BREAKDOWN OF SANITY LYRICS

1. Exordium

[Instrumental]

2. Crumble

The grey clouds obliterate the light blue sky
They're approaching quickly
The sloppy and filthy streets are
The streets are reflecting
Reflecting the human condition
Everywhere I look I can only see narrow alleyways

The bridges are burning

No chance to heal the wounds, no time-out from the selfish world
The cold environment is looking at me
In hopes (fucking getting) of getting answers

I close my eyes to stop the time, to forget all this misery
Where am I?
Where's the place where the roses still grow?
I can't hear through these hazy words anymore

Is this the reality or just my perception?
Wait for a sign but you can't see me
Through this blurred visibility

But I can see you
The fear in your face
The fluttering eyelid
But you can't hide
You can't

I perceive there is a way out
This might be a solution that cures the world

Can't you feel it?
Can you really see it?
So shout out, convince me
Step up!
So step up
Step up

You're the gunman
I am just the bullet shot from your gun now
Shot!
I am just a bullet shot from your gun

3. Hero

It is the darkest night, stars invisible
The only thing I can feel is your cold fear
Your shivering hands, controlling gaze
Fearing the end, awaiting the consequences
As long as you are walking this path (this path)
In fact you don't have to fear the fog my friends
And I see, you already know the other side
You know the way out

But the cruel end is etched in your thoughts

Your fantasy, only able to envision the worst
You dream of a hero
Helping hand
Brave guardian

When you wake up you wish to wake up again
Leaving this place is what you secretly hope for

But in reality you can't run away
In the end the past will catch you all up
It's not the case that you weren't responsible

Take a look at this world
Drab and reeking
Look at the dull seas
Almost dead inside
Look at the toxic sky

We and the sun, no longer friends

Now there's no more excuses for walking this path
No more chances for the fucking blind
All this is making you sad
All this is making you scared
You can't deny

The hero is close, he can save you

He's close to you, so close to you

Reach out your hand, open your eyes

What made you not change your mind for so long?

That's right, the hero is you

4. The Writer

It's your turn right now, let me see your steps
Let me feel your hesitation
Nothing ventured, nothing gained

We know the reproach to yourself

All your reflections as an open secret
All your mistakes as a success
Your tears as the pitiful disport
Your decisions make us win
Follow the guide we gave you

Don't look upward, there's nothing above you
Your eyes aren't qualified
Your memory is your future
Can you remember your end?

We, we are your faith and your fear
We are your inspiration and your overload

You're all equal

This is your reality, your veiled sight

You can never see
You can put the blame on us
You can put the blame on us

"It's all about your personal interpretation of what you're looking at."

I see you try to grow with your scars
But you fail again and again
You can put the blame on us
This is what, this is what we expect

This makes your life so much easier
Just close your eyes, follow blindly
In your deepest dreams you can see us
In your lonely hours you can feel us
In your lonely hours you can feel us
(You can feel us, you can feel us)

This prison was built for you
You are not ready for the outside
Maybe you will never be
Maybe you will never see

Nothing is more constant than change

So why, why don't you change within?
Positions won't change
As long as you can't see the point

Till then we will keep observing you...
Sneering

5. Blind

Today my awakening was different
I'm dazzled by the hidden truth

It woke me up

With sharp screams, it shook me up
Is it already too late
Was this the last of our fights?
Maybe just a dream

It shines so fucking bright
Tears roll out of my squinted eyes
This is the cold fire burning down my little hope

I get up, I walk down the street again
But today I'm just the observer
Now I am the seeing, watching all the zombies
I am scared by, by their ashamed glances

Their empty faces with these glossy eyes
Trying to evade my assessment

I see them dying within, lost on the way
Not ready to pay
I walk along
No one holds me back
No one blocks my path
No one holds me back
No one blocks my path
No one holds me back
No one blocks my path

It shines so fucking bright
Tears roll out of my squinted eyes
This is the cold fire burning down my little hope

I can read their minds
They have lost their goals
Lost their dreams, lost their selves
They don't know what they are searching for now

Now they feel the consequences of their stiffened way of life
Caged in their own prison of lies
Focused on the fading things (fading things)
Now the safety falls to dust (it falls to dust)
What is the use of all the money now?
Can you remember your decision, your decision?

I watch 'em pay the price for being blind
For being so narrow-minded
The final question is:
What if this was just a dream?
Was it just a dream?
You blind motherfuckers
Was it just a dream?
You blind motherfuckers

6. Scissorhands

I, I forget my own rules
But I still know the end of the story

What's happened to the world, what's happened to my life?
There was a time I felt safe from the drossiness
Safe from discomfort

No enemies, no lies
Where is my soul?
Where are my ways, where is my heart?
Over years it made me weak
It made me weak (it made me unpredictable)

Something came across my way
It changed too many things inside me (inside me, inside)
Inside me
Over years it made me weak
I saw your smile
Everything around me seems to glow, but everything I touch goes out (goes out)

I hold your hand, feel your breath, see your smile
I took this gift from life
Not knowing what awaits me

Where is my soul?
Where are my ways, where is my heart?
Over years it made me weak, it made me weak

Another step in an unknown direction
How can I be sure, oh how can I be sure?
Days go by, it seems to grow (it seems to grow)
It feels still right where I am
I can't see you anymore, feel you anymore
These voices are pushing me
They want me to fail (they want me to fail)
I am falling
Nothing to lose, nothing to win
How could I be sure?
Why so sure, why so sure?

7. Perception

[Instrumental]

8. The Gift

I was falling for a long time
Almost everything I knew became more fucking worthless

So many promises, so much energy

All I want is silence
All I want is peace
All I want is you
No more reason for searching
For what I always expected from life
(No more reason for searching)

New direction, new fuckin' rules

You caught me on my way to my new life

I think it's time to act selfishly
You, yeah you caught me on my way to my new life
To my new life

Memories of a time before distrust and pain

Perhaps a dream, perhaps a trap

But not this time, it's too different
My pulse is slowing, is slowing down
My eyes are closed now

And I create
And I create a picture in my head
A picture of the time
I draw it with my mind
It's colourful and bright
It's no longer waiting, from today it's arriving

This time I can see the sky
The first time I don't look back
(What the fuck)

No more walls, no more lies
I can breathe until after the sundown
My glowing heart just awakened
Perfection within reach

My sad memories
You make them look like fading dust
I am the air
I am the ground, nothing can burn me down
Nothing can burn me down
Nothing

I really missed this feeling
Now I don't fear myself anymore
Open mind, open ways
My future turns to light
Hope has come to find me

My real destination
This is the control I was waiting for
It makes me unbreakable
I remember who I am
What I was, what I've become

9. Deliverance

It was a long way, it took a long time to find a safety like this
It took a long time to find a safety like this

I was almost giving up all my hope
But in the end the picture in my head surpassed my expectations
Expectations
My expectations

A world so perfect, a world so fucking flawless
The search has an end
I don't need anything else other than this place
A place where I belong
Nothing is grey, even the dark clouds
Above me shine bright

The ocean so deep, my spirit above (my spirit above)
No more questions, only answers
I take a deep breath, close my eyes
A deep breath, close my eyes

Reach out my hand and try to stop the time
To feel the perfection for longer

The warm, pleasant sunbeams on my face
The sand between my toes and the breeze in my hair
No one can take this moment away from me
Away from me
Away from me (away from me)
Away from me (away from me)
Away from me

Please, oh please don't take me away from this place
Please don't wake me up
Please don't wake me up
Please don't wake me up from the place where I belong
Where I belong

10. Chapters

Looking back on my footsteps on the cold ground
Feeling like fleeing
They say the path I took should be my fate
But I wanna take my lazy steps on my own
Day by day, second by second, I set the course anew

Walking through the frames of my life
Looking for the moments I'll remember with a smile
Tripping over lies and hate
Envy and vanity
I wish I could change the order of proceedings
No chance at all
No chance at all

I build a time machine
I will reverse my mistakes, pain - fade away
Fade away
Fade away

All these sources of noise are whispering and screaming
Tempting and frightening in the middle of my head, beyond my heart

They try to change my mind into something bad
Fighting against them for years
But in the end I still decide on my own

Fearing the mistakes
Fearing the responsibility
To myself and to my beloved, to my beloved

Walking through the frames of my life
Looking for the moments I'll remember with a smile
Tripping over lies and hate
Envy and vanity
I wish I could change the order of proceedings

These photos, can't overlook (can't overlook)
The flashlights, they are surrounding me

Observing all my movements
But finally it's me who's crying for my perfect sincerity
Crying for my salvation
Crying for the respect for myself

So where is the golden means of all decisions?
I don't even know
If there is a right way I could choose

I go down on my knees, I'm yelling at the ground
In the hope of finding some new answers

Thousands of questions
Only one life for finding answers
One question for thousands of lives
For thousands of lives

Breathing slowly

Despite this I never stopped believing in
Waiting for the point I can see it clearly

11. Broken Wings

The fetters are loose now but the reddened wrists will be visible forever
I was standing on the edge
I've lost almost my spirit, my path

Something died inside me
I didn't recognize myself
When I was looking in the mirror
Something has grown inside me

What have I become?

I acted too late
I should have seen it
But I've gone blind more and more

I've just heard this ticking in my head

I will never feel safe anymore, nowhere

Nothing will ever gonna be the same again, nothing

Nothing will ever gonna be the same again, nowhere
I will never feel safe anymore, nothing
Nothing will ever gonna be the same again, nowhere
I will never feel safe anymore, nothing

The surface won't be reg-rinded anymore
Now I've to conceal my scars which I'm trying to heal
I felt to cry, I cried to feel

What a waste, what a disappointment

All the things you never appreciated

Like a leech on my neck, you took my energy (my energy)
The wings are broken
The roses are black
The wings are broken
The roses are black

The pictures remind only of days of lightness
No one can change it
No one to blame
Just forgive, just forget (just forgive, just forget)

In spite of all this I refuse to give up
I refuse to give up, I won't give up

In spite of all this I refuse to give up
(I won't give up) I refuse to give up
(I won't give up, I won't give up)

12. Invisible Scars

I hope there is an end of this story, fuck

Everywhere I go, every time I sleep
I go around in the circle
Again and again, on my way
To a better life, with a free heart
A carefree mind
It's joining me through time and distance
Like my fucking shadow

Invisible scars, caused by myself
So deep, deep inside me
I played with the fire in my heart

It has finally caught me

They told me
It's time for change
The beauty enticed me
To risk so many mistakes
Why not, why not?
The signs were clear
The clouds were here
Who knows? who knows? Maybe they're still right
Maybe there will be rain again

Maybe I can forget, to forget the sadness
Just another aberration?
Just a delusion?

So here we go, so here we go
Round 3, and I'm doubtful again
The shadow of the past so dark
Making my life look empty
I hope there is an end of this story

Every night I dream of the love I lived twice

Every morning I wake up with memories of things that never happened

Alone in the crowd, maybe already forgotten

I see the time is working against me
I guess I can't stop this
Because it's stronger than me
Impossible to learn the lesson
As long as my heart won't listen
As long as my heart won't listen

The circle holds me back, I am strapped down

Waiting for the day I can break through

The moment I can catch up all the love
Waiting for the day
You aren't just a dream, no!

(Ready? Go!)

13. Cardiac Silhouette

Another sleepless night
Time stands still
Minutes seem like hours
Hours like days

I take a deep breath
Open my eyes and clench my hand into a fist
All these nightmares, they hunt me for real

Running away is futile
Standing still is fatal
Running away is futile
Standing still is fatal

Was it our fault?
We knew we could fail
Can't distinguish between sweat and blood anymore
Was it our fault?
We knew we could fail

I feel numb from drinking our tears
But when I remember your smile
I know I have to face, to face all this fear
All this fear

I enter your room
Close the door, smell your perfume
It hurts like an open sore
Which will bleed forever
Forever

Was it me, that ended our dreams?

Somebody please cut me out of this twisted picture
I'm floating in memories
They feel like fractures reflecting on everything
Since you disappeared

If there's one moment you can choose your fate
Why didn't we grow in love
Instead of ending up in a fucking fight?
Oh god, why?
Tell me why?

I feel numb from drinking our tears
But when I remember your smile
I know I have to face, to face all this fear
All this fear

I enter your room
Close the door, smell your perfume
It hurts like an open sore
Which will bleed forever
(Forever, forever, forever)

You took the keys, started the car
Drove into nowhere, with my heart
Now it all falls apart
Now it all falls apart
Now it all falls apart
Now it all falls apart

I enter your room
Close the door
Whisper your name
Another sleepless night
Time stands still
Minutes seem like hours
Hours like days

[Female voice:]
In a time when less is more
Where too much is never enough
There is always hope for the future
The future can be read from the past
The past foreshadows the present
And the present hasn't been written yet

It, it was our fault
We knew we could fail
It, it was our fault
We knew we could fail







BREAKDOWN OF SANITY LYRICS