CANNULA LYRICS

1. Monologue of What Was Not

[feat. Gaz King of From Sorrow to Serenity]

Bleeding
Punctured by needles
And I won't survive
Confined by the chains of the subconscious mind

A life I thought I'd left behind
Broken bottles and a twisted knife
Reached the surface when I tried to find
Perspective from another's eyes
And I won't survive
My surface wounds are left exposed
A cry for help that goes unheeded
Every inch of me is left depleted
And I drown in a sea of unconsciousness
This is a monologue of what was not

Happiness isn't in my blood

2. I Now Understand Why You Left

Something inside me has surfaced
Neurological torment
The child became an orphan as he stood and watched his parents die
Before his eyes

Only my dreams reveal the path to my memories
Sensory deprivation's necessary
Put the scripture in the hands of the feeble and watch the moral living
Follow the evil

You gave yourself to sacrifice

And what remains is the vessel of veins that can only feel pain
Without a parent's touch, you'll never understand what it means to be loved
Led by the blind, making sure we never truly feel alive
We're all confined by the chains of our subconscious minds

I never understood myself but now I understand why you left

3. Fragmentation of a Soothed Soul

Archetypal madness
What I see is not what I always knew
Your psychic counterpart of instinct
Can no longer be called truth

Evocation
Cognitive dissonance buries me
Induced compliance
Heal the weak with God and lobotomies

When prophecy fails
Bring light to their eyes
When prophecy fails
Will you still recognise your mind

Disconnect my soul

(True) the gateway was violence and everything that pierced my skin
(True) I was never fully honest with everyone that tried to help
(Life) becomes out of balance when all that I have is your (absence) and your (conscience)
Nothing but abhorrence

And it's over without words or meaning
Desperately believing (your only son has gone)
Bring forward my parting day
Forget all I have to say
Fragmentation of all my bones
This isn't the life I chose

Bring forward my parting day
Forgive all that I've said
I'll never stray again
You robbed me of my chance
The therapy doesn't help
And everyone as well
Fragmentation of all my bones
This isn't the life I chose

I'm confined by the chains of my subconscious mind

4. Sheltered By The Trees

When I die and I see your face
I'll be reminded of the fact that you never were replaced
And the blood that I taste tells me what I can't retrace
I still haven't come to terms with it
All I do is sit and watch the window where you broke down in tears
I do my best to avoid you, even though I don't want to

All I know is that I wasted what little conscience I was gifted
When my mood finally lifted, the seasons had shifted

And as you take your final breath
Where there's less pain there is still death
Subconscious minds have their way of telling you just what to say
Pull the cannula from my veins and drain me of all my blood
When there's nothing left to heal the heart
You'll realise who you truly loved

All I know is that I wasted what little conscience I was gifted
When my mood finally lifted, the seasons had shifted

Sheltered by the trees, the rain can no longer pour upon me
Keep me quarantined, no longer burdened by the feelings
Sheltered by the trees, the rain can no longer pour upon me

5. And When The Rain Clears

Flowers placed like trophies
On every lifeless grave
Content with morning, I hear no warning
It only comes in waves

And I will follow you through all the sin
Rip my bones from all of this diseased skin
Nothing in my mind is close to me
Eyes fixate on lies
Sleepless nights and endless fights
Eyes fixate on lie
It felt so right, it was part of life
And the light through the night
Shows the path I must find
I'm confined by my mind
I'm confined by the chains of my subconscious mind
You're in my head again as I sit back and play every word you ever said
I've never been the same, in fact I became everything you wanted me to be
I was happy and I thought that you needed me
Everything I did it happened so easily
And I know that I messed up, it's only because I gave up

Eyes fixate on lies
And when the rain clears
I will walk again

6. Soliloquy of What Will Be

[feat. Andrew Wilson]

What will be, will be
And when the coroner slices my body from head to feet
What I'll never see
The look on my mother's face when I cease to breathe

Agonised
Parental grief
Pacified
A life short and brief

He should've died thereafter
Choking on the taste of blood
He's all that matters
Although he never understood
Those whom God hath joined let no man put asunder
For all your worries are now disencumbered

Let the pulse slip away from my wrist and let me go

I am confined by the chains of my subconscious mind
I am confined by the life I tried to leave behind

His mother said, "I was sure he would die"
Pull the hook from his throat and let him die alone
When he's in his grave
Your house will no longer be a home

I am born again
In the face of death
Sent from above
Happiness forever in my blood







CANNULA LYRICS