BLACKLISTED LYRICS

1. Insularized

Wounds self inflicted I can heal myself
Theres a magic being encased in flesh
I try to will the world away
This life's a prison and so is the next
The truth is I deserve this, When I find good I hurt it
My sense of self doesn't allow empathy
Close my mouth I wont learn their language
Close my eyes to simplify the scenery
A disassociated, self-deserter, I look at these as strengths.
Im rigid, I've learned the power of NO. I wont bend, Id rather break
Theres no salvation made when theres nothing to salvage or save
Theres no expiration date to recover from the damage you create
Do not let the truth be exorcised
Sit safely inside your lies
Surrenders just a word for dropping your guard
When theres no one left to harm
We all die, We all die
We all die disguised
We all die, We all die
We all die disguised
Close my mouth I wont learn their language
Close my eyes to simplify the scenery

2. Turn In The Pike

They will kill you for your dreams
So what I need
Is for you to shake me when I start to drift to sleep
Our wait, Will never be over
This weight, Will never have closure
Don't let me speak, Don't let me sleep
When the creation fills my mouth
Just break my teeth
Our lives are broken
Exploding and floating
Time, Will not be kind
No one survives
Trying to escape the universe as it floods the highway
Black ice
Frozen light
I see heaven behind me
Above me its hovering
I can feel it crumbling
Don't try to find me, Don't be kind to me
Walked barefoot on the sun to drink tea and live quietly
Our lives are broken
Exploding and floating
Time, Will not be kind
No one survives

3. Riptide

You stripped it all away on your own, for once I wasn't possessed all alone
If I was the body, you were the head, No separation
Don't let me hold on
Don't let me hold on
I, I can wait forever for you to fall
I've waited forever to ask "how do you sleep at all?"
Cant earn back time, So this time I will not falter
But I can walk on water, Yes I can walk on water
Maybe Ill break somebodies jaw, leave them spitting teeth on the floor
Two of us digging through this hole called life but only one mystic gripping the light
I've let you down, but I wont let you down again
Hear me now, We will never be friends
Torn apart by the rip tide, Never meant to collide, only separation
No more surging waves, we are circling the drain and I am celebrating
You want to believe the supernatural? Then watch us turn intimacy to shame
I've let you down, But I wont let you down again
We will never be friends

4. Deeper Kind

This is a deeper kind of resurrecting
Dealing with feelings I've always neglected
Hospital gowned, confined to a bed
A deeper kind of death
This is a deeper kind of scar
The ceiling keeps moving swallowing the floor
This bed is a hollow as hollow as you
A deeper kind of abuse
This is a deeper kind
A deeper kind of mercy
This is a deeper kind of dark
The ground keeps shaking trying to depart
Leave it behind with all I destroyed
A deeper kind of void
This is a deeper kind of forgiveness
Conscious of nothing but my existence
My will and the strength to survive
A deeper kind of light
This is a deeper kind
A deeper kind of faith

5. Gossamer

Gossamers gossiping
The webs you weave are blossoming
Transparent versions off your reflecting skins
Shine like diamonds and still you're worth nothing
Luminous lies may catch prey through the winter
Spring always comes with the sun to melt frost
Its fitting like your mothers you'll die crone spinsters
Me? Im like my Mother, I can live with loss.
"Hes a slithering snake, Hes a liar"
Camouflaged by gardens in bloom
Just like me you'll shed your skin and start again
Sun melts the frost and hopefully dries your wombs
The truth will come collapse your webs like a levee
Not the first, last or best to soil my name
Fitting like your fathers you'll die alone and empty
Me? Im like my father I find comfort in pain.
Gossamers go, keep gossiping
Weave your webs thin
Theres warmth in knowing that Im so cold blooded
Even if sometimes, I crawl out of my skin
I will always be fine

6. Burnt Palms

Burnt palms hold your anger and don't let it show, don't let it go
Tuck it beneath the scars in your palm and watch the callus grow
Keep it safe don't let it show, don't let it go
Just watch it grow
Balled fist hold your forgiveness safe in your hands like a snow globe
Fragile now don't let it go
Keep it safe, don't let it show
Forget it, I dare you, let it go
You've grown callous
Said I could never change well hows this
Press your palms together quote psalms watch the callous grow
Empty church alone, Roam, your way up to the steeple
Swan dive, Go, Test your faith in people
They wont catch you, I've been through this, Im not evil
You've grown callous, Callous, Callous
You've grown callous

7. Foreign Observer

Change my appearance to a disappearance
Im so selfish and narcissistic
Cross out another friend from the short list
I can't write my way out of this
Admired for weaving words together
Riddled in rhyme
Little do they know I can barely live inside
My body most of the time
Destroy the old, to build a new
A monolith of bliss
But the cracks in the mirror show
A lifetime more of this
You're just a day-tripper gripping my truth
As transparent as the pyramid at the Louvre
What did we learn in Saturn's return?
Foreign observer just stay safe and observe
Foreign Observer
Foreign observer
Wake me up when you yourself are found
Foreign observer
Don't make eclipses out of my shadow on the ground
Foreign Observer
How long can you sit and watch this hole I am in fill up?
My spirit be crushed by gravity

8. Calendars

Hands glued to the glass
You can't touch me
Soon I'll be leaving
This is the closest that we've ever been
Its just a night terror
Sweat, you're not bleeding
Believe me
Stop speaking to me in your Suboxone dreams
Days counted like commissary
Bankrupt on feeling
I've also counted your days
All the times you nodded out and I thought you wouldn't wake
I remember you as a child always running wild
Before your life was milked and siphoned out
Here we are now adults bound by plexiglass and gates
And I can't help but think that this is all my fault
Hands glued to the glass
You can't touch me
This is the closest that we've ever been

9. Wooder Ice

Your guise fell, Like dominoes
On your belly crawl follow your grimy glow
So indignant at my indifference to you
Begin to thaw, I see through you
You were so glad to hear I've weakened, my bones couldn't hold my skin
I lifted all of Pennsylvania when my world began to spin
Wreck chaser
I see through you.
You sneered at me when I said Id get healthy
Like when I had nothing as a child
and laughed at other kids water ice melting
You were seething to see I've strengthened, tough bones and perfect skin
I finally left Pennsylvania and its entire world of shit
Your guise fell, Like dominoes
On your belly crawl follow your grimy glow
So indignant at my indifference to you
Begin to thaw, I see through you

10. Bottle Rockets

Behind closed doors you declared war
Glass breaking and raining my house looked like the fourth
I could not find the cure to your crying
My bathtub became the shield of Orion
Your tongue lashed out like a Roman candle
Secrets shot like comet shells ripping through your teeth
There is no cure to my detachment
I can be so silent; I can be so still
Fury tore like napalm dripping from your skin
I can be so mean; I can be so cruel
Let it go from your hand and keep your head down
Should have read the directions I'm dangerous
Next time you point and shoot don't miss

11. When People Grow, People Go

There is no easy way to explain if you couldn't piece together the clues
I wasn't that cunning, that astute, How could you not see through the ruse?
Affected everyone I loved and they all left beautifully bruised
Im as shallow as a Schuylkill cruise, still Im sorry for the abuse
I took the only way I knew
But the road was closed
I couldn't just call your name
There is no easy way to explain
When people grow
People go
Too proud to reach out when I lost my brave
I couldn't find another way, Couldn't look myself in the face
I didn't have the strength, No, I couldn't take the weight
There is no easy way to explain when it all begins to cave
I took the only way I knew
But the road was closed
I couldn't just call your name
There is no easy way to explain
When people grow
People go
There is no easy way, To explain
When people grow, People go
There is no easy way to explain there is no easy way
Too proud to reach out, When I was dying





BLACKLISTED LYRICS