THE AMITY AFFLICTION LYRICS

1. I Hate Hartley

Seems life forever,
like forever
since i tore myself apart
and left my friends in the wake
of countless tears and fading life.
when i couldn't seem to grasp the life i lead
and the lives i touch
its one year on now
one year on, one year on
still i struggle with the same demons
i shed as i laid there lost in my head
lost in my head

(lost in this goddamn hospital bed)
i'm not the same man
and i don't dare try
(try to uncover all the darkness i hide)
its like my demons are my lovers
but i've got friends by my side
i've got hope in my eyes
and dreams to aspire too
and the whole wide world to watch below
(and death won't be my lover
i've got so much left to give
and take my life with subtle steps
instead of not wanting all that is left)

instead of trying to take my own life
its one year on
and i'm stronger, i want to live much longer
not grow old and bitter
and not jaded
and not hate what life gave me
let the fear wash away
let the demons blunt their claws
on a life that's full of mistakes
but always searching for much more
i won't die defeated
I won't die defeated
i won't die defeated
i won't die

cause i've got friends by my side
i've got hope in my eyes
and dreams to aspire too
and the whole wide world to watch below
(and death won't be my lover
i've got so much left to give
and take my life with subtle steps
instead of not wanting all that is left
no death won't be my lover
i've got so much left to give
and take my life with subtle steps
instead of not wanting all that is left)

2. Anchors

i have so many anchors
so many, so many
(so many anchors)
far too many to be sailing on these seas
(they're pulling me under
and i just want to be freed
but i'm just drowning and clasping)
to the tinder and twine
not the firm planks and rope
that i know to be mine
that i know to be mine

i have so many anchors
bound to my feet
it feels like i'll forever be bound
to the bottom of these seas

(will you hear nothing i say
as the tide just sweeps and sways
as the anchors that bind me)
just rust and decay
(as i tear my flesh from bone
as i scream out to the sky
when will i find my way home?)

there are sirens watching me
(and they whisper and smile to me
and i'm screaming out to them)
please take these anchors from my feet
OH
i see the moon up above
i've failed my hope
i've thrown out my love
but i still want to live
i still want to hope
i still want to give
i still want to grow
(i was dead and gone)
i was cold and alone
(i was weighed down and buried)
when will i find my way home

(will you hear nothing i say
as the tide just sweeps and sways
as the anchors that bind me)
just rust and decay
(as i tear my flesh from bone
as i scream out to the sky
when will i find my way home?)

oh oh oh

let's get it
when will i find my way home?
lets get it
when will i find my way home?

(will you hear nothing i say
as the tide just sweeps and sways
as the anchors that bind me)
just rust and decay
(as i tear my flesh from bone
as i scream out to the sky
when will i find my way home?)

as i tear my flesh from bone
as i scream out to the sky
(when will i find my way home?)

3. H.M.A.S Look Back

i've been staring for weeks
(at the cold rusted sheets)
and the broken down pillars
(of the years that have passed by)
at the cold depths of rivers
(and the moons that have fallen)
and risen as halves
(i've been star gazing)
and whispering to myself in the night
(and by the river at dawn)
i have discovered the light
i've been watching the tides
(and i've been feeling their flow)
and its a humbling experience
to watch as they grow

(down where the beauty of our dreams
touches the beauty of the sky
and the stars in our oceans
become the stars in our eyes
where we reach out to forever
for just one last grasp at hope
where the tides ebb and flow
is all our minds really know)

they leave in short breaths
returning to give
and to hold and to steal
and its calming and it heals
and its softening it seems
(to leave my past behind
join the tide)
and head out toward the seas

(down where the beauty of our dreams
touches the beauty of the sky
and the stars in our oceans
become the stars in our eyes
where we reach out to forever
for just one last grasp at hope
where the tides ebb and flow
is all our minds really know)

i'm lost in the moment
where the tide embraces me
where i fall into the river
and set sail toward the sea
i'm lost and i'm dreaming
i'm lost and i'm feeling
like this has waited
forever to finally take me

(i'm lost in the moment
where the tide embraces me
where i fall into the river
and set sail toward the seas
i'm lost and i'm dreaming
i'm lost and i'm feeling
like this has waited
forever to finally take me)


(down where the beauty of our dreams
touches the beauty of the sky
and the stars in our oceans
become the stars in our eyes
where we reach out to forever
for just one last grasp at hope
where the tides ebb and flow
is all our minds really know)

4. Fire Or Knife

why are we even breathing?
if the only reason to exist
(is to stare skyward and put my hands together)
then why am i even here?
to serve a myth
(and carry these burdens on my chest)
as it caves in and free will gives way to
the guilt of lost and misinterpreted verses.

i can't see the logic in falling to my knees
where is the logic? there is no logic!
i was blinded and inducted
(into a world that has no meaning
no basis for belief
and now they wonder why i'm seething)
i'll spit this in their faces
and burn their false pretences
(on which they stand
the pulpit burying our youth)
beneath the tides of callous sands
no room to breathe, oh
no room to breathe

in the chambers of your guilt
under a cross and devils gaze
while you sit and wait to die
there'll be no god
in the cold night sky

theres no god who can hear you
theres no god who understands
(who understands
regrets too often haunt us
again and again
sometimes it seems so hopeless
but we cannot give in
when all our best decisions
prove us wrong
and when we're only waiting
for goodbyes
we've already given in, given in
we've already given in given in
we've already given in,
we've already given in, given in)
but we're never giving in

there is no god who can hear you
just a sky full of stars
the same stars you will be wishing on
when death comes to call on us
call on us

5. Youngbloods

Have you looked up lately
(and seen the cold lonely skies)
and looked into the mirror
(and seen your black lonely eyes?)
well i have, and i want to know
(why i feel the death is 'round the corner)
when i still feel so young
(and in my chest i've the beating of)
a thousand youngbloods

(Youngbloods run free forever
forget the death thats ever nearer
youngbloods, young hearts alike
let the fires burn inside your eyes
we won't give up these memories
we won't go near those cemeteries)

and have you ever felt
the breath of the midnight reaper
(his whispers deathly cold,
deathly cold and nearer)
the sun never rises when you're in his presence
(and your tears run black as coal
and your chest ceases its movements)
and your blood runs so cold
(have you felt the darkness calling)
and the whispers in the skies?
well i have, so we need to run together

youngbloods
youngbloods
youngbloods run free forever
forget the deaths thats ever fucking nearer
light up the sky, and scream
'fuck the reaper'
this life is for the keeping
youngbloods just keep on screaming

(Youngbloods run free forever
forget the death thats eve nearer
youngbloods, young hearts alike
let the fires burn inside your eyes
we won't give up these memories
we won't go near those cemeteries)

youngblods
youngbloods
youngbloods just keep on screaming
this life is for the keeping
this song is for the dreamers
youngbloods
youngbloods
youngbloods just keep on screaming
just keep onscreaming
just keep on screaming
let's go

(youngbloods
youngbloods, young hearts alike
let the fires burn inside your eyes
we won't give up these memories
we won't go near those cemeteries
youngbloods, young hearts alike
let the fires burn inside your eyes)

6. Dr. Thunder

i know that you've been searching
for me elsewhere
in the cracks beneath your feet
and in the spaces between walls
in the dark wells of the mirror
(in the space i used to stand)
i know that you've been searching
for me elsewhere
in the black pits of my mind
where the tar of my emotions
swirls black and ever thicker
where i retreat to hide from life
(i have the reaper in my heart)
and black tar pits for eyes
i have the cold heart of the lost ones
(and no love to tear us apart)
i know that you've been searching
in the spaces between words
but let me tell you
theres nothing there to read.
there to read.

(well i know that you've been searching
and you've looked inside your heart
but under oceans and in coffins
is a better place to start
better place to start.)

you can't begin to know the depths
of the abyss
until you've lost it all
until you've seen yourself
'cause that reflection
just ain't what it used to be
it sure as hell ain't what i want to see

(well i know that you've been searching
and you've looked inside your heart
but under oceans and in coffins
is a better place to start)

heart break is the burden i bear
and the bottle's is the blood i smear
oh
just burdens
just guilt
just loss
and just fear

(well i know that you've been searching
and you've looked inside your heart
but under oceans and in coffins
is a better place to start
well i know that you've been searching
and you've looked inside your heart
but under oceans and in coffins
is a better place to start)

7. Olde English 800

when your aspirations
crumble at the feet
of your tormentors
and your jaw feels like its breaking
on the cold hard tile floor and you're
holding onto something that does
farm more harm than good
well then you've reached
the pits off hell
and there in hell
you'll find the steel

(to smash your skin until its calloused
to grind your teeth down to the bone
to tear your tongue out from its shelter
and bleed out all alone
when you get there
we'll tread heavy
through the boneyards and the filth
we'll grace the presence of the vultures
and spit fire of the gods)

we'll both sit in our skin
and hate the places we have known
(when your back feels like its breaking
and your skin has turned to stone)
and you are standing in the fire
and you are wishing to go back
well then you've reached the pits of hell
you've reached the pits of hell

(i took this journey through the mirror
took a chance to take my time
to watch the cold hard steel of burden
come and break my heart and spine)

i took a blade, a glass, a noose
and then I smashed my mind in two
with a bottle, pills and notion
that I could drink my problems dead
I reached the cold pits of hell
and split my bones in tow
dragged my cold heart through the snow
and felt the coldest burn of all
the grief i've come to know
the grief i've come to know

(I took this journey through the mirror
took a chance to take my time
to watch the cold hard steel of burden
come and break my heart and spine
I took this journey through the mirror
took a chance to take my time
to watch the cold hard steel of burden
come and break my heart and spine)

I've got a story here to tell you
and best you listen or grow cold
'cause if you choose the path i've chosen
chances are you won't grow old
won't grow old.

8. No Sleep 'Til Brisbane

i know i stood there, singing to you
please don't ever feel alone
and please don't dream of never heading home
but truth be told i've struggled just like you

(Black hearts will sing tonight
open your arms and let us fly tonight
fly tonight
and when its all said and done
you know we'll be alright
black hearts will sing tonight)

i've lived my life
trying not to feel like
i can't stop myself from
feeling oh so blue
i've fought the darkness,
cold anxiety for so many years
I know your dreams
I know your fears
I know the depths of the earth
you wish would open up
take you inside
I know the blackness of the night

(black hearts will sing tonight
open your arms and let us fly tonight
fly tonight
and when its all said and done
you know we'll be alright
black hearts will sing tonight)

Can't move your limbs
can't close your eyes
this song is written for
each and every breath you take
'cause we're alive
'cause we're alive
and take these thoughts of suicide
and set them alight
and throw those fucking thoughts
out to your black heart nights
your black heart nights

(Black hearts will sing tonight,
Black hearts will sing tonight,
Black hearts will sing tonight
Black hearts will sing tonight,
black hearts will sing tonight
open your arms and let us fly tonight
fly tonight
and when its all said and done
you know we'll be alright
black hearts will sing tonight)

9. R.I.P. Foghorn

its never easy to face yourself everyday
through the fog of shrouded memories
its never easy to face your past everyday
through the haze of the aftermath
yeah
its never easy to admit that
you've faltered and fallen
that you can't do this alone
(that you can't do this all alone)
i've felt the fear in your eyes
i've slipped into that void
and i've felt the cold of the morning
and i know
(its never easy to admit that
you've faltered and fallen
and you can't do this alone
down in that void buried so deep
searching for love but not for sleep
just know that nothings set in stone)
and I know how some others won't
the cold steel and regret
the failure and remorse
just trying to tell you
your not here alone
we're all in this together
shining bright through the fog
filling the skies with our light
with our light, with our light

(its never easy to admit that
you've faltered and fallen
and you can't do this alone
down in that void buried so deep
searching for love but not for sleep
just know that nothings set in stone)

don't be the one to bear
the weight of the world
while that world passes by
(its never easy to admit
that you've faltered
that you've fallen
i'm just trying to tell you
that you aren't here alone)

(its never easy to admit that
you've faltered and fallen
and you can't do this alone
down in that void buried so deep
searching for love but not for sleep
just know that nothings set in stone)

we're all in this together
shining bright through the fog
we're all in this together.

10. Fuck The Yankees

(i've been trying to find
the space and time
to let them know
just what it's like to be
feeling so alone)
to be feeling so alone
(i know you stayed there waiting
for the world to heal itself
the world we existed in)
the fucking world i turned to hell

if only i could fall
through the earth
to reach you
when the sun decides to set
take your hand and let you feel
the warmth of graces breath
i am the heart that keeps on beating
when you close your eyes at night
not before and not forever
will our hearts not beat together
and now its happening again

(i've been trying to find
the space and time
to let them know
just what it's like to be
feeling so alone)
to be feeling so alone
(i know you stayed there waiting
for the world to heal itself
the world we existed in)
the fucking world i turned to hell

and now its happening again
and we are wishing things could just go back
(to how they used to be)
we've lost the innocence of youth
(and left our hearts by the wayside)
but i can tell you in years to come
we'll get it back
and you will breathe ever so deeply
then let go of all the heaviness
you've carried for so many years
throughout the pain
throughout the fear
just know that i'll be here

(i've been trying to find
the space and time
to let them know
just what it's like to be
feeling so alone)
to be feeling so alone
(i know you stayed there waiting
for the world to heal itself
the world we existed in)
the fucking world i turned to hell

and now its happening again
throughout the pain
throughout the fear
just know that i am here
throughout the pain
throughout the fear
just know that i am here
Just know, just know
Just know that i am here.

11. 15 Pieces Of Flare

[Deluxe Edition (B-Side) Bonus Track]

[from "Glory Days" Compilation Album]

I saw the bridge today, I thought I had it burned
Made a stop to memories, I drowned out and had covered
Falling down into the river, where we’re broken and destroyed
And understand I saw the coming of a past I’d left destroyed

I saw the ghost of everyday, of every year I have forgotten,
And the grief and the confusion
Of a world I’d soon discover
The ghost of myself, is still mourning all the lives I won’t discover,
Because I buried myself forever

I buried myself, and carved out new existence,
Where the memories were burned, and break all of my wishes,
And now I still pull down myself, and I’m trying to find the bridge, and build the life
And build the life, the life I always wanted
Be no room, with much to give, open my eyes, and take the world, and take a breath
In turgid water, where I’ve hidden away,
And I set my heart to slaughter
And the past I’ve left destroyed

I saw the ghost of everyday, of every year I have forgotten,
And the grief and the confusion
The ghost of myself, is still mourning all the lives I won’t discover,
Because I buried myself forever

Yeah!

My future, will not, be defined, by my past.
My future, our future.

12. Snicklefritz

[Deluxe Edition (B-Side) Bonus Track]

[from "Glory Days" Compilation Album]

I've spent my life down
In the depths of an enigmatic mind
Where the water turns to black
It's there alone I spend my time.
Try to see my own reflection
Try to divide
Myself in equal parts
For every heart I've left behind.

For every heart I've left behind

But my heart it isn't such
Such a lonely hunter
(Such a lonely hunter)
It's just trying to stay afloat
And keep from going under
(Keep from going under)
'cause the steps that I seem to take
(To take)
They just won't give me the time
(No time)
The time to pull myself together time to hit rewind

It's where the root of all my evil lies
Where it digs still ever deeper
Where you'll eventually find my heart
The heaviest of heavy sleepers
It's in the darkness and the guilt
And all the heartbreak blood I've spilt
It's there you'll find me hiding out
In the darkness sitting still

I'm sick so sick
Just sick and tired
Of trying to believe
In every lie
There are no hearts
Not even fucking mine

Just black tar pits
And empty eyes.

But my heart it isn't such
Such a lonely hunter
(Such a lonely hunter)
It's just trying to stay afloat
And keep from going under
(Keep from going under)
'cause the steps that I seem to take
(To take)
They just won't give me the time
(No time)
The time to pull myself together time to hit rewind

I've been searching,
For something,
Some semblance
Of myself
But I've
Left that behind,
Always searching
For myself and hoping
That I'll like what I find.

But my heart it isn't such
Such a lonely hunter
(Such a lonely hunter)
It's just trying to stay afloat
And keep from going under
(Keep from going under)
'cause the steps that I seem to take
(To take)
They just won't give me the time
(No time)
The time to pull myself together time to hit rewind

The time
To hit
Rewind





THE AMITY AFFLICTION LYRICS