SCAPEGOAT LYRICS

1. Fortify

the smell of piss and shame
gives new life to this lifeless place
but there's something about the stench and these walls
my head cocks back and my cells respond
and though recoiled, I may be
this place always relived in memory
could you ever conceive this by looking at me
you stupid bitches couldn't see through these clothes

Think of me...
An Element...
Of design...

but still your tone is sharp
and your words can cut like a knife
so here I am, please cut me down again
I am the one who will get up once more
fortified by what you want from me

tingled deep through finger tips
your touch reminds me of this place
but there's something about your aura and your skin
your head cocks back and your nose turns up at me
and so I try to break away
from this hell that you call life
you could never conceive these things by looking at me
you stupid bitches couldn't see through this skin

I'll change never change my mind
of who I am inside
fall away from
and taste what I am

2. Close-Minded

You feel more
secluded from me today
yet I feel more
excluded by what you say

So cut me out more
because I am more now

You step in
to rest your simple case
but I know I'm not ready
for that smack in my face

So cut me out more
because I am more now

But then I will hit you back
because I'm back and I learned from the sting
when you slapped my face
but get back and you'll learn too
when I hit you back
because I'm back and I learned from the sting
when you slapped my face

Because I am more now

3. Bher

So come clean
because above all I want you to be honest with me
& in the end nobody wants to be lied to
but my hopes are restored when you say you still love me
but I know you couldn't love for your life

But still he gives it all he's got
because his name is child and its written in blood
that you can fight it all you want
but if there's something that this world doesn't have
its a thing called love

& its clear
that you could care less about others
because in the end you always come out on top
yet my faith is renewed when you say you still love me
but I know you couldn't love for your life

But still he gives it all he's got
because this nameless child is written in blood
and you can fight it all you want
but if there's something that you don't know
its a thing called love

But this gift
personified like it's alive itself
because after all this work you know it bleeds with me
and all bets are off when you say you don't love me
but I know you couldn't love for a gun to your head

4. Jinnee

this heart that you once knew
this heart has since been sold
and when karma came around
it hit your heart ten fold
and now I feel on higher plain
I'm looking down on you

I've got you around my finger
mother always makes things better
and I'm not better anymore

my confidence is high
and my nose for once turns up
your spitting out excuses
but your speech is yet abrupt
and there she is
she's like the wind
she comes and goes
leaving me breathless

this rabbit hole gets deeper
I'm losing grip with finger
well I'm not better anymore

I won't absorb you anymore

5. Bunnies And Guns

to be is better than not to be
but to indulge in oneself
is a crime I won't commit
commit me

if to be means living a life of blind complacency
than I am not to be the one lifting my life away
when I have better things to do so lets fight

another life awaits in front of you
where your guns will never ever do
so what will you prove
without your loot
and I'll play the bunny just for you
but your guns will never ever do
so how will you prove
without your boot

6. Euphoria

Bathed in moon light
this water on your skin makes you beautiful tonight
and I'm drawn in
by the reflection in your eyes

But what I feel I forfeit when I pretend you're right
because everything in your wish is my will too
but it's an itch I cannot reach
that underlying fear that with you in my life
I will never be but a
dove...
with no wings...
I fall...
from your tree...

And you don't know
please don't leave me alone
for I will love you more
more and more each day

So reach for me
just reach for me

And I don't know
what had me at first
it must have been your smile
or that look in your eyes
so go...
and burn me again...
but just know...
that I might not be here...
waiting...

And you don't know
please don't leave me alone
for I will love you more
more and more each day

Oh hurt,
it seems we were meant to be
oh pain,
you are my soul mate

Why can't I just be happy
why can't I just be free
happy and free

Because you're my love
and I am hooked
so hear my cry
and kiss me today

7. Lithograph

times have changed
and acceptance should come of all things naturally
because I am sick of dealing with your view
of my reality

to those girls
with bleeding eyes
whom pull on me
like moon to the tides

you make me see things
aren't easily divided

to those girls
which I despise
you can't see through me
with your piercing eyes

never again will I change
to be part of your augmented society

8. Gone

I felt so cold
when through me
she went

so though you're gone
your presence resides in me
till I can show you that I'm something tonight
is there a way to cut these corners?
until I know I'll give it all I've got

throw me away
cuz its cold outside
so throw me away

ice sharp as knives
is spread through my neck
I thrive and I feed
on your kiss
which I live

despite myself control
I can't keep my hands off of you
and even if I tried
I don't think it would last very long
so I'm searching through my heart
I'm finding where you stay
so I can separate myself
and tear you away

9. Wreck Diving

Blind by a veil self-implied,
My morals inside
Succumbing self abuse,
I slowly transform into you,
Hard to abstain from a high, for with it you fly,
In a leaf or on a bed
Abstinence has left me dead,

How do I ever turn around
When I'm broken, and livid, light headed
On the road to hell
And God is all I have

Touch my head,
Make me numb,
Make me see,
With this gift,
I'm not dead,
I will see

Again I wake with regret,
I've grown to detest
My actions like the night before,
Where rest is found on a floor,
Eyes glazed once again,
This veil is laced in
To lies your telling me,
I eat them for prosperity

10. Watching You

I watch my back
But still you linger
Not caring about a word I say
Nothing changes
and I grow weaker
Afraid of my feelings
And still you want me to stay
I watch my back
But still you linger
You're my back up
I know no other way
But if I grew up
And learned how to leave you
Would you love me more
Out of jealousy

So just tear
Me down
And break
Me down
Just take this all away

Its just the right time
To make it easier
It's the right time for now
If I just let it go
I might be sad
But it's the right time for now

Watch my back
And still you take away
You want my eyes on you, so you can grow
Not caring
If my heart just breaks
If you had one too
Your love would show
I wanna let you know
Just what you mean to me
You're so sweet and I can not describe
The anger I get
When you give back the love I gave
So now I'm dying
And I still hold your hand

So just tear
Me down
Just break
Away
Get your filthy paws off of me

God please, take me back
Rewind time, for I'm ruined now
for I wish, I was young
With a heart that's not ruined now

I rub my eyes, on edge of sleep
But this dream has become reality,
I neither want to wake up nor stay asleep,
But no longer will I push away memories

11. Downward

Downward spiral
I thought the worst had passed me by
but I can't go on
in this cycle I know too well

So fly......away.....
and I'll kill you before I kill myself to be......
free

Long discussions
I tell you how I feel
but still you sit there waiting
eyes are cold, and your heart is black
but still he walks slowly
the same rhythm of feet on floor
just to kill me softly
but I'll kill you before I kill myself

So fly......away.......
and I'll take you before I take myself and be......
free

One more romance
one more hate unto my heart
until I stick this through him
and I'm covered in his blood
and I hope they both die
a painful death which I deserve
cuz I'm always wrong
so myself,... so ya know I'll be free

Hate is such a strong word
yet it seems to perfectly describe my feelings towards you

12. Let Me Drown

you said I was something new
something you've never known before
and you have forced me to let go
and you're not worth one of my tears

and still it's sad that you can't see all this
stained are the papers that I slave over for you
so just stay, in your four walls
don't blot my tear just let me drown and stay out of mine

and now I turn my back
and I refuse to look in your eyes
and in time it all will fade away
and I'll wipe this tear off my cheek

and I will wipe
this tear off my cheek
and I wont drown
in these useless tears





SCAPEGOAT LYRICS