MY RUIN LYRICS

1. Diggin' For Ghosts

Time waits for no one, the days grow older and I grow colder
This Devil's on my shoulder and he's smiling at me
But I don’t trust what he’s saying and I don’t wanna believe

I find it hard to cry when I'm spent
Tie the wires around my head
Pound the nails into my flesh and I'm bleeding again
I'm diggin for ghosts and good stories scarlet to the bone
If I kill all my demons - Will my angels leave me alone

Time waits for no one, the nights get longer and I get stronger
Your God is standing before me with his arms out wide
But I don’t wanna give in to him so he can judge me or my life

I find it hard to cry when I'm spent
Tie the wires around my head
Pound the nails into my flesh and I'm bleeding again
I'm diggin for ghosts and good stories scarlet to the bone
If I kill all my demons - Will my angels leave me alone

Time is like the wind, it leaves the light and lifts the heavy
I've seen my fate and I'm not afraid, in fact I’m ready
Each moment has its memory and this too shall pass
Whether I wake or sleep I still believe that nothing last's… Forever

Haughty eyes and a lying tongue
Hands that shed innocent blood
A heart that devises wicked plots - Feet that are swift to run
I've burned my bridges down - Turned my back on this town
I've burned my bridges down - Turned my back on this town

Let us pray that we enter not into temptation
The spirit is willing indeed but the flesh is weak
And as you sow—shall you reap
In loving memory

2. Long Dark Night

Hail Mary, full of grace
Be my muse and give me strength
Holy Mary, full of sin
Hear my prayer and let me in

Welcome to my long dark night - Can’t sleep or close my eyes
Little slices of death I loathe them - Refuse to get to know them
My rebirth of a scream eternalux with a heart at peace
O Lord have mercy - till it hurts - heed my words

This revelation won’t be televised
My sacrifice will be this long dark night
This revelation won’t be televised
My sacrifice will be this long dark night…of the soul

Blessed is the one who reads - these words of prophecy
Heavy is the hand that smites - In God we trust and fight
We rise from the dead and write our own new testament
O’Lord have mercy - I’m in mourning - heed my warning

This revelation won’t be televised
My sacrifice will be this long dark night
This revelation won’t be televised
My sacrifice will be this long dark night…of the soul

This, my winter of discontent - listen as I repent
Bleed for me on this night long - hear me as I speak in tongues
Blasphemy is so easy - when you’ve lost your faith and don’t believe
Help me heal my mind -This happens every time
Hands out wide I say to you – Praise my scars and sacred wounds
Feel my pain and scripture inked in paint
I’m no saint!

This revelation won’t be televised
This revelation won’t be televised
This revelation won’t be televised
This revelation won’t be televised
On this long dark night of my soul

3. Excommunicated

Excommunicated
Another holy war
The cost of friendship is this heavy cross I bare until I’m sore
Don’t find it necessary - to show my piety
These are the end of days no solace in this city

In a world that makes me sick - I will be your heretic
In a world that makes me sick - I will be your heretic

I split my lip – They cut their teeth
Sometimes silence is - A perfect scream
Don’t ask why this stone is in my hand
Won’t be seeing you again my friend

Excommunicated
Another holy war
Los Angeles is just a heavy dose of all that I deplore
The shine has left me- with no remorse or love
And all the soarings of my mind begin within my blood
In a world that’s filled with faith - You can’t take my blasphemy
In a world that’s filled with faith - You can’t take my blasphemy

I split my lip – They cut their teeth
Sometimes silence is - A perfect scream
Don’t ask why this stone is in my hand
Won’t be seeing you again my friend

This is the story of brothers with dirty faces
A city filled with angels liars and betrayers
This is a requiem for a friend and born of hate
A walk down memory lane that took it all away

4. Eyes Black

Her hidden face offends - the righteous ways of men
Beneath the veil lies - the meaning of submission
Imprisoned in the dark - she fights to see the light
Denied a voice to speak - and basic human rights

Holier than thou - Heavier than God
Blessed be thy name - It’s coming down
Heavier than God
Holier than thou

Inside the torture mask - her eyes are lined with black
The cloth curtain covers - her beauty front to back
And in the name of faith - she suffers for religion
The cloak of fear and terror - is a war on women

Holier than thou - Heavier than God
Blessed be thy name - It’s coming down
Heavier than God
Holier than thou

So pious in their violence – against their women
Misogynistic men who don’t believe in freedom
Persecuted, silenced, treated as possessions
A profound reminder of oppression

Holier than thou - Heavier than God
Blessed be thy name- It’s coming down
Heavier than God
Holier than thou

Her identity remains a mystery
Deprived of dignity and her self esteem
Forced modesty - without equality
Sacrificed her life – to live unseen

5. Money Shot

Get ready to shoot yourself
Get ready to shoot yourself
Get ready to shoot yourself – Pose for another photo
Get ready to shoot yourself – Tits and tats and a quid pro quo

C’mon baby give em what you got
Everybody wants a money shot
C’mon baby give em what they need
Keep lookin hot and cheap

Get ready to sell your soul
Get ready to sell your soul
Get ready to sell your soul - Pose for another photo
Get ready to sell your soul – Tits and ass and innuendo

C’mon baby give em what you got
Everybody wants a money shot
C’mon baby give em what they need
Keep lookin hot and cheap

You think you’re different but you’re all the same
You got the body but you got no brains
You’re just an image at the end of the day
Got nothing to say

Get ready to shoot yourself
Get ready to shoot yourself
Get ready to shoot yourself – Pose for another photo
Get ready to shoot yourself – Tits and flash and lots of ego

C’mon baby give em what you got
Everybody wants a money shot
C’mon baby give em what they need
Keep lookin hot and cheap
C’mon baby give em what you got
Everybody wants a money shot
C’mon give em everything they want

You’re everything I’m not!

6. Abusing The Muse

I've had enough of all this pressure
This heavy cross has got me bruised
There is no God, prophet or scripture
That is more sacred than the truth

Tonight I testify (testify) and you've got no excuse (no excuse)
I won't apologize (no apologies) when I abuse my muse

I will defy your sense of righteous
Your indignation of my words
Sanctify you with my honesty
I get so holy it hurts

Tonight I testify (testify) and you've got no excuse (testify)
I won't apologize (testify) when I abuse my muse

How can I exorcise my Demons
Without my true confessions
Rants and revelations
How will I get to heaven?

I will condemn your acts of hate and criticize your arrogance
I will offend your book of faith and publicize your ignorance

Tonight I testify (testify) and you've got no excuse (testify)
I won't apologize (testify) when I abuse my muse

Tonight I testify (testify)
Speak my mind (testify)
Testify (testify)
Holy my hand up high
I won't apologize

7. LA Ciudad

I walk without flinching through this burning aftermath
Hollywood is on fire again
A sign something is about to happen
I can hear the bell ring in the distance
Death is upon us.

These streets are lined with lies
LA’s an ugly face that wears a good disguise
This town has lost it’s shine
The hills have desperate eyes

I breathe without feeling the sweet scent of regret in the air
Too close for comfort too far to care
I can hear the warm winds blow through the trees
And something tells me
It’s time to leave

These streets are lined with lies
LA’s an ugly face that wears a good disguise
This town has lost it’s shine
The hills have desperate eyes
This town has lost it’s shine
The hills have desperate eyes

The walls are closing in
The walls are closing in again
Face down on the motherfucking pavement
The walls are closing in
The walls are closing in again
I can feel the heat and six degrees of separation

This town has lost it’s shine
The hills have desperate eyes
This town has lost it’s shine
The hills have desperate eyes

La Ciudad de la Ruina - La Ciudad de la Ruina
La Ciudad de la Ruina - La Ciudad de la Ruina

8. Suicide Tuesday

A broken heart seems much too heavy - It's time to rest
Carried it around so long, can't feel my chest
Baptize my body and wash away these thoughts of doubt
Bring back that feeling of which I can’t be without

Here I sit in aftermath
But I’ve got more to give
Tuesday feels like suicide
But I just wanna live

Heavy is a heart that breaks – It’s time to mend
Put it back together, cause it’s not time to end
Repent my sins and ask forgiveness for my fear
Bring back that feeling that had almost disappeared
Here I sit in aftermath
But I’ve got more to give
Tuesday feels like suicide
But I just wanna live

Here I sit in aftermath
But I’ve got more to give
Tuesday feels like suicide
But I just wanna live
True Friends, stab you in the front
Not the back motherfuckers like you did to us
True Friends, stab you in the front
Not the back motherfuckers like you did to us

Here I sit in the aftermath
Here I sit in the aftermath
Here I sit in the aftermath
And after all is said and done…I’m coming back

9. Saviourself

Desperation looks so good
She could smell a mile away
Christ died for someone’s sins
And he’s buried in LA
Check your ego cause you’re no hero
Sincerity still seems so vulgar when it comes from you

Saviourself
Better save yourself
Pretend to be her Jesus
Inside that mound of Venus

Resurrection feels so good
Throw a party to celebrate
Don't need you to kill my buzz
You'd rather go home anyway
Check your ego cause you’re no hero
Sold out everything you ever said and did
When you knew us

Saviourself
Better save yourself
Pretend to be her Jesus
Inside that mound of Venus
Saviourself
Better save yourself
You’re just another Judas
And just like everyone else

Hey Mister remember me
I’m the one with the sharp tongue
Got it crucified in my cheek
Drinkin whiskey shotgun
Did you suffer much on that cross
When you lost all your passion
Well I guess it’s true what they say
Friendship is a fashion!

Saviourself
Better save yourself
Pretend to be her Jesus
Inside that mound of venus
Saviourself
Better save yourself
You’re just another Judas
And just like everyone else

The God of my rock
Only in him will I trust
He is my shield, my salvation
Can I get a witness
My one true saviour from violence

10. Malediction

The city of angels is filled with apparitions
Ghosts, Musicians and Politicians
All waiting to shake your hand
But they’ll stab you in the back baby
Just as quick as they can
They got attitudes, cool moves and hidden agendas
Hear me when I say..
Trust no one
Cause you just might live to regret it someday

Let us pray
I’m coming down from the pain
Those righteous lies I heard you say
But I refuse to speak your name in vain
I think its better that way
Too many words were said
This malediction is inside my head

Jesus wept
You made you’re bed and now you’ll lie in it.
Each day goes by with my regret
I never wanted to believe you could
I can't pretend it’s all good

Too many words were said
This malediction is inside my head
Enshrined inside of my mind
Is how I bury my dead
How does it feel to be redeemed
After you lost your faith
You were pathetic when you prayed
Just begging to be saved!

The Judas left
Our resurrection had to be your death
I won’t forgive or forget

Too many words were said
This malediction is inside my head
Enshrined inside of my mind
Is how I bury my dead

How does it feel to be redeemed
After you lost your faith
You were pathetic when you prayed
Just begging to be saved
I’ll never split that piece of wood
Never lift that stone
But I will be the one who collects that pound of flesh you owe… me

11. Repose

I gave you all of me
I gave the whole thing
I wanted you to be something that I can't explain
I gave you good fights
I gave you loyalty
I treated you like you were most important to me

You've always been my sweet obsession
My religion and relationship
I never let nobody come between us
The one thing that I cannot quit
Please pray for the repose of my soul
Please pray for the repose of my soul

You needed my time
You wanted my life
You had me workin' for you everyday and all night
You took advantage
You did some damage
You let me do it all and trusted me to manage

You've always been my sweet obsession
My religion and relationship
I never let nobody come between us
The one thing that I cannot quit
Please pray for the repose of my soul
Please pray for the repose of my soul

I need some time to get away
Calmness and tranquility
Freedom from worry and peace of mind
Cause I don't want to leave it all behind

You've always been my sweet obsession
My religion and relationship
I never let nobody come between us
The one thing that I cannot quit
Please pray for the repose of my soul
Please pray for the repose of my soul

Every blessing ignored becomes a curse
Every blessing ignored becomes a curse
Every blessing ignored becomes a curse
Every blessing ignored becomes a curse

12. Turned Out

Your eyes they wanna cry for me
Don't make me wanna die for you
Your arms that wanna wrap around me
Don't make me wanna hang around you
Your bleeding heart that wants to bleed me
Can’t make me think I want or need you
And it's no wonder anymore
That I don't wonder anymore
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!

I've been turned out-- I've been turned out
I've been turned out--I've been turned out
I've been turned out--I’ve been turned out

You tell me you're my friend
You say I know you
I'll trust you just as far
As I can throw you
Now I don't know you
I know my enemies
They show themselves to me with honest eyes
They hate my guts but at least it's the truth
I'll trust them just as far as I can throw them off a roof
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!

I've been turned out--I've been turned out
I've been turned out--I've been turned out

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm no stranger to kindness
I never missed the fist that kissed my face
I'm no stranger to cheapness
I never came to love the push and shove
Steel, glass-eyes cities
Crack dirty smiles when they see me
Open their filthy arms to greet me
I don't know if they wanna kiss or kill me
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

I've been turned out --- I've been turned out
I've been turned out --- I've been turned out
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

Yeah, yeah --- I’ve been turned out
Yeah, yeah --- I’ve been turned out

13. Deathknell

Faithful are the wounds when they’re from a friend
Harbinger of the end
Hour of redemption
Sitting here tonight in our earthly paradise
Thinking about all those who have come in and out of our life
Our beautiful house built of blood, sweat and rock
If only these walls could talk
Hold my hand, stretched to infinity and filled with memories
Walk with me down this dark hallway together in all that we have weathered.

I can hear the bell ring somewhere in the distance
And deep within myself
I know that this too shall pass

I can hear the rain outside
The streets wet with regret
How easy it is to remember
How hard it is to forget
Old photographs are burned into ash
Let us toast the ghosts of our past
Come for me and comfort me in this moment of memories
In remembrance, these lovely bones of metaphors are the exquisite corpse of friendship

I can hear the bell ring somewhere in the distance
And deep within myself
I know that this too shall pass

Let us remember this feeling as we sit in front of our home
For this house that we built, we built it alone.
10 years strong with heart, soul and pride
They tried to kill us but we have survived

I can hear the bell ring somewhere in the distance
And deep within myself
I know that this too shall pass
I can hear the bell ring somewhere in the distance
And deep within myself
I know that this too shall pass

In the end, we will continue to do what we do
Without them
But never, me without you







MY RUIN LYRICS