EVERY TIME I DIE LYRICS

1. Fear And Trembling

[feat. Tim Singer]

Though it may haunt us
And break our hearts
Death cannot tear us apart

I'll wait for an omen
A sign that I'm chosen
Then I'll crack that reaper safe with my bare hands
A trespass
My horror was holy
When I robbed two early graves I was sick with grief
Bruised deep

The desert was lonely
I either took a leap of faith or I jumped ship
I admit I offered my only just to crash those pearly gates
Hands up, hands up

Heaven's been raided
Creator, created
Heaven's been raided
Creator, created

I am sorry, it's not right
But you are mine to sacrifice
I was hopeless, I was tired
And we all kill to survive.

(I'm sorry)
Sacrifice
(I'm so sorry)
Kill to survive

I am sorry, it's not right
But you are mine to sacrifice
I was hopeless, I was tired
And we all kill to survive

Sacrifice
(I'm sorry, I'm so sorry)
Kill to survive
Sacrifice
Kill to survive

Though it may haunt us
And break our hearts

Death cannot tear us apart

2. Glitches

So long to young love I've anchored my heart
Farewell to small joys I've burned down the bar
I'm changing my name so I don't do no harm
Some say it's vanity, some say its charm

No levels, still the same old devils

Frightened of fear, a servant of time
Kidnapped the queen, I have angered the hive
Snuffed out the stars with celestial winds
Ended a cycle that started again
I stopped going out, they kept coming in
Was I saving my soul or saving my skin?

No levels, still the same old devils

Can't hold it close, can't let it go
Prisons in basements in slick model homes

I'm just a day-tripper on sacred terrain
My transformation went from mangled to tame
I don't feel different but I don't feel the same
I'm afloat with an ear to the ground
I built a fortress with some books and a phrase
I felt some heat so I came out of the haze
I saw the end and I was truly afraid
I have begged but I'm still not allowed

It's a trap, lay the bait, catch the rat
It's a trap, lay the bait, catch the rat

Flew home and left the unknown in the lurch
Kept finding bodies, I called off the search
Went to a hymn from a funeral dirge
Church in the hospital, dog in the church

No levels, still the same old devils

Shepherd me back, this time I know
I don't know nothing, I'm not in control

Mindful but gutless
Mindful but gutless
Mindful but gutless
Mindful but gutless

There's no need to panic
No need to panic

3. C++ (Love Will Get You Killed)

Girl, what are you scared of?
All will be lost anyway.
I see no good reason to wait.
I will meet you.

There's a light where you go.

Don't let a missed exit haunt you.
There will be no air to breathe
A helplessness like you would not believe.
I won't blame you.

There's a light where she goes.
All is right where she goes.

Stay if you think we could pull through
My curse is the strongest there is
And karma collects what is his.

I try to plead with your machines.
I'm at the feet of your machines.
Tell me anything at all.

If it's a false alarm then forget what I said.
If the snake won't bite then I take it all back.
If there's wine in that bottle then bring me a glass.
I'll eat crow, it don't taste so bad.

I try to plead with your machines.
I'm at the feet of your machines.
Tell me anything at all.

The sun is out. Out cold.

When everybody gets a universe they do what they want.
I'm gonna need another universe, I tore mine apart.

When everybody gets a universe they can do what they want.
I tore mine apart. I tore mine apart.

Tried to speak to machines.
Tried to plead with machines.
Pull me from the ledge, I hear them. They're praying

4. Two Summers

I have widowed every woman from the waitress to the queen
Been in and out of wedlocks with an exoskeleton key
I may perish unwept, but at least I'll never swing

I ain't in your crystal ball
You won't remember me but you'll remember our song

You got premonitions, talked to spirits, they approved
That just might mean you're lying or them spirits lied to you
Nothing more is perfect, yeah, but nothing less will do

I ain't in your crystal ball

You looked at what the light shined on not where it's shining from, didn't you?
You find what you need only when you need to find it. Yeah, I did it too

I knew I was alive because I used to want to die, but not anymore
Now I'm trying to be but old hearts won't let me sleep. I hear them in the floor

Standing at the altar with your leather jacket on
Fucked up on some new pills, got you feeling twenty-one
My friends are always pissed off, all your friends dance just for fun

I ain't in your crystal ball

I won't be here for that hangover, but I'll come running to raise a glass
Where'd I get my nerve? Oh, I thought you'd never ask
We clean the slate just to write mistakes, an old flame you can't blowout
You filled the cup, you picked me up, now you've got to put me down
Oh, now you've got to put me down

5. Awful Lot

Explosion from the bottom of a well
Thin walls harsh winds
I tried to tap a deeper, brighter vein
But I'm back in old skin again
Pale stone
I am out of blood
Left in the chapel by a thousand other things I could've loved
But barely touched

We used to talk to God with acid on our tongues
We were divine when we were drunk
Before the world put out the fire and fed us crumbs

Chasing bended light
I went missing on the roads that wind through the corners of your eyes

Barbarians
Guard yourself with laughter, numb the meaning with the word
Barbarians
We tamper with a down machine but know it cannot work
Barbarians

We had such promise until we broke our promises. [4x]

Why can't it be the year two thousand?
I want to live in the year two thousand
When I was dumb enough to truly believe

Why can't it be the year two thousand?
I want to live in the year two thousand
When having nothing meant having everything

No one is taking my calls anymore
I can never get through
Acknowledge me you motherfuckers
I am cold and I'm blue

You savages
Barbarians

6. I Didn't Want To Join Your Stupid Cult Anyway

I didn't want to join your stupid cult anyway

I'm joining a cult, joining a cult, joining a cult
Cut off my hair, clean out my head, fill me with song
Scrap obstructed eyes
Leave my friends behind

Say I'm free. Say I'm free. Say I'm free and I am
Say I'm free. Say I'm free. Say I'm free and I am

Reverse the poles on the magnet
Pierce the armor of habit

I'm joining a cult, joining a cult, joining a cult
Cut off my hair, clean out my head, fill me with song
Willing to surrender to persist
Empty stare and dumb shit eating grin

Teach me to breed, don't let me think
Break me in half
Teach me to breed, don't let me think
Teach me to breed, don't let me think
Wipe out my past, break me in half

We're gonna get carried away
We're gonna get carried away
We're gonna get carried away

New clothes! New home! New job! New god!
From faith to doubt
I'm hardwired to short-out

From parts unknown,
To streets paved in gold
Left on the rooftop
Token in hand
I'm stuck here in neutral
I don't understand

Drink up. Drink up. Drink up. Drink up
Drink up!

Teach me to breathe, don't let me think
Wipe out my past, break me in half

I'm joining a cult, joining a cult, joining a cult

7. It Remembers

[feat. Brendan Urie]

I brought a rumor when I came down from the mountain
That spread quicker than the fire in your eyes
Heaven won't let me in, I took my medicine
Salt water couldn't quench my thirst at the fountain

Burn slow, there's no rush
You're right, always right

I want oblivion all the time
I want oblivion all the time
Mindless son of the eternal shine
Mindless son of the eternal shine

It snuck up like a desert wind
I got a feeling I won't feel again
When faith abandons me
I hope it does it honestly

I still howl like an animal in the darkness
And I'm reminded by the blood on my clothes
I can't stand what I've become
I'm shivering to spite the sun
We come together and were overwhelmed by the loneliness

I want oblivion all the time
I want oblivion all the time
I want oblivion all the time
I want oblivion...

[Brendan Urie]
Burn slow, there's no rush
You're right, always right

I thought I settled my debts that night on the ride home
But I have still got hell to pay

8. Petal

Help!
It has gone black. The sky is black. Earth is frozen and black
The moon is black. Snow is black
Her eyes, when open, are black. Light is black. Leads are black
The wires that run from them are black
Stars are black. Time is black
But the thought of death is soft and clean and beautiful and white

It's the purest of the drugs
'Cause it's everything at once
What if meaning never comes?
And I was just someone to fuck?
All of life, beginners luck?

What becomes of all creation if the smallest prayer is firmly answered "no"?
The greatest of the floods
There's a vacuum where the brightest future was

I'd better warm up my gun in case love is not enough [2x]

What haven't I done? What have I done? [2x]
What haven't I done to deserve a cold war on all sides?
It's so bleak all the time

"Stay with me. You're alone in the center of hell. Just be."
The longest winter I have ever seen
From hospital to hospital. Repeat

First I need to save the life of god
So, that god can come and save me from myself
If I have to walk alone I'm giving up
I can't stay here knowing love is not enough
If I have to walk alone I'm giving up
I can't stay here knowing love is not enough

Untimely ripped into this world
I was born again as a girl

9. The Coin Has A Say

I feel alright but I'm buried alive.
Nothings healed, just covered by time.
I want to pray but I think I'm possessed.
Constant cardiac arrest.
I'm standing in the way again.
I can't see the road ahead.
I have taken too much.
Once a ladder now a crutch.
When all of it is closing in, stop fighting and hold your breath.
So much self-love, so much hate.
Fuck these people.
Fuck this place.
But to an amateur set of eyes, me and the lord look a lot alike.
I might even have a brilliant shine and the strength to make it right.
Unbroken, unscarred.
Back ain't weak, hands ain't hard.
It's the first night in town.
Our first night in town.
Rain comes down, bridge goes out.
The same way its always did.
Now that I'm yours, discover me.
Now that I'm yours, unbury me.
Now that I'm yours, amaze me.
Go ahead and save me.
Go ahead.
When all of it is closing in, stop fighting and hold your breath.
Don't take it back, you're all that I have.
A new goddess emerged from the mist and took the blade from my wrist.
Don't blink back out.
I will aimlessly wander this wasteland guided only by a sickness, not a purpose.
I can't go back to what I was: Metallica without the drugs.
A faith healer without the plant.
Theres no home for a hollow man.

10. Religion Of Speed

I can't continue on without a sign
One wing to haul the weight of only one third of an eye
The voice I'm leaning into has been thrown
When all the meat is stripped away I'm chewing on the bone

I'm condemned until the moment I forget
That I haven't learned a goddamn thing yet
My soul is sticking out like a talon through a shell
You can wait until the rapture I will hightail it to hell

Water everywhere but no water fit to drink
I've got endless proof and I don't know what to think
Nothing but time, not a minute left to spare
Gallons of fuel, I can't get anywhere

When all I am is a stone that says the name I had and the years that I had been,
The quiet depths and the measured steps won't echo like the shriek of riot did

Sever the anchor you drag or be frozen at the stake
Choke down all the prey in your path before you become the prey
No one likes a company man
Nothing but a snake, nothing but a snake

Look at my war it's the prettiest thing alive
I traded it for sanity now all you see is mine
Open the throttle, feel the thunder in the sails
Pick up the scent of fear and follow the trail

When all I am is a stone that says the name I had and the years that I had been
The quiet depths and the measured steps won't echo like the shriek of riot did

I can't move the dredge without heat
Still water of a puddle and the ocean never meet
I've wandered off a path into a storm
A trance into a fury, a mantra for a sword

Doomed until I recall how to fire up an engine that has stalled
I would trade what I have lost for the things that I have left. Some clarity just to see darkness best?

My flower in your barrel hasn't stopped the slaughter yet

So spent, we can't be saved
We lost sleep but we found our way
Sharpen your axe against the road
Don't hold out hope

Such courage pulls us down. We ride on
Such courage pulls us down. We ride on

Our songs refuse a grave
These beating hearts make violent waves
Push the pedal right through the floor
Want so much more

When all I am is a stone that says the name I had and the years that I had been
The quiet depths and the measured steps won't echo like the shriek of riot did

11. Just As Real But Not As Brightly Lit

Creeping up a wall of glass
I'm entirely made of sand
Lurching up. Feeding back
What the canyon wants, the canyon gets
And the canyon craves an apology and a pound of flesh

I thought I felt
I thought I saw
I thought I knew
So much chatter

Let there be shade
Un-illuminate
Nothing will change
If you don't lead with your shadow

Let there be shade
Un-illuminate
Exhale the plague
Cloud your vision

An unpainted corner
My kingdom come
Silence tells me I can't escape it

Now we write our names on the moon in blood
I have set us back twenty centuries
All the letters sent with no address
Is he talking to or talking down to me?

They'll kill us
They'll kill us
They'll kill us, if they have the chance
I hear their conversations
They'd kill us if they had the chance
I'll be the first to take it

I still feel like someone is watching
Though I'm not sure if that someone is listening
It don't matter much to my suffering
Because I know for a fact no one's answering

Let there be shade
Un-illuminate
Nothing will change
If you don't lead with your shadow

I was on the shoulders of leviathans
But I couldn't see through the fog of anger
And I failed myself like I did before
My work is lost. All my reckoning
Back to sin. Back to shame
Back into the quicksand

Guarding an empty house
Guarding an empty house
I have lost everything I had found
Sorrow will overcome
Sorrow will overcome

12. 1977

Melt the glaciers inside my veins
Thaw my eyes, crack the glaze
Trapped under ice at a fathomless depth
But I know I exist I can see my breath

Come up to the surface, the ice age has passed
Hallelujah, it is over at last
A new day will follow a nuclear blast
Hallelujah, it is over at last

Crossed the great divide
To sleep where most would die
I'm on the lam for a fire theft
I wasn't here, we never met

Our shadows spread forever but they don't weigh anything
Shake it off
I can't ever go back but I will take it when I leave
Shake it off
I'll be waiting with a suitcase when the devil comes for me. Shake it off

One if by land, two if by sea
Life isn't ours, we are property of life
Life isn't ours, we are property of life
So, take what you can when you can while you can

Stare at the sun
Look directly into the sun
Stare at the sun
Look directly into the sun
It's over at last

13. Map Change

Am I the only one that saw the sun burn out?
The locusts keep their rhythm
My watch is broken down
I wake up and take on water, sink to the peak of despair
What I need is a cigarette
No more prayers

The planets unaligned
We are saints without a shrine

A storm comes and the city's abandoned
The ship is going down with the captain

I am the man that sank Atlantis
The bottom is not the lowest we get
Further down still the dark's absolute
Further down than that, it's only me and you

I assure you that hell is not a myth
We both vacation there
Hell is not a myth
We spend each winter there
No one can prepare

A storm comes and the city's abandoned
The ship is going down with the captain

I am the man that sank Atlantis
The bottom is not the lowest we get
I thought I knew the best part of the secret:
The truth is the thing we forget

The glory I had witnessed was just a sleight of hand
These hearts cannot be salvaged, these bones cannot withstand
I have either been forgotten or I was never seen
Now I'm in the negative space between

I've weighed down the earth
Through the stars to the pavement
I've weighed down the earth
No use trying to save it
I've weighed down the earth
Through the stars to the pavement
I've weighed down the earth
Not sure I can take it

I've fallen out of frame
A strangled, distant flame

Clenched in the jaws of anguish are only godless men
Chaos is drawn to silence like life is drawn to death
The dusk is so much clearer than the dawn had ever been
I'm a ghost, and yet I've weighed down the earth
Through the stars to the pavement
I've weighed down the earth
No use trying to save it

14. Skin Without Bones

[Deluxe Edition Bonus Track]

Got me a voodoo doll [2x]
Untouched, I'll feel it all
Got me a voodoo doll

Show it hell, I've seen it
Take its hope when I need it
I'm breathing for it

Cut it up
I'm dislocated
I'm coming apart
Put it up to the flame
My flesh is charred
Make it feel so ashamed that I wear the mark
I will suffer if it gives you the strength to come back out
Black out

All my bad luck
Got mixed in with your blood
It poisoned our apple
My past life's contagious

Take me instead [2x]
Your place for mine [2x]

Got me a voodoo doll [2x]
Untouched I'll feel it all
Got me a voodoo doll

I'm of no consequence [2x]

The cut's infected and I cannot hunt
I am no provider
On barren land
All we do is want
The cut's infected and I cannot hunt
Bow to the great divider
We scattered her
All we do is want

Everything's coming up roses
Are we expected to feast on a flower?
Everything's coming up roses [2x]

15. Nothing Visible; Ocean Empty

[Deluxe Edition Bonus Track]

Erase all the bastards, that gripped her, the vultures
And your sad eyes, that don't flicker
Protect her
Protect her

Turn the world into the wild

There is nothing outside but a mirror and the sky
You're a dream in a dream, you're the only one alive

Try bursting the clouds
Try not making a sound, or leaving the ground

So much space
And all I paint
Are oil spills
On black waves

I used to go easy
Yeah I noticed all the beauty
Now I'm hunch-backed,
It's all heavy
Reflector
Reflector

But the magic isn't real, 'til the magic is gone
If the flame was eternal, then it won't be for long

There is nothing inside, but a mirror and a light
You're caught in between
Mise en abyme*

I'm setting sail but I'm still as the wind doesn't blow
I'm waiting for a train, I don't think it'll show
I'm at party but there's nobody here that I know

I've called together every wolf in the Arctic, then I cried wolf, I cried wolf
I built a house on the grave that you haunted, then I shook, I got shook
I've called together every wolf in the Arctic, then I cried wolf, I cried wolf
I built a house on the grave that you haunted, then I shook, I got shook
I lit a match and threw it into the garden. Yeah and it took, oh it took
Somebody tell me if I'm dear or departed, I can't look, I can't look

Try bursting the clouds
Try not making a sound, or leaving the ground

All I create is empty space
Empty space, empty space

Cheer up
Have you ever thought of smiling more?
You look so good
Try smiling more

[* French. English translation: "within the abyss"]







EVERY TIME I DIE LYRICS