THE BLACK DAHLIA MURDER LYRICS

1. All My Best Friends Are Bullets

[Instrumental]

2. To You, Contorionist

Your eyes push shards of glass to mince my defenses...
I never thought I'd feel this way - memories haunting every breath!

It frightens me to know I can never be rid of you,
After a year, you (still) stir something in me.
The hate has faded but the disgust remains,
I recall when only warmth and acceptance filled your eyes.

If I could understand - what turned you against me,
if I could just understand - what hardened your stare into scorn.
What was it worth to you - to turn me inside out? You became he that we hated...
Left me with scarlet eyes, and an empty chest - it's been a year and I still feel nauseous.

Brown eyes cut into me - parting once friendly flesh.
I burned your pictures away - but I can't stop remember when...

...the city has not felt the same since...

Though your stare has hardened, this cold contempt makes me wonder -
Could an ounce of guilt boil in your blood?

This blood we shared - seeps from an ever present truth,
A missing piece of my past - still makes me crawl the other way.

And no I can't forgive - as you embody my regret,
You are the living proof - that I'll never ever trust again.
You are the living proof - that I'll never ever trust again.

Never!

I never really told you what you had meant to me,
Ere my lungs met the ire of your voracious mouth.
So now I walk alone through the ashes of our ties,
My mind flooding with memories of endless summer drives.
I'd love to talk with you to fully understand
What finally drove you to this choice - to smash my heart...

But some things are better left unsaid.

3. The Middle Goes Down

Cold winter cuts, a heart that couldn't heal...
Destroyed by it's own stupidity.
A frozen smile, cracks backing frigid lies,
I shelter beneath a veil of happiness - a delicate facade.

(And) snow falls as to bury what we had...
Everything we left behind.

Although your loving eyes have left my gaze forever - they've been captured in my sleep;
Although this vacant heart can't go on any longer - I feel your soft breath in my dreams.

(But) it shall not be - I cannot shake these feelings,
I can't renounce - this love for you is all I know.

I am controlled by sorrow - my hope forever lost,
Bested by my weakness - will the spring's warmth never come?

And the snow still heaping on this broken back,
I am lost within its persistence.
You took the meaning from this withered soul,
I have no strength without your touch.

And so it was - and can never be again,
And so it was - and will never ever be again!

LOST! This love for you is all I know!
WEAKNESS! Will the spring's warmth never come?

Never come...

A little child crying from the bunk below...
I still love you, I won't cut that tie from my life.
Love born in regret? [?] our blight carved into stone?
The stone that lines my heart... I wish I never loved you.

Cold sweat and eaten nails - I did this all for you;
A broken heart, a clenched fist full of hair - I did this all for you.

And any other embrace will just turn into shit
In the shadow of our former love;
I'd trade a bloody wrist to live forever in those nights
But the deed hath still been done...

Hath still been done...

The deed hath still been done.

4. This Ain't No Fucking Love Song

My crimson covered hands clutch heart strings newly broken,
Moths breed in my entrails, hate washes through my fucking veins.
Friendship turns to disease - afflicting the weak of mind and heart,
You are the growing cancer, eating at my fondest memories.

7 abandoned years thwart all affection,
A million whispered lies push fingernails into my palms.

The knife slipped in - pushed by the most familiar hands,
I fell upon the comfort of your words.
A flash of light taught me a lesson in betrayal,
I fell upon the solace in your smile.

7 wasted years! Boiling in vomit!
I will erase you! I will erase you from this heart!
From my memory I cut away,
You're just a name to me - a friend is now a ghost.

And I will never give again (give again),
Have you have forsaken any faith I had in you (I had in you)
And all the love I had for you.

I am reborn, baptized in flame,
Clean of your deceitful looming.
Friends are beneath me; I can't face this pain again.
I'll die alone, but at least I'll know who loves me.

I am a shadow of myself, pent up in walls of human shit,
Annihilating anything that bears your name,
I am a hollowed wooden shell, made strong by that which I abhor,
Committing only to creating your demise.

And so I pray for sleep - and to see anything but red,
All purpose has been drained from me.
A friendship ends in pain - morose claims my every word,
All trust has been carved out of me.

7 wasted years! Boiling in vomit!
I will erase you! I will erase you from this heart!
From my memory I cut away,
You're just a name to me - a friend is now a ghost!

5. (And The Chorus Sang) A Dead Refrain

Skyscrapers are crumbling, mountains move in my path,
The streets lights are twisting, pulling me to the earth.
My veins are anchored in this city,
I am defeated by this lack of conviction!

I am crushed by 800 miles, eyes widened in self loathing!
When the fucking dirt proves stronger, than the most pure emotion that I've ever fucking had!
So what is left in life - but my destruction?
Why do my lungs still gasp, when they no longer breathe for you?

Where is the truth in my existence
When I have been cut off from your tender fingertips,
All that I've known falls down around me,
Every twisting tree and dead end street reminding me of you!

***

Taking me back...
...a year...

***

My life slowly crawls on without you,
Amongst the endless snowing sheets...
Disheartening moments of salvation come to me
Only when I am asleep.

I no longer stomach the denial,
Hiding the weakness of my being,
The day to day has been a slow blur since you left,
Only your forgiveness sets me free...

Free!

***

The bridges collapsing, hillsides are growing fast,
The pavement is shifting, quicksand controls my will.
I question life and its true meaning,
I am defeated by this feebleness of will.

Frenzied thoughts arrest my mind
As I descend towards my eminent destruction,
The only thing I can rely on
When I lie even to myself...

Skyscrapers are crumbling, mountains are closing in my path,
The streets lights are twisting, pulling me to the earth.
My veins are anchored in this city,
I am defeated by this lack of conviction.

***

Am I already dead? I proceed hollow unloved.
I am our burnt out memory, self mutilation is my mainstay.

Tear me away from the pictures of your face,
Pry my eyes from your written word,
Tear me away from the bondage of regret,
Convince me that I am alive!

This is the end, the end of everything - all I held dear has slipped from my grasp,
This is the end, the end of everything - all whom I've loved are fucking memories,
This is the end, the end of everything - as I am ripe for this demise,
This is the end, this is the end of everything.

I kneel, godless and beaten.
I long for moments when my eyes aren't blinded by emptiness.

6. Burning The Hive

I'll tell you in one sentence the truth should not have broken you,
You know I'd never turn away - not in your darkest hour.
I won't reiterate the immense failure on your part,
To let it die this way displays the weakness of your bonds.

Numb I crawl, losing you,
Over something so frivolous, so petty!
But this pettiness is all you know,
You wear a chip on your shoulder like a badge of fucking pride!!

A broken heart? You broke your fucking own!
I remain. I never would have left your side.
And now my name will be another excuse
For you to grovel in the ill will called your life.

I'll miss the friendship that we once shared
As you ignite all that which made us strong.

The fires of envy blaze undying as this devotion is destroyed,
I watch our dreams reduce to ash, throat stifled by the fumes.
The stench of brittle feelings burning wets my tender eyes with tear,
Our memories are the funeral pyre, and your words are gasoline.

Our friendship meets a blackened fate; an ashen epitaph.
These caustic embers yet remain - soon to be blown away.
You will choke on my name, you'll choke on pictures of my face,
You will choke on my name, you'll choke on what you threw away!

I was a fool to ask so fucking little from you,
I should have recognized the frailty of your will.
I know that you can hear me, I hope that this is killing you,
I hope you sweat at night dreaming of my face.

"Do whatever makes you happy, no holds barred."
- shall remain etched into my mind (into my fuckin' mind)...

When my eyes are finally graced with your crooked smile,
And my insides are licked by those familiar flames,
Flickering within my gut - deep in my battered chest,
Burning a hole through my entrails!

I won't fall!

I won't succumb to the pettiness which you breed.
I won't acknowledge the woe in which you live.
I won't forget the times we have spent.
I have pictures proving everything - you will be fucking missed!







THE BLACK DAHLIA MURDER LYRICS