REFLECTIONS LYRICS

1. Pseudo

pseudo smiles, and empty eyes..
I think I've been hypnotized
shallow hearts and narrow minds
can't you see?
you're blind

your eyes are like kaleidoscopes..

I've been sleeping with my hands around my throat
please show me a way,
to see through
the smoke..
I'm falling into patterns I thought
I broke

and I wish you would whisper my name through the wind
one more time..

I
miss
hearing
the sound

one thought that will never fade,
is how we promised we would never change

I wish I could forget,
but these scars are here to stay
and the memories in my head,
I know won't ever go away

I've been here..
a thousand times before
I stand near..
the edge, with hope to fall
I've been here..
a thousand times before
I stand near..
the edge
with hope to fall

your eyes are like kaleidoscopes

your eyes are like kaleidoscopes..

2. Autumnus

How many times can we say these things?
And keep pretending that it never meant anything..
Our minds wonder, but I always knew
When I close my eyes,
All I see
Is
You.

What hurts the most
Is having to know
Words and scars are all I have to show
I put together these letters with pen and paper
Only to write,
Songs
Of how
We were so close

Wherever I go,
I don't want to go.
Without you
Without you

How can you say
You have nothing to say?
How can you be
At a loss for words?
We fit together like puzzle parts
Nothing in this world
Could tear us apart

How many times can we say these things?
And keep pretending that it never meant anything.
Our minds wonder, but I always knew
When I close my eyes,
All I see
Is
You.

Wherever I go,
I don't want to go.
Without you
Without you

A feeling I can't help but chase
It seems somehow I've lost my place
I was gone
Too long
Now I've been erased
Not even I
Recognize my face
Not even I
Recognize my face.

All these places are never the same.
I can't believe I've grown so deranged
You haunt me anyway I run,
I'll never change
Into what you've become

Wherever I go,
I don't want to go.
Without you

3. Sadist

I never knew
You were more than a voice that made its home inside my head
Now I'm carving scars into my arms
To remember what it feels like to feel anything.

That was only the start
My addiction to tearing myself apart
I'm in love with hating myself
Its the only real thing I've ever felt

I hold a gun to the head of God
Please tell me where i went wrong
Every single step I take
Leads me right back to the same mistakes
I've been here before
But i adore the pain keep coming back for more.

I bleed just to see
If there's anything left inside of me
We are a perfect fit
A sadist and a masochist

I've never been good enough

I am never good enough.

4. Limbo

I keep seeing
The same things
Over and over and over again
I will never understand,
How the lowest people always get the upper hand

And as time ticks by
I sit and wonder why..
I ever gave a fuck about anything
Watch me fall asleep
Neck deep
Hanging straight down,
Tied up
...to the fucking ceiling

My pigmentation is turning black
Now I know that I'll never be turning back
In this world..
Where hell means home
I will come up,
From the bottom
Through sticks
And stones

It's all your fault
I've become so hollow
An apparition
Of my own ghost
I wont ever
Crawl down to your level
I'd rather
Rot in limbo

Sit here,
And play this game
Let's skip the introduction
And say no names
My own..
Is my own
In rooms of thousands
I still stand alone

Why am I
The only one
With eyes as empty as the ocean
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I knew I should have known
I wish I never let you see what I've shown
I've lost
All
Hope
I was born to
Be alone
I knew I should have known
I wish I never let you see what I've shown
I've lost
All
Hope
I was born to
Be alone

5. Shadow Self

I know I'm a failure in your fucking eyes
But it doesn't matter to me cause you're fucking blind
My entire life has been a waste of time
Falling for the same tricks in a different disguise

This is my shadow self
Ever since I can remember you look out for yourself
I must be dreaming
Because for once it seems I'm seeing clearly

Did you think that you could just leave me here to die
I don't know what I did to deserve this
You don't even treat me like a fucking person

I have no heart
I have no fucking heart
Everything I touch always falls apart
Why fight for something that's not meant to be
I'm done being treated like the dirt underneath your feet

Fill my eyes with flies and cut my throat so I can't breathe
I'm so sick of the tangled web we weave
I'd give anything to rid me of these memories

THIS IS MY SHADOW SELF!

6. Butterfly Effect

How could i have stole your spirit
You don't even have a soul

Lost in an empty vessel

Claiming connection with self
But your being is artificial

How does it feel to be so hollow?

Tongue tied by a language of lies

Drop the God complex
You are no better than the rest of us
Come back to the fucking slums

Something so small can spiral out of control
Before you even notice
It becomes your whole world
What am I to do?
I've lost my path
I never thought to

Fear the after math

Come back to the bottom
You forgot where you've come from.

7. Amulet

If i could die tonight
I wouldn't think twice
I would take the step
Right over the edge

Eternally I have wondered why
As all of the days go by
I'm always the one who's left behind
I'm always the one who gets left behind!

I can see you forgot about me
I'm nothing more than a memory
The ghost of half the man i used to be

We fell apart in perfect symmetry
We fell apart in perfect symmetry

Am I nothing
More than a figment of my own imagination
Never ending
Thought left circling in contemplation
A wandering soul without any destination
Am..I..Despair?

I've developed infatuations
Intertwined by hallucinations
They have become my only inspiration
I realize life's foundation
Has become manipulation
No one..really...cares!

A moment i have waited for
With such anticipation
Ill exhale my last breath
With no sense of hesitation

My aura has lost all of its illumination
If you wish to vanish
Follow my demonstration

I can show you how to disappear
I can show you how to disappear

I am nothing
More than a figment of my own imagination
Never ending
Thought left circling in contemplation
A wandering soul without any destination
I am despair

I am nothing

I am despair

8. Actias Luna

It's all inside of your head!

We are nothing but illusions
Lost inside our own delusions
We're victims of our own seclusion

It's all inside of my head!

Almost like déjà vu
All of my dreams in the hue of blue
Believing all the lies I wish were true

I know we've made choices
We wish we didn't choose
But you will always have me
Even when I don't have you

You are the sun, and I am your moon
I am your artist; you are my muse

I've been lost
Inside of dreams I see with open eyes
I've grown fond of
The bliss from this eclipse between body and mind

Hollow bodied entity
Won't you walk with me
Show me something that I've never seen
I've lost the line between reality and my dreams

Something so shallow
Can sink so low

You are the sun, and I am your moon
I am your artist; you are my muse

You will always have me...
Even when I don't have you....

9. Translucence

Slave to insomnia
Dreamless and sleepless
Counting the stars
Just to watch them fall
Prisoner of phobia
Afraid of my shadow
I never know
Who I'll be tomorrow

I still remember the way
You used to say my name
As if I were your own
As if this ever meant
Anything at all

I'd give anything to go back to that moment
Even if only for a moment

How can I forget
The only things that I want to remember
This is an endless endeavor
This is pretending we never said forever

You looked into my eyes
And promised we would die together

I'd give anything to go back to that moment
Even if only for a moment

It was always my greatest fear
Everyone I love would disappear

Just like the color clear...

10. Transparence

It was always my greatest fear
Everyone I love would disappear
Just like the color clear







REFLECTIONS LYRICS