THE ELIJAH LYRICS

1. In Misery

I feel like i've been left here to rot
I swear I used to feel so much more
I can barely breathe
I can barely speak. Honestly.
I don't know where I went so wrong
The truth I never spoke is I'm afraid of dying alone
But I know that's how this ends
Where are you when I need saving
I've never felt this scared before
Why can't I feel your help
I never thought you were real
I've always felt alone but I've never felt like this
I've been left here to rot.

2. I Loved

Did i ever care enough to stop myself
Did my begging heart get the better of me
My hate can't exist if i'm alone in this body
My hate can't exist alone
Every breath of this plagued air that you're breathing in
You're breathing death
As sorry as I already AM I can't stop this from happening
Nothing ever lasts in my head full of lies
And in my selfish begging heart
The same heart that want's you in my blood
It want's you to feel. It wants to hold you
I'm not lonely for once but I know it wont stay
And I'm sleeping at nights but my love fades away
The days become longer
My hands are so frail
There's a numbness surrounding and I've nothing to say
I felt love for a while
But it died in the promises
I felt love for a while but it died
Had i loved you before it ever had a chance just to be love.

3. In Fear

I was born with bleeding eyes
As the devil made me blind
He said that he loved me
He said that he cared
With his arms wrapped around me like a vulnerable child
I still feel nothing. I still feel alone.
So leave me with nothing as that's all I deserve.
Leave me with nothing and hear my skin cry like birth.
And the truth is that I am so scared of what goes on inside.
My head let you in
My heart held you close
My eyes don't see you like I wish they could
And I don't remember ever seeing myself smile
Someone feel me what is wrong with me
Am I so sick that I'm helpless

4. I Hated

This rooms become my prison
Of dark days and darker nights
A hate growing like a life
I'd never wish an existence for
Am I the reason your not alive
And im falling to my knees
Have you gone have you gone
I still want to be with you
And if you go, I would go to
I'll find you in a place I never thought true
And see your face as I slipped away
Back to my darkest day
I once had nothing
I once had nothing to lose

The thought that I've torn the smile
From your pale skinned face
I've took your love and ive turned it into hate
And I hate myself for the love I can't show
And I convinced myself
That I will never deserve

5. In Regret

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7. I Destroyed

I never asked to be but you made this in me.
And I feed it.
My skin knows evil so well but it never knew you.
I feed it alone from the disgust I hold in my hands.
I starved you of life when you had just shown me love.
But still that wasn't enough for me.
The taste of you grew so old.
And the touch of your ugly skin.
Stop breathing and feel my sickness
Feel my bones rotting thin.
You came back to find me and I didn't deserve for you to care.
Disgust had taken hold of me.
And you hoped that love would stay inside.
But like a cancer creeping slowly it could never survive.

8. ..

[Instrumental]

9. In Death

A Heaven made in your love would not be made for me.
I'm alone in this world.
My dying life you won't see.
I bleed real blood and I feel ashamed.
Left to live like a demon. In dark and in pain.
There's belief where I don't belong
And I thought I had found a home there.
But I just found lies.
If God was real then I would hate him with a passion so strong
It bleeds like his death ridden hands.
A death that I am so scared of and a hatred.
Every innocent life he has taken you would see in my eyes.
And the hatred he's left rage in me you would hear in my cries.

10. I Created

I was so sure that a life could exist
My heart held a cross
My heart held a love
But love for me could never stay
It was hate waiting to breathe
And breathe it always has
And breathe it always hill
And I felt new air so many times
But it left me here alone
It left me here to die
Heaven's not a place you go when you die
It's a place you live when you're in love and alive
I was there. But it walked away.
And it feels like I'm dying now
And it feels like I have regrets
I can't change a thing
I'm so sorry I failed love
Failed love. Failed love.







THE ELIJAH LYRICS