THE CARRIER LYRICS

1. Blind To What Is Right

I'm not content with giving into this world's misleading No place to put myself to rest, or find hope in something new Because at the end of the day, I always end up feeling the same way I've grown up a mile from where my lifeless body will end up being, from where my soulless body will decay And I've noticed I can't keep my hands from shaking, I've noticed I can't keep my mind from racing And all I want to find is a better way to put my mind at ease Instead I scream myself to sleep in hopes that someone will hear me I'm still screaming Can you hear me? And I know that one is already to many to keep around me I'm always haunted by the thought of letting down everybody I've made the mistake of telling what keeps me up at night Sometimes I dream of dying, and when I die, there won't be anything You heard my screams but continued to believe their lies You just stood staring back at me, with those hopeless eyes Your empty words mean nothing to me, stop trying to tell me why I want to find some meaning in life I want to know everything is alright, but these sleepless nights bring my anxious fight To not tear out my eyes and be blind to what is right Blind to what is right

2. Everyone Who I Knew And Loved Is Gone

I pass by homes where I used to roam, and everyone who I knew and loved is gone I think I've lost my mind, it feels like the end of my time As I head downtown, it's freezing out, but it's the cold that burns that makes me feel alive I know I'll never be good enough in your eyes Instead I waste away, living this life I hate Tied down by all the things I can't escape, I can't erase Living in the shadows of everything that surrounds me I've only ever wanted to make something of my name, but now I'm stuck heading down the wrong way on a one-way street So I head back home there's nowhere else to go Consumed by all the thoughts that rip at my soul, an image of someone I don't even know Please don't read into this, please just listen to me Heart beats cold, I'm slowly letting go Tomorrow is just another day for me to make the same mistakes Don't follow in my footsteps, please just listen to me

3. Wash Away My Sins

For the first time, you can see a side of me that you've never seen It hides behind this mask I fake, but I hope that you can't see the real me I've tried to dream my life away, in hopes of forgetting yesterday But it's when no one is awake, that my mind plays tricks on me I'm drowning myself in excuses for my actions I'm trying to make sense of all of my bad habits I'm carefully miscalculating my next mistake, predicted disregard of planning any future for me Can someone please remind me of a different way to live? Before tonight fades away, I'll have dug my own grave I'm becoming more deaf to heartbroken reports of youth Disillusioned too, we can pretend like we never knew Of better days, a life without hate, where everything is new Where the struggle of getting through the day is something I never knew I can't even recall a time, or remember when in my life I wasn't worried about doing what's wrong or doing what's right My mind still screams at me, while my body bleeds As I try to wash away my sins from this life I lead Right before the night slowly slips away And I get my chance to escape I'm constantly reminded of all my failures, my defeats And the only nightmare I have is living Dreaming my life away, forgetting yesterday I'm becoming more deaf to heartbroken reports of youth Disillusioned too, we can pretend like we never knew Of better days, a life without hate where everything is new Where the struggle of getting through the day was something I never knew

4. Hollow Pain

Another song with no soul, another word with no home, another scream with no voice And all that we've ever had was really just nothing that we wished it were We'll say we stay on this same path, and say we can play the same actors In same sad shows of how were still searching for a way to have it all Dance the night away to the same songs I'm always apologizing when I've done nothing wrong I'm always apologizing when I've done nothing wrong But what is life and love without hurt and pain? What is another sad song without sad words to sing? So lets give this a little meaning, because there's a few things I've been thinking And there's a few people who aren't who they think they are Perfection is something you think you've obtained, and I hope you make it through the rest of today without drowning yourself with someone's hollow pain You've never known real sacrifice, you'll understand true pain, as I'm still fucked up from last night's attempt to forget everything Years spent building the tallest walls just to keep myself locked in It will never matter anyway I'll never care about anything As much as you care about yourself, as much as you love yourself In your mind, the world spins around you, while you keep laughing to yourself You only love yourself I'm growing up just to get there to find and out that it's just what I thought it would be I'll keep loving, I'll keep living, while you only love yourself

5. A Stranger To Myself

I've tried to wrap my mind around the thought of forgetting all that I've been taught All I've done with my life has brought me here, not my hopes, my dreams, my fears And even though I've never been too sure of who I am I can still feel the blood pump beneath my skin Straight to my heart, poisoned with lies that I keep I stare in the mirror and I don't even know, who I see, what I've become A stranger to myself, avoiding everyone else I've been signing my name in blood just to get out Escape to a place that could never exist I regret all the chances that I have missed I hand my self out instead, torture myself with this hate Outsiders know me better than I know myself Here's a glimpse into my world just to have something to hold onto My world just gets smaller and turned inside out While the people who talk never need the help My life is not just a story, an end to the beginning of a picture perfect journey that I travel myself All I can see when I look around, are people living lives of misery The people's eyes, they still hold fear The people's words, they're so insincere The people's minds, they're still unclear They don't seem to bear the burden of what's real Abandon any image of who I am Alone, all alone again Abandon any image of who I am Alone, all alone again

6. In Silence Together

I'm watching everyone around me slowly kill themselves I'm watching everyone around me slowly fall apart I'm watching everyone around me slowly die Following in the same footsteps that their fathers took They're going down the dark path that they never thought they would In love with being in love with nothing So in love with being in love with nothing Strangers to themselves, and no one can help, a man who has no pride, has no heart And so his life turns into a spectacle for all of us to see, making the same mistakes that he just did yesterday All he ever wanted was to be something All he ever wanted was to be heard Strangers to themselves, and no one can help a man who has no pride has no heart It's in the things we never talk about that keep bringing us down No hopes, no dreams, no reason to breathe Living like the the ones you see The spotlight is never fixed on those who are living the closest to the ground, because doing the right thing is something nobody wants to talk about I'm trying to hold on to the life of a man that I once knew I can't take care of you with promises you'll never keep We can't speak to each other, because we know too much We'll just sit in silence together, judging everybody else No hopes no dreams, in love with nothing It never meant that much to you to mean anything to me It never meant that much to you to mean everything to me

7. Downstream

I heard the same story today of a man who fell in love with hate And combined with the addictions that he faced, he began to lose himself and change It's so easy to fall into a trap, a vicious cycle of good friends that can never give back Always there to help you when you need to escape, never help with healing, but just to numb the pain Barely giving you any mental state, removing you from this world you hate And you always say, I see no future, I have no home, there is no point in going on These scars dig deeper into my soul, I'm trying not to let go How many more false words can you speak? How much more suffering can you inflict? And when the people ask what you did, I'll lie to them and tell them of all the good you did In the shadows resides all your hopes and dreams that you threw away, all for nothing And the light from the night sky shows all the horrible things you did while we slept Downstream is where your body will float until it sinks, dragged down by all the sins that you keep Holding onto memories of someone I'll never know, trying to let go, of all that remained when you selfishly left this world Being so close to what haunts his soul Facing the same destiny, my story is untold

8. Into Darkness

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9. All That's Left To See

Burdened with the task of keeping track of the days Counting the minutes on the clock as they fade away I never thought I would even make it to see today, but I'm here, and the life I lead is caving in on me Dragging me through the streets Bringing me to my knees But as the world spins around me, another day comes and goes, and I'm still waiting I didn't choose to be in this world, my self-destructive acts will always go unheard And this veil that I hide behind gives me a better way to see what this world is like I watched you change You watched me do the same And I saw your change, but I'll never let my hate do the same I never dreamed my life would end up this way, searching for any meaning in this fucked up place Everyone here once spoke in a similar way, singing the same songs that we all once sang You knew my face, you never knew me You saw your demons, when you looked right at me You knew my face, you never knew me You never knew me at all Here we are With shattered hearts staring back at me, no room left to breath, the world caves in on me, all that's left to see: A man so lost and confused, a man so beaten black and blue, a man staring back at you A man just like you





THE CARRIER LYRICS