MY RUIN LYRICS

1. Morning Prayer

Last night I had a dream
I was drowning again
You grabbed my hand and pulled me to safety
As I looked into your eyes
I saw my saviour
The person that I knew had been there all along
Just waiting for the chance to kill me
We kissed and my mouth started to bleed
Then all my teeth fell out...
I hate it when that happens

2. Beauty Fiend

IT'S TRUE...I'VE GOT DEMONS INSIDE ME

AND SOMETIMES...THEY NEED TO SPEAK
MY DARK PLACES...MAKE ME FEEL UGLY
MY LIPS ARE GLOSSED BUT MY HEART IS WEAK
I'M DISEASED
AS SEEN ON TV
PLEASE FORGIVE ME
FOR NOT BEING PRETTY
OR SEXY
BUT GOD NEVER BLESSED ME
HERE'S WHAT YOU'LL FIND
NEXT TIME YOU UNDRESS ME...

Scars
Wounds
I'm
BRUISED...

Watch me bleed
I'm your beauty
Watch me bleed
BEAUTY FIEND

ONCE AGAIN
WITHOUT PERFECT TEETH
I BEGIN
THE DREAM AS I SLEEP
SOON I'VE SINNED
MY SKIN IS STILL THICK
MY MOUTH AS ALWAYS
IS BRUTALLY HONEST
AT MY CALMEST
I'M TIRED OF EXPLAINING
HOW IT FEELS
TO BE EXPLOITED
AND RATED
NUMBER ONE, TWO OR SEVENTEEN
FUCK WHAT THEY PRINT IN THOSE DAMN MAGAZINES

Scars
Wounds
I'm
USED...

Watch me bleed
I'm no beauty
Watch me bleed
Beauty queen

Watch me bleed
I'm your beauty
Watch me bleed
BEAUTY FIEND

STUCK INSIDE THIS MASK OF MINE
There's no place for me to hide
Won't you please come suck me dry
Don't touch me
DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME
Don't touch me... WHY?
Can't you see beyond my skin
SIZE, my SHAPE, my ASS, my TITS
I am not your PRETTY FACE
I'm just a girl
THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!!

Watch me bleed
I'm no beauty
Watch me bleed
Beauty queen
Watch me bleed
I'm the beauty
Watch me bleed
BEAUTY FIEND

Why can't you see beyond my skin
SIZE, MY SHAPE, MY ASS, MY TITS
I am not your PRETTY FACE
I'm just a girl
THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!!

Stuck inside this mask of mine
There's no place for me to hide
Won't you please come suck me dry
DON'T
DON'T YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME...PIG!

3. Stick It To Me

It doesn't matter what I SAY
Doesn't matter what I DO
I DON'T REALLY GIVE A FUCK
About you
Nowadays it's all FAKE
Put some MAKE UP ON YOUR FACE
Lookin like a FUCKING chick
In LIPSTICK
There is nothing here for me
DRESSED UP in your NEW DISEASE
HOLLYWOOD is FULL OF SHIT
DON'T ASK ME TO SELL MY SOUL
I would rather be myself
You...DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD!

STICK IT TO ME
I know you want to
STICK IT IN ME
You know you're going to
STICK IT TO ME
I know you want to
STICK IT IN ME
You know you're going to

take a picture if you need
WHILE I BLEED
What makes you think...
THAT YOU KNOW ME
Dinner and an INTERVIEW
But I'm not a fan you
At least ... I tell the TRUTH...
Damned if I DO, damned if I DON'T
Damned if I WILL ..... if I WON'T
STAB ME IN THE BACK
And buy me one more DRINK
SUCK MY TRUST until I'm FUCKED
THEN YOU CAN SAY YOU FUCKED ME!

STICK IT TO ME
I know you want to
STICK IT IN ME
You know you're going to
STICK IT TO ME
I know you want to
STICK IT IN ME
You know you're going to

you're so SNEAKY
with your surprises
you're so SWEET
Underneath disguises
I can't wait
FOR YOU TO CRITICIZE THIS
Don't think I don't
KNOW HOW BIG YOUR KNIFE IS

Stick it in me
I KNOW YOU WANT TO
Stick it to me
YOU KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO
Stick it in me
I KNOW YOU WANT TO
Stick it to me
YOU KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO...

You don't know me like I know myself
AND I WILL NEVER TELL
you don't know me like I know myself
YOU CAN GO STRAIGHT TO HELL!

(I saw a scary monster)

4. Heartsick

Late night catechism speaks me to sleep
A lethal dose of narcissism conquers the beast
I can't remember how I got my last scar
THE BIBLE TELLS US JESUS...
WAS A ROCKSTAR

A PRAYER UNDER PRESSURE
Of violent ANGUISH
A PRAYER UNDER PRESSURE
Of violent ANGUISH...

Early mourning exorcisms keep me awake
Seven stars surround me as I burn like a saint
I can't remember why my knees are so sore
THE BIBLE TELLS US MARY...
WAS A WHORE

A PRAYER UNDER PRESSURE
Of violent ANGUISH
A PRAYER UNDER PRESSURE
Of violent ANGUISH...

There once was a GIRL and she SUFFERED from sickness
MOUTH was DISTORTED from RAZOR SHARP KISSES
TRIED to PRETEND it was all in her MIND
But I KNOW her VOICE...when I hear MINE
GOD are you listening? I hear you in my room
As hot as the MOON on the TENTH day of JUNE
There's no sleeping for me, I'm LOOSING MY FAITH
LOVE is not safe in a WORLD filled with HATE

HEART SICK
I'M SICK
Still SICK
MY HEART IS SICK

5. Rockstar

(This girl is harder than all you motherfuckers out there alright, just so we get that one thing perfectly clear!)

I feel
The skies open wide
SEE YOUR BLUE EYES
When worlds collide
You're by my side
It's hard to lie
Sometimes
I've CRIED...
Wished it was me
WISHED IT WAS ME WHO DIED...

I can see you in the sunshine
I FEEL YOU WHERE I STAND
I can see you in the bright lights
I FEEL YOU HOLD MY HAND
Let your light surround me
IN LOVING MEMORY
Let your love surround me
SHINE DOWN ON ME
SHINE ON ME

Something...so deep inside me
BINDS ME WITH YOU...
Told me a secret
Swore that I'd keep it
Someday MY FRIEND
We'll meet again
So until then...
I'LL KEEP OUR SECRET SAFE

I can see you in the moonlight
I FEEL YOU WHEN I SLEEP
I can see you on those dark nights
I FEEL YOUR ARMS AROUND ME
Let your light surround me
IN LOVING MEMORY
Let your love surround me
SHINE DOWN ON ME
SHINE ON ME

ROCKSTAR...

we will always be bound
WE WILL ALWAYS BE DOWN
we will always be bound
WE WILL ALWAYS BE DOWN

I FEEL YOU WHEN I SCREAM YOUR WORDS
I AM JUST A GIRL THAT HURTS
FEEL ME WHEN I SCREAM THESE WORDS
I AM JUST A GIRL THAT HURTS
I FEEL YOU WHEN I SCREAM YOUR WORDS
I AM JUST A GIRL THAT HURTS
Feel me when I scream these words
I am just a girl that hurts...
I am just a girl that hurts
I am just a girl that hurts
I am just a girl that hurts
I am just a girl
THAT HURTS

6. Sanctuary

DIS...HONEST
You came with your first kiss
Blue eyes sold me your HEAVENLY PRESENCE
Something was SUFFOCATING me and i couldn't breath
Had no idea that you would ever DECEIVE
I tried to BELIEVE all the things that you TAUGHT ME
CHRIST LIKE IMAGES OF TRUTH...they straight got me
Now watch me DROWN IN SADNESS
My lungs gasp for air as I let you STAB THIS...
HEART...and rip apart WOUNDS that exist
Deeper and darker
than any words I could SPIT
ALL IS SHIT
And it will NEVER be well
Because the fires that burn
Are my never ending .... HELL

IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD?
Your faith is lost
IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD?
Get off your cross
GET OFF...

BRIDGES
Connect for necessity
LIFELINES SCAR MY HANDS like the rest of me
Asked me to TRUST you and yes I TRIED to
CONSTANT APOLOGIES caused me to LIE too
Tried to MEDICATE MY HATE with YOUR MAGIC
How could something so SWEET end up so tragic
RESURRECT me from this abyss
IN DEATH EVERY BODY FUNCTION FAILS TO EXIST
False commitments TONGUES twisted with RELIGION
A HEART SHAPED ROCK of the same size incision
OBSOLETE
With no RELIEF or RELEASE
Just INSOMNIA filled nights
Of never ending...SLEEP

IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD?
Your faith is lost
IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD?
Get off your cross

Split a piece of wood and I am there
Lift a stone and you will find me
ARE YOU STILL SCARED?
SANCTUARY

There's no... SANCTUARY
SANCTUARY
There's no SANCTUARY

IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD
IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL... GOD
Is this
Is this

Is this
Is this WHAT YOU CALL LOVE
Get off Get off
Watch me
Get off Get off
Watch me
Get off Get off
NOW WATCH ME FALL...
I swallowed all of your lies
And they felt good going down...
DEATH BE NOT PROUD

7. Miss Ann Thrope

You're so PRETTY when you lie
LOVESONGS always make me cry
I don't think you have a choice
THERE'S NO TRUTH LEFT IN YOUR VOICE
Remember when we used to laugh
Just try to FORGET all that
Wear my HEART upon your lips
I HOPE IT TASTES JUST LIKE SHIT!

Just call me
MISS ANN THROPE
Just call me
MISS ANN THROPE

You're so PRETTY when you die
LOVESONGS always make me cry
I don't think you realize
THERE'S NO BLUE LEFT IN YOUR EYES
Remember when we used to sing
Just try to FORGET those things
Fill your HOLE inside with dirt
I HOPE THAT IT FUCKING HURTS!

Just call me
MISS ANN THROPE
Just call me
MISS ANN THROPE
Just call me
MISS ANN THROPE
Just call me
MISS ANN THROPE

YOU have left a trail of DECEIT
ASSAULT AND FLATTERY
BLASTING through my WOUNDS
IMPRISONED ME
In GOD and POETRY
A RITUAL TO MEND MY
ANGRY HEART
A breeding ground for your UNTRUTH
IF GOD CREATED MAN in his
OWN IMAGE
Then FUCK YOU...

ASHES TO ASHES
Dust to dust
MY HATE FOR YOU
Defines my lust
BRIDGES TO BRIDGES
You're nothing to me
WELCOME WORLD
Miss Ann Thrope

ASHES TO ASHES
Dust to dust
MY HATE FOR YOU
Defines my lust
BRIDGES TO BRIDGES
You're nothing to me
WELCOME WORLD
Miss Ann Thrope

FUCK
Cunt
MISS ANN THROPE
Cunt
FUCK
MISS ANN THROPE

8. Haemorrhage

I STICK MY FINGER DOWN
YOUR THORAT
Explore my THOUGHTS OF MURDER
A journey through the HUMAN heart
Dark places filled with TERROR
OBSESSION lets me have my way
DEVOTION makes you stay
This mercy seat YOU IMITATE
Won't let you get away

IN PRAISE OF HIM I pray
IN PRAISE OF HIM I save
IN PRAISE OF HIM I give
MYSELF AWAY...

Come KISS away my HONESTY
EXPLOIT ME WITH YOUR PAIN
Learn to LOVE THIS MONSTER
You CREATED in your name
CONFESSION lets you face your fear
REDEMPTION leaves a stain
The THOUGHT of me MAKES YOU SO SICK
There's nothing left to hate

IN PRAISE OF HIM I pray...
IN PRAISE OF HIM I save
IN PRAISE OF HIM I give
MYSELF AWAY again
IN PRAISE OF HIM I've prayed
IN PRAISE OF HIM I'm saved
IN PRAISE OF HIM I gave
MYSELF AWAY..

A DIFFERENT SORT OF SUFFERING
I practice what I PREACH
AROMATHEREPUTIC death
Can you SMELL me SPEAK
If VIOLENCE IS RELIGION
Then everyone's a STAR
IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU'VE DONE
Only who you are
WHO YOU ARE
Who you are yeah yeah...
Underneath
THE HOLLYWOOD CROSS
Underneath this HOLY wood cross
MY LOVER LET ME TIE YOU DOWN
Hold your HEART my HOSTAGE
I PROMISE after I am THROUGH
YOUR SKIN WILL STILL
TASTE SALTED
MY MOUTH is not your ENEMY
MY LIPS are not you FRIEND
If we were still together
I WOULD TORTURE YOU AGAIN

IN PRAISE OF HIM I pray
IN PRAISE OF HIM I save
IN PRAISE OF HIM I give...
MYSELF AWAY...
IN PRAISE OF HIM I've prayed
IN PRAISE OF HIM I'm saved
IN PRAISE OF HIM I hate
MYSELF TODAY

YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT
YOU WILL FIND
UNTIL YOU LOOK INSIDE
I NEVER KNEW WHAT I
WOULD FIND
AND THEN I LOOKED
INSIDE...
Let me TORTURE you again
TORTURE you my friend
Let me TORTURE you again
TORTURE you my friend
Let me TORTURE you again
Like you TORTURE me my friend
Let me TORTURE you again
TORTURE you my friend
IT NEVER ENDS...

9. Letter To The Editor

You believe everything you read
You believe everything you read
You believe everything you read
I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT THE FUCK I READ...
SCREAM...words that I believe
FRIENDS...became my enemies
THINK... think before you speak
DON'T...think you know me

My heart is an EMPTY hole
HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT
Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk
Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk

My heart is an EMPTY hole
HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT
Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk
Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk

KEEP TALKING
KEEP TALKING
KEEP TALKING
KEEP TALKING...

FIGHT... say what's on my mind
LIES...words you hide behind
BE...careful what you say
STAY ...stay the fuck away

My heart is an EMPTY hole
HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT
Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk
Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk
My heart is an EMPTY hole
HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT
Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk
Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk
KEEP TALKING...

[repeat chorus twice]

KEEP TALKING

KEEP TALKING

KEEP... TALKING

IN A WORLD OF LIES
I find myself ADVISED
To just PRETEND I'M NICE
And NOT to SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND
But in A WORLD OF SHIT
I THINK YOU'RE JUST A BITCH
Who couldn't FUCK or SUCK MY DICK
Cause I'M A CHICK
Don't even think I GIVE A DAMN
I SAY THESE THINGS BECAUSE I CAN...

HONESTY IS THE HOLIEST DISEASE

HONESTY IS THE HOLIEST DISEASE

HONESTY IS THE HOLIEST DISEASE

HONESTY IS THE HOLIEST DISEASE
Honesty
Honesty
Honesty
Honesty

Honesty

Honesty

10. Let It Rain

I like the way you make me feel
SYRUPY AND CLEAN
You have a STRANGE EFFECT on me
LOVING EVERY SCREAM
BAPTIZE this thing that burns
EVERYTIME YOU BATH ME
If I confess too many sins
WILL YOU STILL SAVE ME?

RAIN
RAIN
RAIN
LET IT RAIN

AS BEAUTIFUL AS A SCAR
There's NOTHING quite like you
I CUT MYSELF on your lips
LET YOU LICK MY WOUNDS
So SOUTHERN is my SAVIOUR
So SICK inside my head
But if I let you RESCUE me
WILL I BE LEFT FOR DEAD?

RAIN
RAIN
RAIN
LET IT RAIN

Let it rain
DOWN ON ME
Let it rain
DOWN ON US
Let it rain
DOWN ON ME

LET IT RAIN
LET IT...RAIN!!!

The sky's illumination comes from the city below
And I can taste every inch of your kiss
Every inch of your soul from over here
Do you feel FAITH or do you feel FEAR?

11. Post Noise Revelation

It seems you're always searching for a new RELIGION
DROWN YOURSELF IN ABSOLUTION
To excuse YOUR SINS
NOWADAYS it's easy to be swayed
By IMAGES portrayed
THERE IS NOTHING YOU WONT DO...
To get PAID

SO FULL OF SHIT
YOU MAKE ME SICK
POST NOISE REVELATION
Cult of my frustration
POST NOISE REVOLUTION
Is there no solution?

IT SEEMS YOU'RE SUCKED INTO A SCENE
Of what the LASTEST RAGE is
FORCE FED MTV
The NEW DISEASE that is CONTAGIOUS
VIDEOS that cost a MILLION BUCKS
With FAKES DEGRADING LADIES
Can I be a FAN OF YOU...
BABY
SO FULL OF SHIT
YOU MAKE ME SICK
POST NOISE REVELATION
Cult of my frustration
POST NOISE REVOLUTION
Is there no solution?

Post noise revelation
CULT OF MY FRUSTRATION
Post noise revolution
IS THERE NO SOLUTION?

What seems to be the CANCER?
I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER
Someone NEEDS to TELL ME

What they're trying to SELL ME
What's the fucking CANCER

I don't know the ANSWER
Someone needs to tell me NOW!

12. Do You Love Me?

Do you love me? Do you love me?

He found me on the night of fire and noise
Wild bells from rang the wild sky
I knew from that moment on
That i would love him till the day that I died
And he kissed away a thousand tears
His lady of her Various Sorrows
Some begged, some borrowed, some stolen
Some kept safe for tomorrow
On an endless night, the silver star spangled
And the bells from the chapel went jingle-jangle
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Like I love you?
He was given to me to put things right
And I stacked all my accomplishments beside him
In a city so obsolete and small
I found God and all His devils inside him
In my bed he cast the blizzard out
A mock sun blazed upon his head
So completely filled with light he was
His shadow fanged and hairy and mad
Our love-lines grew hopelessly tangled
And the bells from the chapel went jingle-jangle
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Like I love you?
All things move toward their end
I knew before I met him that I would lose him
I swear I made every effort to be good to him
I made every effort not to abuse him
Tattoos from his wrists to his ankles
And the bells from the chapel go jingle-jangle

jingle-jangle jingle-jangle

jingle-jangle
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?

Do you love me? Do you love me?

Do you love me? Do you love me?

Do you love me? Do you love me?

Do you love me? Do you love me?

Do you love me? Do you love me?

Do you love me? Do you love me?

DO YOU LOVE ME? Like I love you?

13. Evening Prayer

THE WAGES OF SIN
HOLD MY HEART HOSTAGE
MY MOUTH IS STILL CRUEL
MY SKIN IS IN BONDAGE
MY BODY IS SCARRED
FROM LYRICS I'VE CARVED
BRUISES I'VE HEALED
LIPS THAT I'VE STARVED
WOUNDS I'VE REPLACED
WITH LOVE AND WITH HATE
THE TRUTH SET ME FREE
BUT MY FAITH WAS RAPED
I'VE BROKEN MY SILENCE
LIED TO MYSELF
SPOKEN IN VIOLENCE
BEEN SOMEONE ELSE
SCREAMED AT MY DEMONS
PRAYED TO MY GOD
BEGGED FOR FORGIVENESS
MY HANDS ARE STILL HOT

14. My War

MY WAR!

You're one of them
You said you're my friend
But you're one of them
You don't want to see me live
You don't want me to give
YOU'RE ONE OF THEM

MY WAR!
You're one of them
You said you're my friend
But you're one of THEM,

THEM, THEM, THEM, YEAH!

WAR! You're one of them

You said you're my friend but

you're one of THEM!
I might not know what a friend is
All i know is what you're not
YOU'RE ONE OF THEM!

MY WAR!
You're one of them
You said you're my friend
But YOU'RE ONE OF THEM - YEAH!

Yeah... YEAH!

You bitch! I'm talking to you!

YEAH YOU KNOW WHO THE FUCK

I'M TALKING TO!

CALL YOURSELF MY FRIEND?

FUCK YOU! I'VE GOT BETTER

ENEMIES THAN YOU!

And this is my war baby
Go home.
Get the fuck outta here...







MY RUIN LYRICS