STILL_BLOOM LYRICS

1. Gloom

The gloom has numbed me to the feeling of the cold.
The ice and snow has saturated everything I've touched and everyone I know.
I just want the feeling back.

There's gotta be a deeper meaning to this winter in my soul, this crushing pain and nihilistic woe.
Frostbitten and drowned in sorrow,
Left for dead by my obsession with having no hope.
But I don't shake like I used to.
I don't shake like I used to but I feel the fucking weight.
It's like a ghost that hovering over me, pale in the face.
Pale in the face, hollow in the eyes… it looks a lot like me, oh how I hate my life.

The gloom has numbed me to the feeling of the cold.
The ice and snow has saturated everything I've touched and everyone I know.
I just want the feeling back.

There's gotta be a deeper meaning to this winter in my soul, this crushing pain and nihilistic woe.
Frostbitten and drowned in sorrow,
Left for dead by my obsession with having no hope.
There's gotta be a deeper meaning to this winter in my soul, this crushing pain and nihilistic woe.
Mortal disposition to self-destruction, constructing delusions of life- I don't think it's worth living.
I'm having issues painting the image… I can't do this on my own, I lack the seeds to let happiness grow and I've succumbed to the idea that we all die alone.
We all die alone and I'm struggling to cope.
I lack the seeds to let happiness grow and I've succumbed to the idea that we all die alone.

2. Apathy Syndrome

I can't feel, I can't hate.
I can't love, I can't escape.
I can't sleep, I can't eat.
This numbness has got its grip on me.
This alienation scares the hell out of me.
Spiraling and spiraling out of control, out of my mind.
These parallels don't add up, they're out of line.
All this this fixation on isolation has made me a hollow man, that can't get out of this hell.
I don't want out.
Maybe, I don't want out…

I can't feel, I can't hate.
I can't love, I can't escape.
I can't sleep, I can't eat.
This numbness has got its grip on me.
This alienation scares the hell out of me.

All hail the suffering
The only god that makes me feel anything.
All hail the suffering!

3. Palevoid

Does anyone hear me?
Does anyone see?
I'm suffocating and I can't breathe.
Slip, slip, slip, slip.
I'm slowly losing my grip.
A lone sailor on a sinking ship and I think I'm going down with it.
The pale void awaits me… The pail void awaits…
The pale void seeps into my lungs.
Tongues tied, gasping for air.
I feel the embrace of this despair.
I love the feeling of being alone, the only love I've ever known.
I can't believe that I can't breathe, I can't believe that this is happening.
Let the static infiltrate every sound.
I grasp at my throat, I've forgotten how to breathe.
The panic and stress… it's starting to get to me.
I scratch at my eyes, I've forgotten how to sleep.
The pale void calls out to me.

4. Mind_Purge

I feel the worms writhing in my bones, eating everything until they make my skull their home.
Burrow in and devour every thought, so I can't linger on everything I'm not.
I feel the worms writhing in my bones, eating everything until they make my skull their home.
Burrow in and devour every thought, so I can't linger on everything I'm not.

This existence is pain and my patience is gone, I built up these walls just to see them crumble down.
Self-destruction salvation, let the cold take over me.
Welcome me into darkness, make me one with the debris.

5. Too Human

My skin cells shift incoherently, a slave to the static that surrounds everything.
My bones reinforce the idea that pain is all that's left for me in this place…
I have no idea why I stay.
I'm just another miserable face in this endless grey.
In this endless grey, end this pain.
I don't know why I stay, my bones reinforce the pain,
I sit here numb
Can't do anything.
Is this world really the right place for me?
Does this life mean anything? Anything at all?

I don't know why I stay, my bones reinforce the pain.
I don't know why I stay, is this world really the right place for me?

"Human.. All too human.. Human..
All too human."

I can see it in your face, as the colour drains,
Your will, your hopes, your dreams are fucking crumbling.
I can see it in your hands, they're trembling,
Anxiety
Just from existing.
Anxiety
It takes over me.

6. Starve

I have this hole in my heart and as my head gets heavier, my world gets more dark.
'Til death do we starve.
We starve for attention and we starve for affection, and we starve for some meaning in this endless distraction.
My depression has been spurred with my endless obsession with the darkness
I'm lost in.
The more time I spend with you, the more it feels like I'm falling.

I'll find my way into my grave, while fucking mouthing the words that I'll engrave into my skin.
Into my heart.
Into everything that bears my mark.
The mark of the starving,
The mark of the depraved,
The mark of everyone that feels this way.

My depression has been spurred with my endless obsession with the darkness
I'm lost in.
The more time I spend with you, the more it feels like I'm falling and I can't stop it
There's nothing more to life than this pain that we suffer through.

I wish that this would all just fade away.

7. Downer_

The worst was when you left me… stranded all alone.
No hope, no solace
Except from the bottom of a bottle.
The bottom of the bottle left me alone, now I know who to trust
Definitely not you.
Now I know who to lean when I need help… fucking no one.

8. Rot

In this fragile state, I sit and contemplate why my life withers so slowly
Why can't I just die?
Everyday I dwell in these thoughts, they drain all the life I've got.
Yeah… of all I've got.
I feel this downward spiral
My artistic revival, and this endless recital of
"Someone, please help!"

"Are you prepared to be alone? Bones exposed to the sun, you won't have anyone.
Are you afraid of the silence you crave?"

Without the hollow and the emptiness… I don't feel like myself. I've fallen in love with beating myself down, when I really just need some fucking help.

Well, I met got and hit the pavement. I was dead before I hit the ground.
In this fragile state, I sit and contemplate why my life withers so slowly
Why can't I just die.
Everyday I dwell in these thoughts, when with this rotting end?

Rot.
There is no fucking end to this rot.
Tell me I can be saved…
This world's my fucking… yeah... this world's my fucking enemy, rot.
Despite my fucking enemy, I'll rot.
Rot.

9. Scanner-00

They're in my head, they're in my lungs,
They're in my skin, in everything.
I feel them crawling, scratching at me from within.

Oh, Scanner, tell me what you mean,
I don't know what's real
What's happening?
I don't know how to feel… is this love or is this hate?
Am I just a slave to this game I play?
Itching, scratching, spinning and spinning
Nauseous blood flowing steady in my veins.
In my veins?
What the fuck?

Maybe I held the light too hard against my skin.
It burnt a hole, burnt out then let the madness in… it let the madness in.
Burnt up, it let the madness in
Itching scratching, what the fuck is happening?
What the fuck is happening?
Glitch in my mind, a virus in my thoughts whispering into my ear about all the life I've lost to the static.
To these bad habits.

Oh, Scanner, tell me what you mean,
I don't know what's real
What's happening?
I don't know how to feel… is this love or is this hate?
Am I just a slave to this game I play?
Itching, scratching, spinning and spinning
Nauseous blood flowing steady in my veins.
In my veins… in my veins.

10. Pains

[Instrumental]

11. Oxy[Brain]

[feat. Devin MacGillivray of Yüth Forever]

Knives in the dark
Suspicious from the start but I trusted your hand as I felt you carve and dig.
As you did, I felt you within and felt my sanity leave.
The more I felt your presence, your love became my obsession.
The more I clung to you, the more you looked like my perfect affliction
My fucking world.
Blood under your fingers
You grin at me, barring those beautiful teeth
(Coated with pieces of me).
Twisting and contorting in my vision...
This is the price I pay for giving my soul away.

Oxytocin, clouding my vision.
I've been dosed to the extreme, don't know what's left of me.

Don't know what's left of me without you.
You keep devouring and I can't stop you.
Feeding on my brain, I can't stop this pain…
I just keep reliving these moments I'll take to my grave as my happiest days.

Knives in the dark
Suspicious from the start but I trusted your hand as I felt you carve and dig.
I still feel you within… I still feel you in my skin…







STILL_BLOOM LYRICS