DESERTERS LYRICS

1. Want

I want to be somewhere worth waking up,
with someone who thinks that I am enough
And I don’t want to have to want anymore,
But I’d give anything to feel something once more.

I’m sick of waking up,
with no direction and no hope of me giving a fuck.
Jesus Christ, I’d give anything to feel anything.

The mirror laughs at me.
One face, one thousand pieces,
All self-loathing and all of us defeated.
We all smile, but none of us mean it.
It’s in style to keep it a secret.

So show your teeth
And laugh from deep down in your bones.
But your just like me,
You’re only happy when you’re alone.

Someone says:
Tell those mother fuckers nothing,
They’ll think everything is fine until you tell them something.
Who you are is only what you have.
If you take off the mask,
They’ll all turn their backs
And no one wants to be friends with the freak who has no feelings,
Well all my pieces share the same secrets
And no one knows
That none of us are living…

somewhere worth waking up,
with someone who thinks that I am enough
And I don’t want to have to want anymore,
But I’d give anything to feel something once more.

I’m sick of waking up,
with no direction and no hope of me giving a fuck.
Jesus Christ, I’d give anything to feel anything.

So show your teeth
And laugh from deep down in your bones.
But your just like me,
You’re only happy when you’re alone.

I don’t want to have to want anymore,
But I’d give anything to feel anything.

I don’t want to have to want anymore,
God knows I’d give anything to feel anything.

“Everyone sees what you appear to be, few experience what you really are.”
[— Niccolò Machiavelli]

2. God Feels Nothing

I have
Finally come to terms with who I am
and that I could never love the world that's in my hands.
In my head,
There's only me
Who I let die
And who I let breathe.

GOD FEELS NOTHING.

To every guilty soul I say:
You didn't believe in me,
But I saw every twisted fucking face that you ever made.

GOD FEELS NOTHING.

So the gun in your mouth had your hand on it?
Well tell me who's sin is worse,
If God's the one who planned it,
If God invented your fucking curse.

GOD FEELS NOTHING.

In my head, there's only me
Who I let die and who I let breathe,
Who I let burn and who I let believe.

I designed your hearts to break.
I designed your faith to shake.
Vices and virtues are both creatures that I named.
If you sing my name,
You will surely be saved,
But you'll still feel the pain.
NOW WHO STILL WANTS TO BE SAVED?

GOD FEELS NOTHING.

GOD...
I WAS GOD.
NOW, I JUST WANT TO BE GONE.

In my head,
It's only getting worse.
I've lost a balance between who is loved and who's cursed.
And the truth about me is,
I hate all of my pieces.

I have
Come to terms with
With who I am,
And I have sinned...
I have sinned...
I have sinned...
I have sinned more than any man.

GOD FEELS NOTHING.

Life's between your legs and death is in your hands.

GOD FEELS NOTHING.

Knowing when it's my time to leave is all that makes me a man.

GOD FEELS NOTHING.

3. The Feeling

So, what's heavy to you?

Heavy's having cuts you don't remember.
It's having scars you don't believe.
It's waking up every single fucking day,
hoping that you're anyone but me.

It's the struggle to breathe,
under the weight of who you're trying so hard to be.

It's the lies.
It's the truth.
It's the mask.
It's what I do.

So, what's heavy to you?

Every fucking day, I wake up in pain.
Life is such a burden, when you live my way.
I'm always losing who matters most.
Every single of my loved-ones are all ghosts.

Fuck the heavy weight of depression, running through my mind.

I'm fucked.
I can't believe this is the hand that's been dealt for me.

Heavy is the mask that hides the frown,
but won't let me keep my head down.
It's a feeling that comes without a sound.
But, if you scream,
you can let it out.

So, what's heavy to you?

Better bury me in concrete.
Keep my limbs from spreading throughout the innocent ground.
A Glasgow kiss for the world's vile face.

The plants will sip my blood.
The beasts will eat my tongue.
The cycle of consuming the living ones.

Heavy is the mask that hides the frown,
but won't let me keep my head down.
It's a feeling that comes without a sound.

It keeps me up all night, staring at the ceiling.
It makes me choke, when I am breathing.
It's learning to love all of my demons.

It's just that mother fucking feeling.

4. How To Brand A Soul

I fight. I quarrel with my conscience.
It's a sight for all to see.
I try / I try my best to be honest,
Without saying what I really mean.
I pry. I break into your feelings
And learn just what makes you scream.
So cry, that's when I sneak in
and carve my name into every dream.
You can't escape.
It's nothing that you did
That made me want to watch you break.
I only crushed your heart
To see if I could feel the ache.
I've rehearsed these words a thousand times, before they got to you.
You're just a victim of my selfish self-abuse.
So, watch the fool.
Watch him try to feel.
We both know only the pain is real.
And now you wonder...
What any of this bullshit really means.
Is it only thunder?
Sounds from a storm that I never wanted you to see?
And now you wonder...
Was it part of the plan for you to hear me scream?
You're buried under
Kindling made from counterfeit hopes and dreams.
I'll watch you burn.

5. No Choice But Suffering

Introducing hate,
my only gift to you that won't fade.
First, everything will seem the same.
Until everything in your life is consumed by my precious eternal black flame chars everything in it's way.
No need to give it a name.
Just know that it will keep you warm if sparked with someone else's pain.
Just let it out...
All I've got are scars
reminding me of everything I'm not,
And I wish all my flaws upon my fellow man, because they thought
their destiny would be more than just to rot.
So, take this flame to light your way
and you will finally understand,
that: Who I am is
all that you could ever hope to be.
GOD ALWAYS FAILS
and life burns down your family trees.
Seasons will change and the wounds become scars,
Now the world sees us as strange because we hate?
And you'll learn to care so much
About how you just don't care at all.
And we can smile knowing that we all return to dust,
And that one day, the sky will fall.
And when it meets me,
Will it judge me for my fashion
Or will it care if I lived my life with any kind of passion,
If I kill or if I stole
Or if I ever tried at all?
No, nothing matters
To this empty God
That we have all been after
Now the hate is going to kill me from the inside out.
Feel the flames forge my hopes into doubts.
We burn to breathe.
We chose suffering,
We're born to be
Miserable.
Hate is going to kill me from the inside out.

6. The Pawn

I've played this game before.
With eyes closed, I still see the board.
I've used a million pieces just like you.
Yeah, I know all of your moves.
So, all I wonder
is who you put your trust into.
Is it the king that stands behind you
or the hand that guides you?
Now, what are you fighting for
and do you think that you'll ever be more
than just a pawn in my game?
Trade your shape and trade your name,
but I'll treat you all the same.
Two steps forward must feel like progress.
But, your heart is mine
I'll possess your mind
and I have planned every move for you
If you only knew all the things I'd put you through,
would you have trusted my hands
and let them promise you the promised land?
If you only knew...
If you only knew all the things I'd do to you,
would have trusted my hands
knowing that your heart was just...
part of my plan.
You were just
part of my plan.
If you only knew.
If you only knew...
I lie just to see the hope in your eyes die
and look a little bit more like mine.
Tell the world how hard you tried,
with all the tears you tried to hide.
Would things be any different if you knew
that you were always being used?
If only you knew.







DESERTERS LYRICS