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1. My Eyes Are Open

the world you pulled over my eyes
finally revealed
released from my illusion
that you could actually be
You never let me breathe
smothered in the fake
that you made seem true
my weakness is your strength
leaving me in shit
kicking in my teeth
finally escaping illusion
enclosed inside your words
I can't decide alone
you strive for our destruction
but to you its perfection
created for my improvement
but left unwilling to let go
rebuilt, individualized
but still conformed to you
fighting to get freedom
destroying to create the obsolete
my only escape is death

2. Fall

force-fed emotion
not grief not sorrow not fake
sour and pungent
tear stained face
hate is forgotten
useless shit falls away
above it all
fuck fate
emotion--dissolves--hatred returns--too weak to resolve... Fall
power too strong, forced to let go
cannot contain lies of content
anguish is mine, never set free
endless pain, destroys me ... Fall

3. Dilated

insomnia
too exhausted to be awake
too full of life to sleep
full of questions
about the horror which tomorrow brings
about the love I wont let myself feel
turning and rolling, tremble and cough
I can't stay still
but moving keeps me awake
craving the sedation
that only sleep can bring
searching for a fix I can't find
my eyes shut tight
thinking the darkness can caress me into sleep
it is never dark enough
I hold my breathe
hoping for the release that only being unconscious can bring
but I never have the strength
hours of anguish, lead to a second of bliss
which will leave me in a world that has only pain for me
tear my eyes out
every time they open I awake in a more painful reality

4. Decayed

white washed bleeding sky
breathing vision slowly dies
enclosed a capsule
no mind no desire
a violent revolution
a poisoned awakening
choking cold... asphyxiation...
five deaths... kill temptation
worlds wasted on yesterdays tears guided into tragedy
stale breath, no promises left to keep
enclosed a capsule
no mind no desire
a violent revolution
a poisoned awakening
tonight the air is grey with death
the end is all I hear
remaining a dying echo
blinded cold and fading
white washed bleeding sky
breathing vision slowly dies

5. Failed Existence

fallen into hell. contained in my failed existence
apathy has control, there is no hope
no shelter from endless failure
I cannot care... I cannot win
my shell... my shell of disbelief
shattered... shattered are all my dreams
in agony, yet I feel nothing
being numb is the greatest pain
piercing eyes of truth stare through my lies
I protect that which I hate
justice vanished for my suffering
I've become the cause of my pain
no release from ignorance
no escape from the end
cannot hide weakness
perseverance erased
my last step into total darkness
is my first step into blinding light

6. Consumed In Nothing

I'm empty and cold as I realize nothings real
falling into the abyss of fake
dying inside rotting beneath
unable to persevere
consumed by nothingness
drowning in my filth
craving the embrace
suffocate in tears
tear away all that mattered
dissolving uselessness
erasing who I am
destroying what I've built
I strive so hard to reach perfection
Yet I please no one
My trials are useless
I'm left weak
Dropping, falling, losing, lost, I never will win
Trapped in myself, with no illusion, to block out the horror within
fear of the future, of the unknown, leaves me alone with my hate
Knowing I'll never have what I need leaves me with nothing but pain

7. Silence (These Lies, These Truths)

in her silence I hear no rejection
in her silence I hear no truth
why can't I see the truth to save myself
no I know she lies
wordless but still I can hear
her lips have yet to move
two voices tear at me
these lies, these truths
need to escape in dream
to this world where I am god
my fears no longer drain
fear no longer crucifies
silence is my peace
silence is my pain
my peace is hidden lies
lying empty my fears consume my mind
here I am god (crucified)
why this pain destroys... destroys
her mouth sewn shut, dissolving painful truths
with her I'm in pain, without her I'm blind

8. Illusion Of Life

endless filth
covering every inch of poisoned earth
no way to escape
the endless bile piling up at the back of my throat
no purity it's an illusion that never was
their shit stained face leaves me quenching end
wretched vile nothings are still more than me
fuck life it is nothing
no reason to strive for an existence I cant achieve
no new thought just plagiarism of life
everything of worth is forgotten tomorrow
fuck everything that god calls life
my life is shit that god will flush away when he finishes
I affect nothing not even myself

9. Alone In The End

Every word, exactly what I need.
horrible truths erased
quiet whispers spin me in perfection
where nothing can be wrong.
her body shudders in ecstasy as I caress her flesh.
The sound of her breathing hypnotizes me soothing me into a deeper state of bliss.
Everything that escapes her lips is exactly what I need to hear.
She says I'm perfect, I'm beautiful, smart, so pure.
Every word contradicts my thoughts.
The voice inside me escapes
Maybe she just knew what to say
To dissolve all of my pain
Being with her is everything
I love her-she makes me love me.
I'm not alone
I'm left alone







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