DAYDREAM XI LYRICS

1. Ticket 000011

[Philip:]
— No, it's not a place for them to fulfill their dreams.

[Circe:]
— But you said...

[Philip:]
— Yes! It's what we told them... so that they could trust us.

[Circe:]
— But isn't that a bit cruel? Won't that just bring sadness and disappointment?

[Philip:]
— Perhaps... but they're all just lost, blown by the wind. And they will keep chasing their tails like fools, after all. And with a few words we can get them back, I'm sure.

[Circe:]
— But what about the crying and the pain?

[Philip:]
— Pain will lead them to growth, eventually. And if it all goes wrong... we can always offer them pleasure instead of pain, right?

[Circe:]
— You mean... sex?

[Philip:]
— Yes! That's exactly what I mean. Sooner of later... they will give their souls away, anyway.

[Circe:]
— I don't know... I'm scared. I fear that this goes too far. I don't know if we can keep faking this much for so long.

[Philip:]
— Just bear in mind that love is all they are asking for. Even if it comes with the price of a cheap ticket and a couple of hours filled with hollow scenery. And they will always try to reach, try to feel that little spark of life in them, when nothing seems to quench their thirst. All we have to do... is to give our best, for the show's about to begin.

2. Open The Curtains

Wonderful scenes to behold
We are here just for you 'til the curtains are closed
Leave all your fears and your lies
For now you're with us and we're full of surprise
Circus of the tattered and torn

3. Trust-Forged Knife

A pair of wings
Formidable
Piercing through the night sky
Shadows the light
Reaching higher and higher
Only to find that the more you rise
The harder you fall
And you thought the dream
Could never end

See me falling from the skies
Shattering all hopes and left behind

And when you're down and out
It picks you up
Just to stab you in the back
With a trust-forged knife

A cage of steel
Invincible
Smothering around you
Blindfolds your eyes
Stops you from seeing who you can trust
Only to find that the more it hides
The lower you bow
And you thought the wounds
Would never mend

Your lies were only convincing me
To be what I'm not
Once I felt I was flying
But now my wings are paralyzed

Your eyes were only making me
A pale shadow
(Nurturing my darkest thoughts)
Crawling behind you when no longer
I had faith in me

[Solo]

And when you're down and out
It picks you up
Just to stab you in the back
With a trust-forged knife

4. Painted Smile

The dressing room
Packed with freaks and outcasts
Preparing to enter
And deceive, at their best
And in the mirror I see
Just make up and confusion
Before the spectacle begins

Come, take a seat and enjoy
We're about to begin
All the tickets are sold
But don't ever fear what you'll find
After all, just like you
We are tattered and torn

And in this twisted play
Forever bound to fail
I am the sadness disguised
Behind a painted smile

The seats are packed
Filled with ignorants and fools
Paying to watch
Just illusion and untruth
And in their eyes I can see
All hopes and dreams reflected
For this throat to swallow in

Come, take a seat and enjoy
We're about to begin
All the tickets are sold
But don't ever fear what you'll find
After all, just like you
We are tattered and torn

And when the lights fade
With no goodbyes said
And the curtains are closed
I stand in silence
Refrain from crying
For all the smiles that feel so wrong

And in this twisted play
Forever bound to fail
I am the sadness disguised
Behind a painted smile

[Solo: Masseti]
[Solo: Pereira]

And in this twisted play
Forever bound to fail
I am the sadness disguised
Behind a painted smile

They go on and on trying hard to feel
In every act a wound that heals
Like a dog chasing its tail
They keep running round and round
And we are all clowns
And I keep on acting trying not to feel
In every task a wound that bleeds
Dressed in color and in smiles
I keep running round and round
But I'm just a clown

5. Windblown

Sometimes I feel
Like the windblown hay
Passing by

Sometimes I feel
Like a desperate father
Searching for his child

Sometimes I feel
Like a willow cut down
Deprived of all its pride

Sometimes I feel
Like a harmony
Waiting for a rhyme

Sometimes I feel
Like an old soul
Ready to die

6. A Cup Of Agony

(Flesh)
Allowing awareness
Of something right
Or something wrong

(Pain)
A warning of what not to do
Making you feel
All the damage done

(Mind)
Allowing regret
Of what you've done right
Or you've done wrong

(Pain)
Shaping reality
Making you see
Where you have to go

On the verge of breaking
Slowly sipping in
The bleary cup of agony
Drowning
And imagining adrenaline
But only hoping to awake

Endlessly nurturing the pain to ignore
The needless attention we're longing for

(Flesh)
Increasing the pulse
Pumping through your veins
Feeling strong

(Pain)
Allowing awakening
Making you scream
For what you have done

(Mind)
Revisit the past
Showing what is right
And what is wrong

(Pain)
Shifting conformity
Making you feel
You are not so strong

(Slowly sipping in)

And somehow we get used to that catapult of sentiment
Addicted to an imaginary adrenaline, to the closeness to danger
Caressing tragedy, just for a little taste.
Here, have a sip
It will help you to nurture the pain
Drink from the cup of agony
Just a sip

Endlessly nurturing the pain to ignore
The needless attention we're longing for
Endlessly trying in vain to restore
The needs of a heart that beats no more

(Slowly sipping in)

Endlessly nurturing the pain to ignore
The needless attention we're longing for
Endlessly trying in vain to restore
The needs of a heart that beats no more

Crying in vain
On the endless fields of suffering we ride
To get a taste of tragedy
And we are longing for awakening
Addicted to pain
From a catapult of sentiment we fly
And we drink

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Endlessly nurturing the pain to ignore
The needless attention we're longing for
Endlessly trying in vain to restore
The needs of a heart that beats no more

7. Overhauling Wounds

I once saw the world
With eyes painted red
And a spirit black
Sheltered from the light

I'd face the unknown
With fear in my eyes
And the weight of the world on my back
Drowning in lies

I wait to see
A wound that bleeds
Eternally
Forever breaking
The one that's weak
Naive and sick
Who feels so bleak
To change and to never reverse

As I cut myself breaking every bone
I am waiting, I'm just waiting to be gone
As I break myself and die to be reborn
I am molded by my aching
Overhauling wounds

I have felt before
With eyes burning soar
And a pair of hands that shake
Trembling in the light

I'm shattered and torn
With scars to remind
Of the one I tried to be
Tattered from the lies

I wait to see
A wound that bleeds
Incessantly
Forever killing
The one that's fake
Who'll cry and break
At all mistakes
He's done and could never accept

As I cut myself breaking every bone
I am waiting, I'm just waiting to be gone
As I break myself and die to be reborn
I am crawling without hope
As I cut myself down to the bone
I am waiting, I'm just waiting to see blood
As I break myself and rise once more
I am molded by my aching
Overhauling wounds

I used to see the world
With eyes that could not face the unknown
Like never I've been before
I'm tattered and torn

As I cut myself breaking every bone
I am waiting, I'm just waiting to be gone
As I break myself and die to be reborn
I am crawling without hope

And I keep bleeding just to keep feeling
And hear myself screaming but never healing
And I keep cutting just to feel burning
And never returning
To what I was running from

And I keep screaming just to be living
But never hearing and never believing
And I keep waiting just to be facing
The lies that I'm making
The ones I'm running from

As I see myself in a mirror of regret
I am trying, I am dying to forget
As I rebuild myself to be better than before
I am shaped by each and every one
Of my overhauling wounds

8. Collector Of Souls

Oh I've been down
That same old dark road
I've been down
Collecting souls

I've been down
That same old dark road
I've been down
Through the young and the old

I've been down
In a game of my own
I've been down
Not to be alone

No, I have been down
Loving no one
I've been down
Until I was done

I've been down
Who I didn't know
I've been down
Boys and girls

I'm down that road
I've seen before
Collector of souls
Going down once more

I long for your touch
Don't wanna hear you talk
You know I don't ask for much
You can keep the keys
But you won't see the lock

And when you're down on your knees
You're all I'm hoping for

Light the fire inside
I want to ignite the light in your eyes
I'm down that road once more
Collecting souls

I love the feel of your skin
And the way you walk
But I don't wanna hear a single thing
'Cause we're around the clock

I love the scent of your hair
And the way you moan
But I don't wanna be a friend tomorrow
Just give me your soul

And when you're down on all fours
I could not ask for more

Light the fire inside
I want to ignite the light in your eyes
And I thought that you would know by now
I'm down that road once more
Collecting souls

Look deep into my eyes
And maybe you'll see the lies
Walk down with me again
We'll pretend that is not a game
And when I'm the one who's down
You're allowed to laugh out loud
But I'll keep on dancing this song
With my collection of souls

9. Forgettable

Sing
For that is all that you can be
Sing
For that is how they can believe
Sing
For that is how you chase your dreams
And scream

I am not a song

Scream
For it's the only way they hear
Scream
To overcome all of your fears
Scream
Until you're dead and cannot speak

It scares me to know that I
Might simply be a product
Of my own convincing lies
I'm longing to see the time
To be able to externalize
And change the paradigms

I am trying
Desperately not to be what
I'm denying
Forging and faking the scars that
I am bearing
Proudly for them not to see what
I am hiding
Under the stars
I'm collecting down this road

Afraid
Of being forgotten, thrown away
Afraid
Of being gone without a trace
Betrayed
Afraid
Not to be more than just a name
Afraid
To keep on forcing, forging, faking

Afraid
To keep on searching for a chance
In vain
To keep relying on something
That might not even be a part of you

(Forgettable)
I am trying desperately not to be forgettable
I am dying to live with the monsters within my soul

10. The Love That Never Was

Breaking in the clutch of rusty claws
Nurturing the ache of my own flaws
Back into a cage of rotten bars
Torn by every wound and every scar

Once again I'm judged for being lost
Astray from what you claim to be the norm
Even though you're one of the outcasts
You never hesitate on giving back

You say that you are keen to understand
But cannot reach beyond your own two hands
We never had a thing to be afraid
And yet you are so scared by things unsaid

We never had the chance to go to bed
But I can only wonder if we had
You say that we can go on with the talk
But keep all of your bullshit to your gods

Breaking in the clutch of rusty claws
Nurturing the ache of my own flaws
Back into a cage of rotten bars
Torn by every wound and every scar
Drowning in a pool of my own blood
Jaded by the love that never was

11. The Circus Of The Tattered And Torn

So now you have seen
Beyond the veil of dreams
You smelled the wounds and touched the scars

Now you have seen
What's hiding underneath
What somehow made us what we are

Now you have seen
This masquerade of freaks
That made you feel alive and whole

Please walk in
The runway and begin
To fool yourself that you are not like us

We're drawn to the weak
The flaws and hopes, so bleak
We seek in others to belong

And though we hide away
In every way we may
To make ourselves more than we really are

We hide humanity
With sexuality
Reflecting someone's rates and tags

We bear conformity
And proudly spit our greed
But only fake performers on this show

A small collection of lies
A display of the memories we hide
Counting the bruises just to see who hurts the most
Dressed in suits and ties
Broken garments with linings made of ice
Fit for the runway on a parade of broken things

An endless parade of broken things

A few tickets now for sale
For those who chase around their tails
Running round and round in circles
Deeply bound to enter in the end
For a simple glimpse or glance
At the Circus of the Tattered and Torn

[Solo: Masseti]
[Solo: Pereira]

(On and on collecting bruises
For every bad experience
We're hurting more than you)

Grab your ticket to watch me suffer
As I'm bleeding dry

(Collecting memories
We don't know who we are)

Come on, take a seat and just relax
You're right on time
Let your emotions carry you on
So you can leave here with a smile

(On and on collecting people
For every one we know
We're feeling more alone)

You're just looking for affection
So now we'll start to cry

[Solo: Pereira]

A few tickets now for sale
For those who chase around their tails
Running round and round in circles
Deeply bound to enter in the end
For a simple glimpse or glance
At the Circus of the Tattered and Torn

[Philip and Circe:]
"And now their dreams are shattered
For we earned their trust by pretending to feel their sadness
With words that cut like knives, piercing through layers of excruciating pain
We hide behind promises of growth and glory
Feeding their desires with countless hours of meaningless sex
Feasting on their fear of being lessened and forgotten
The show goes on and on
Never actually trying to fulfill their empty quest for love"

Building our stronghold of credentials
Of titles and "what we do"s
When all we want is to tell them how we feel
What we fear and how we're hurt
(Never to reach)
Never to reach the self
Unable to feel alive
Craving for just a glimpse
Of something human in you and I







DAYDREAM XI LYRICS