EVERY TIME I DIE LYRICS

1. The Great Secret

blow your fucking brains out
blow your fucking brains out
tune that pale flame out
extinguish the glow forever and,

in will come the sun
in will come the sun
in will come the sun

blindfold your eyes, you are loved
trust in her aim, you are loved
now dance to the grave, you are loved
no one will ever know who they are

so blow your fucking brains out
blow your fucking brains out
tune that pale flame out
crack the egg wide open
and out will pour enough
out will pour enough
once you stop believing in yourself

silence the voice

so raise your antenna towards the sky
put blood in the well if it dries
what is now instead of what is next
our reflections only draw us to our death

tell yourself nothing
tell yourself nothing
tell yourself nothing

let the word come
let the word come
let the word come

all eyes off
all eyes off
all eyes off

drift without sight

all eyes off
all eyes off
all eyes off

drift without sight

blow your fucking brains out
blow your fucking brains out

2. Pelican Of The Desert

server the nerve
the skin
the scale
gather your bones from beyond the pale
come out of the wild and into the world
burn all the books
put out your eyes
lower your sword the end is nigh
sink through the pinewood and into the dirt
out of your body and into the sky
out of your body and into the sky

give in
voices will carry us
turn around.
find your way back to the start.

love is the way
love is the only way
love is the only way out

love is the way
love is the only way
love is the only way out

don't freeze up in the headlights
welcome it in
walk through the storm to the eye
the birth will be calm
the birth will be quiet
but the dark had such long arms
pulling me down
sliding back into my head
where all of it is thought without awareness
where there is no foresight only pertinence
i could scratch at the door
but I will never get in

so I rise above or I sink below
so I rise above or I sink below
either way I am false
at the center is all

I tripped up at the breakthrough
I was scared to die
so the gate locked
the light vanished
now where am I?
I was startled by the great height
I doubted my heart
now the wine turns to water
I am coming apart

3. Decayin' With The Boys

Yeah!
I ain't afraid of the dark
I ain't worried about the savages loose in the night
but you show me the things I've done and girl you know
I get ch-ch-chills
all down my crooked spine

kill the lights
kill the lights
kill the lights

I've seen too much
if so below, then as above
lord knows I've seen enough

it's crystal clear and uglier than I thought
desperate and lonely juggernauts
illuminate the filth
with the glow of your righteous heart
shine a light upon the world
and I'll scurry back to the dark

lights on
rats out

the uppers lower me into the hive
the lights are low, us weeds come alive
downers pick me up into a ditch
I cannot scratch this never-ending itch

salvation is a hell of a thing
salvation is a hell of a thing
salvation is a hell of a thing

pull the dust up over your eyes

I don't believe I'll have a revelation with all these secrets of mine
and if I ever have a holy vision
it's going to be, two at a time
I got so much soul in me that I'm barely alive
I've been down and out for so long I can't be revived

Yeah!
I ain't afraid to be long lost
I ain't bothered by the silence, the cold, or the roads that stretch for miles
but you show me the man I've become and you girl you know
I want to tie up a rope
and crack my crooked spine

kill the lights
kill the lights
kill the lights

I've seen too much

4. Overstayer

I should have drown in the flood with the rest
I had the chance
the current was pitiless
and proof of man was wiped from the face off the earth, the song, the dance
i should have gone with it

alas, alas

I'm stranded alone in the wake
now I have lost all sight of the grave
when did I ever say that I want to be saved?
I can see for miles but it doesn't look the same
when no road has been paved,

go up
go up
go up
go up

now how am I gonna get down?

I want a slow death wrought from the dregs
"I want to be sedated'
just like joey said.
I want the heaviest heart

I have eaten my weight in gold
I can see only what I'm shown up here
but in the coals with common men who yearn for ordinary things love cannot find us

so get out of my way
I got out of my own way
better a tramp, than a captive
better alone than lonely with all these "friends"

what in the fuck am I doing here?
why did the rapture not take me in?
it is my curse to carry on.

I should have died when I was young
I should still be burning lung
If i had known what I'd become

I should have drown in the flood with the rest
I had the chance,
but here I am.

5. If There Is Room To Move, Things Move

we opened the box, and looked inside
two animals
one's dead one's alive
all we think we know is always wrong
the heavens fell in a thick awful shroud that covered the earth but there wasn't a sound
nobody saw it so nobody heard it
all these equations won't solve the uncertain

everything's dead until its alive
man will exist
and then he will die
just take the ride

see it now? see it now?
shift the absurd and the reasoned around
make it so, make is so
build holy places with towering stones.

open your eyes
it's all there inside
everything gone and forgotten survives
everything we know we think is wrong
all the lead becomes gold
all the squares get circled
all the graves, emptied and covered up.

we toil and we rot
and terrible things happened just like I thought
and the cycle carried on
until I thought nothing more and heartache was gone

love it as it is
whatever the fuck this is
or destroy and start again
what we are is in your head

hell broke loose
the stars unaligned
I looked for a kingdom that I'd never find
all I thought I knew was always wrong
I threw out the map and let go of the reigns
lead by a stranger into the strange
the answer is that there's no answer at all
the answer is that there's no answer at all

everything's dead until it's alive
man will exist and then he will die
just take the ride

6. Moor

pay no mind
to the stranger in
the 4 a.m
he's not the one we know

and he knows

I slept through the war
you waged with him
for a little bit
until he cracked your bones

and you had to let go

so I make believe
I've discovered peace
but I'll skin the man alive
and sell the meat

I'll wait in the dirt
where he left you blood
if he returns for it
I can make it right for good

oh how I wish he would

lost you in overflowing fog
that's been here awhile
so I plan to keep watch
as long as the wolves are out
they're always around
and more violet than hell

I have eyes of every color now
and they're vigilant
it doesn't matter who knocks
you don't let them in
there are terrible men
I'm one so I should know

heaven smiles on me now and then
but the devil always had hooks in

all I want is his head
and this horrible fucking world
will be wonderful again

there is so much beauty and love
and when I eat his beating heart
I can bring it back to us

there's nothing that I couldn't do
except cover you
when the slings and arrows came
and I've never been the same.

7. Exometrium

peel off the leather and dig out your heart, peel off the leather and dig out your heart,
peel off the leather and dig out your heart, peel off the leather and dig out your heart,

right before your very eyes
I slipped off the husk
I mastered the sleight
there's a getaway car
that's been waiting my whole life
the engine has been running since the moment I arrived

a trap door in the gallows let the charlatan out
smoke and mirrors box him in
the rags and the bones were such a burden
that I though I'd collapse and only when I surrendered them
did I find I had what it takes to burn myself at the stake

did you smell a rat, did you smell a rat
did you smell a rat, did you smell a rat

I had faked everything but my death
across of the plane onto the shore
the strain on my back wasn't there anymore

wisdom teeth have replaced the fangs, wisdom teeth have replaced the fangs

I've been scalped, scalped, scalped
I've been knocked conscious and I still haven't come around
there was so much trouble on my mind, all the time
call on the ten thieves and tell them I'm ready

I looked up and the desert was everywhere
but insight comes through blackened eyes
I climbed a hill to dig a hole in the ground
where I could bury the faithlessness and the evidence that I was ever actually right
my skin was on too tight

I could not identify the body
us snakes evolve
it's what snakes do

i could not identify the body
shed the fur and leave the womb
peel off the leather and dig out your heart, peel off the leather and dig out your heart
peel off the leather and dig out your heart, peel off the leather and dig out your heart

8. Thirst

there was gossip
there were pleas
there were rumors of meaning in meaningless things
widows readied their marital beds
litters of bastards gnawed at your breast
the filthy are first to be showered in love
the world's gone mad
we dress them in furs as they travel the earth
saints wear rags

you blessed our home
we took you in
but you had come to the place where the plague had been
It burrowed into your graces and airs
It took your queen
It hawked your wares
the stoic are first to be covered in shit and life goes on
but when it don't anymore I will see you in hell
where I am god
god damn it,
wait

they don't love you, like i do
but I don't know you, like them

they don't love you, like I do
they love you better, I know you best

every hostile deed is your death
It's not mine

9. Old Light

[feat. Brian Fallon]

I'm a great oasis
yeah I'm a mirage
I'm a beam of old light from a vanquished star and I'll only guide you into the dark
I'm a parasite with a tapeworm
yeah I got a bulletproof vest
knowing my bad luck I ain't ever gonna die so the good will never get any rest

come bail me out of the state I'm in
the drinks I've had are no match for the truth
the crowd down here put it's teeth in us
but the cure's more dangerous than the venom is
so we leave it in
and we do those things that make us forget that we're dying here
but we're dying here

so love your blood while you can
let it warm your freezing hands

I'm a dog-less master
yeah I'm a master-less dog
when the whip and the tether are put aside forever
I'm an ox that wanders into the swap
I'm a rattlesnake across a braided rope
I'm the demon on your side of the chalk
If I caught them girls who started them fires
they'll track me down in the fog

come bail me out of the state I'm in
the drinks I've had are no match for the truth
the crowd down here put it's teeth in us
but the cure's more dangerous than the venom is
so we leave it in
and we do those things that make us forget that we're dying here
but we're dying here

so love your blood while you can
let it warm your freezing hands

you put a hex me women
you're a thinner, you're a thinner
yeah and these are nuclear winters
atomic black winters
I kept the fire alive because
I'm a sinner, I'm a sinner
come here and let me boil your blood

I'm a train as long as the track
I am concurrently outbound and just now getting back
they strung me up by a rope as tall as the trees
though I land my two feet I still sway in the breeze

10. All Structures Are Unstable

all of a sudden you're dead
the ground cracks and takes you in
you've no time to be born again
there was nothing where something had been
but every grave that blooms is anchored in miles of roots
in the seed is the tree
in the flesh is the feast

there were worms in the hearts that you hoard
they devour their way to the soul and the world is weakened from within
a hole opens up and you're dead

when I was pregnant I burned a witch alive
at a hundred and one years old
I gave birth to a cloud of smoke
we are part of a great machine
that inefficiently cycles grief
in the beginning it puts end and every cause is after effect

there were worms in the hearts that you hoard
they devour their way to the soul and the world is weakened from within
a hole opens up and you're dead

there's too much in poison in our glass to make a toast to our health
the cave that I built a kingdom on won't carry my weight
the past is clearer than it's ever been
our mistakes made ourselves
blood rushes out of our phantom limbs
we take on the water we're floating in
but I'll never be clean

11. El Dorado

you were alone when you came in
you'll be alone when you leave again
and in the middle there's nothing
that can keep you around when it's time to go home
because everybody I lean on
(since I don't trust myself)
leans on someone else
watch the colonies collapse like dominoes

I could beg and I could plead
but all I hear is the echo of my own voice begging me

the fossils of the teen age are well preserved in the arctic wasteland
the fossils of the teen age are well preserved in the arctic wasteland

I crawled on hands and knees just to be there with you
and you moved on without me

scrap the crown, clear the slate
cut off you roots, you're on your own
scrap the crown, clear the slate
cut off you roots, you're on your own

we all need something

I'm a gypsy queen
without a swarm
and the burning bridges keep me warm

I'm a new wave
In a dried up stream
I'm just trying to find my way out to the sea

you were alone when you came here
you'll be alone when you leave again
and in the middle there's nothing
that can keep you around when it's time to go home
because everybody I lean on
(since I don't trust myself)
leans on someone else
watch the colonies collapse like dominoes

I could beg and I could plead
but all I hear is the echo of my own voice begging me

the fossils of the teen age are well preserved in the arctic waste
the fossils of the teen age are well preserved in the arctic waste

crush your allies
crush your allies

12. Idiot

from my skin
I emit flashing lights

In my eyes all you find
are flashing lights

from my mouth, every sound a warning bell
fill the room, kill the mood and overwhelm

break up the crowd
suck the life out

break up the crowd
suck the life out

paralyzed until the flesh crawls right off my bones
I can't push words past the knot in my throat
water stands where once water could flow
this is not my familiar broken home

hide you drugs
fix your shirt
turn it down

I botched the lines
tongue is tied
get me out

scatterbrained
It can't be fixed
nothing fits

out of film
out of room
full eclipse

break up the crowd
suck the life out

break up the crowd
suck the life out

the edges are made out of stone
I built a maze I can not get out of
the edges are made out of stone
this labyrinth I have trapped myself in

throw me a rope, throw me a rope, throw me a rope

I'm trapped in a wreck under myself
pinned to an old soul
while everyone I love
stays forever young

the roads are blocked
the petals closed
they're on to me
the song is too loud
I cannot dance
they're on to me
the air is weighs a ton
the air is weighs a ton

all I want is for everyone to go to hell
It's the last place I was seen before I lost myself
all I want is for everyone to come to hell
there we can be free and learn to love ourselves.

13. Cheap Ludes

[Bonus Track]

Under layers of solid rock,
Far removed from the shifting tides,
And having weathered all acts of God:
The artifacts of the glory vibe.

The holy "unrecognizable"
Lighting up real cigarettes,
Cursed by ex lives;
Drinking only to free themselves
From the hands of cruel women in another man’s home,
From the graves of good friends on the side of the road.
No posture, no proof of the one night stand,
Just shadows and stories and the blood on their hands.

The time-worn Juvenihilists
Struck fear until the bones collapsed.
The afterlife is eternal after hours.
We saw the light and we all turned back.

Haunted by the teen spirits dragging wallet chains;
Painting a telephone number on the wall of the cave;
Spill your guts to the stranger with the free cocaine;
Everybody’s petrified, so nobody gets to change.

Entombed
In youth

Embalmed
With awe

We all discover the fire
We all discover the fire
We all discover the fire

The prehistoric post-modernist's
Lost art of eye contact.
These skeletons are a fucking riot,
Dig them up and bring them back.

We had trained the kind of demons that would rip you apart;
We only knew it was love once it broke our hearts;
“Our best friends float in the bottom of a glass;”
Don’t hold anybody close that would hold you back.

Draw breath. but are you alive?
Draw breath, but are you alive?
Draw breath, but are you alive?
Draw breath, but are you really alive?

14. Saturnalia

Once
God
Gives
You
No-
thing
To fear,
Fear then.

It reads
Your lips.

It reads
Your lips.

We festered in the dark
Flies on the wall had us surrounded.
The almighty eye is inescapable.
All the unknown is manifest.
The gallows are vast and they are vacant.
What was unsaid is understood.
The Lord, he is fierce, but he is patient.
What was undone will stay undone.
Our prayers are delayed and they are makeshift.

The aura is
Around me

There's a spell coming on.
The devils got me, i done no wrong.
I am star-crossed.
Star-crossed.

I have buried all the trash,
But the earth shakes
And spits it back.

It is still here.
It is all here.

Mask it.
Fake it.
But the nature of our selves
Is evident.

The camera was hidden, but it was on us.
Every last word is second-guessed.
Go to the tape and you’ll never get back.
What was unseen is obvious.
Carved into fire, forever reaching.
The door has swung wide, it can’t be shut.
Those that keep watch remember everything.

Judged
By
All.

Stripped
Of
Flesh.
You can’t vomit the apple up.
You can't vomit the apple up.
You can't vomit the apple up.
You can't vomit the apple up.







EVERY TIME I DIE LYRICS