to move to the country So my malevolent mind can relax for a while I’m selling myself off Everything must go My skin from my head to toe Down to my bones Maybe they’re hiring scarecrows I can sit in a field in the sun I don’t need the training I already repulse everyone I’m selling myself off, everything must go My skin from my head to toe Down to my bones, down to my bones I’m selling myself off, everything must go Down to my bones,down to my bones, down to my bones

3. J.M.N. (Interlude)

4. No One Deserves To Be Here More Than Me

It was always the world that I was crushed beneath Scraping concrete with my teeth till it bleeds All I ever asked though it all was Please tell me that nothings wrong Lost in my sickness This is not a phase On the top of a burning house daring the roof to cave Its funny because coming from me That doesn’t even seem insane No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me Sometimes I leave the house early Just to ride the subway all day Sizing up every station To see which one fits my plan of jumping In front of the train No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me In the shower alone with all the lights out Talking to the tree bugs again as they crawl on my towel The hot steam ran like a waterfall down the wall Pressed my tongue to the socket see if I could feel at all No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me No one will ever come for me No one needs to tell me That there’s no use for me around here anymore I’m humbly watching my life crumble from this bubble I created Well it’s the greats It was always the greatest It was always the world that I was crushed beneath Scraping concrete with my teeth til’ it bleeds All I ever asked though it all was Please tell me that nothings wrong Please tell me that nothings wrong Please tell me that nothings wrong Please tell me that nothings wrong Please tell me that nothings wrong

5. G.E.H. (Interlude)

6. The P.I.G. (The Problem Is G.)

Since I’ve been on the wane the days have felt exactly the same I heard you squealing my name Well, let them think whatever they may You painted the perfect picture From inside the pen with your New pig friends I’ve watched your disappointment in me grow From the other side of the fence The child that you didn’t want our children to be You squealed and you squealed In the pen with all the pigs All the times you left work early to check on me was sweet Wish I did more to welcome you but I was just trying to sleep Still I have reason all my own why I’m this way And knowing all that you know you chose to Squeal my name And I may be shit But I didn’t once think That you’d choose to climb into a pen with pigs Live in it

7. I'm Trying To Disappear

This life’s not inventing The fighting in me has ceased When it looks like I’m Growing thin and weak Please don’t hesitate to cut the leash It’s only a matter of time Before I inherit my bloodlines evils I don’t think it’s wise for me to get close to too many people My bruises seem to be breeding And my boys becoming a landing strip for flies In the mirror watching blood dry Trying to cut out the bags beneath my eyes My skin is turning grey I haven’t bathed in days Please don’t encourage me I’m enslaved I can’t be saved. Enslaved I can’t be saved, Enslaved I cant be saved Enslaved I can’t be saved, Enslaved I cant be saved Enslaved I can’t be saved, Enslaved I cant be saved Enslaved I can’t be saved, Enslaved I cant be saved Enslaved I can’t be saved, Enslaved I cant be saved Enslaved I can’t be saved, Enslaved I cant be saved Enslaved I can’t be saved, Enslaved I can’t be saved

8. Palisade

Build a place to keep me safe From those who fill their pockets wile the others pray If I had my way id carve away my face Fix me, I’m in a fragile state Its all okay, I’m made of clay I can mold and remold and remold into any shape Like a butterfly I crawl till I fly Waiting for my wings so this worm can worship the sky Build a place to keep me safe From those who fill their pockets while the others pray If I had my pick id carve you Into my skin So we could be identical twins Draw the drapes, I’m insane At least that’s what they say Who are they, I don’t know Its hard to explain They have names, yes they do They each named after states Want to see a trick Just wait and Ill disintegrate Build me a place to keep me safe From those who fill their pockets while the others pray If I had my way id carve away my face Fix me, I’m in a fragile state Fix me, I’m in a fragile state Build me a place to keep me safe From those who fill their pockets while the others pray If I had my pick id carve you Into my skin So we could be identical twins

9. Skeletons

Those secrets that you’ve know Well you’re the only one I’ve ever told Like the summers as a child I spent alone On the beach searching for gold Make no mistake I’m exactly I’m exactly what you make me And now I just want to dance at your funeral Because I already paid the band With the gold I found buried in the sand Was I ever part of the life you had planned Those secrets that you’ve known Well you’re the only one I’ve ever told Like that Christmas that I spent alone Trying to stay alive until you got home Visions of you with a stranger on a semen soaked love seat patterned floral If you can cast the first stone Well you can be the first to call me immoral Make no mistake I'm exactly I'm exactly what you’ve made me. And now I just want to dance at your funeral Because I already paid the band With the gold I found buried in the sand Was I ever part of the life you had planned Those secrets that you’ve known Well you’re the only one I’ve ever told Like the time you bailed me out of jail and you cried the whole way home Then you left and I loved myself with a closed fist and your shampoo for added bliss I must admit I’ve gotten better since I vomit blood when I’m my happiest Make no mistake Make no mistake Make no mistake I’m exactly What You Made Me Those sects that you’ve known Well you’re the only one I ever told So I suggest you stop snooping though my things whenever I’m not home

10. I Am Extraordinary

I know you’re waiting in the wings I welcome you my stranger We live like rats anyway so this moment I must savor If you could only touch me And feel what I am feeling Scars form like Braille on my hands Moving like maggots when I try to reveal them I am only scared because I myself am scary If it wasn’t for the roaches in the wall there’d be No one Who could Stand me I see you there alone and just waiting I welcome you as a friend do please do not Betray me I am only scared because I myself am scary Just do what we agreed and Beat my Brains In I am only scared because I myself am scary I am, I am Extraordinary I am extraordinary I am extraordinary I am extraordinary Well I am, I am I am extraordinary I am extraordinary I am extraordinary Well I am, I am I am extraordinary I am extraordinary I am extraordinary Well I am, I am I am extraordinary I am extraordinary I am extraordinary Well I am, I am

11. S.M.F. (Interlude)

BLACKLISTED LYRICS