FARMAKON LYRICS

1. Time-tables

Those moments of serenity
Those dream-like instants
I knew I could let go
And the time would still be

What once seemed so hard
Begins to feel so simple
And what is
I can't comprehend

To be in this
Disabled state of mind
Unable to completely indemnify
All the wrongs of the time passed

As the world
Continues to stretch
I still can recognize myself
What should I have to be afraid of?

When did I become
A potion of poison

My test in courage
Is to go through life
To earn my blood-red stains

2. Coma September

I'm facing the infinite
Overwhelming sadness
The heart-breaking beauty
Of the whole world so fragile

I am not the one to carry
The burden of past
But a mere reflection
Of her suffering

Like was she
Like a reflection
Of all the warmth
In this world to find

This is the world's balance in misery
A never-ending time and place
Silently tearing down my voice
A hand so close and yet unseen

I can't help her
With my spirit in white
I'm forever doomed to stand aside
And relive this

A single tear
Stretched throughout eternity
I fall into the world behind dreams
And take my share of the sadness unbearable

I miss you so much
My luminescence
The bringer of light
Into the darkness of this town

3. Sixty-nine

I redraw my wish
line by line
My thoughts retrace the history
to the point where I failed

Pictures of long summer nights
burnt with a bright flame
their flames now
tearing me

I'll shield my love with my fear
reach inside me and I'll never be whole again

and then strikes
this drowse again
a warm depth of fantasy
I float with the streams of ecstasy

A light of a star
A way without pain
I step through the door and walk
again forgetting to fear the fall

I'm forever stuck
between this
and something that happened
in 1969

4. Faint Light

How everything seems to be turning
After hanging long from one good thing
After despair the faint light
Is now surrounding me

Beautifully revolving
Through sincere tears of pure happiness
Indescribable by words or actions
I content myself with silence

For love I can not
Thank my fate enough
Not divine
But a fortunate coincidence
It still means the world to me

To gaze into the sky
And to see the universe
To feel life itself
Softly caressing me

Everything I have ever craved
Ever needed
Bestowed upon me

And still my part is
Regardless of everything
To never completely understand
The blessing I have been given

5. Recondite

I can't seem to penetrate the shadow
That's hanging over my past
In vain I search for the truth of what I was

Like surfaced from a dream
Guided back from my cage of seclusion
Nevertheless, I'm not going to turn away now
After the years blindness

I remember
But I can't recognize the feelings
Was that really me?
Was that really my voice?

I host memories that only speak when I sleep
I chase the times and the places
And sometimes I find
Yet never all there is

Imprisonment came from beyond my vision
But somewhere it still breaths
Even if it would never be revived again
It will not leave me alone

I at the same time struggle to retain and to forget

But even if I remembered
I would only keep it inside me
For sometimes it is hard to see
Any light at all

6. Wings

Pencil-drawn lines
dancing against the white
like a butterfly with frozen wings
slowly moving the air around

Throughout this strange world
through my doubts and my fears
I see robins in the air

The hurting halo of love
a shape buried into my heart
I fall to dreams stretching
the endless second of departure

For one moment I know
for a fragment I feel
everything necessary

For one moment I forget all the vain and vanishing
from this vast ocean of eternity
I untie myself from the strains of reality
and live another day

7. A Temporary Death

Fainting and vanishing
To a rhythm of a heartbeat
Borderline and near the edge

Slow and firm grip
Cool and lifeless
Patiently parting the world in two

I've never said anything meaningful
Timeless and true
My game was silence

I am but a grain of sand
But nonetheless eternal
Not the lack of direction
But of understanding

The strain in me
Another train into
A temporary death in me

Linear sequence of choice points
The circle of my history
The feelings prevail

Control now
Lost on its way
Like a tear in the rain

The instant of my purity
No excuses, no solutions
Only the helplessness

Before this all ends
I want her to know
Just how much I love her

8. Helpless

The warm, dim light
In autumnal twilight
Sets the scenery
For a heart-breaking play

Strangled sorrow
Pains of two
Merciless grasp of loneliness
Uncompromising and endless

I miss the past
I miss the simpler times
Momentary images
And fragrances

To close my eyes
Detach myself
Sink into numbness
And reminisce

Cold streetlights
Damp asphalt
Take me away
Hide me

I can't stay eternally
Sunshine opens me
The feeling slowly
Fades away

Sometimes I feel
Every piece of misery there is
Powerless to avert my thoughts
I let it in

9. Monster

Eternal doorway
A gate to truth in despair
I feel caught in the fading headlights

Superiority by misbelief
Violence through delusion
How can one find passion
In such a storm

Even if we all were
Monsters in war
This would still differ
No excuses, no solutions

Beneath lies
An irrational mind
Tempest of anger
Forever burning

Two opposing sides inside
Taking turns in defining an illusion
Inefficient struggle against
Definite destination

A chance to save the sadness
To a later day
What would you do if you
Met him back in '25

10. The Mentally Disabled And The Artist

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FARMAKON LYRICS