THE JUDAS FACTOR LYRICS

1. Beauty Mark

I can see myself, vulnerable, innocent, just what you were looking for.
You set the stage for what is my life and I've played it back a million times.
Oh, how I tried to purge this from my mind but it's always tearing at me and I can't help but wonder if you ever think about me because I can't get you out of my mind.
You're faceless, heartless to me.
Was I the only one? You are the rotting teeth in my mouth and everyday you're there to remind me.
You symbolize my pain, you're that gun in my mouth but no bullet can make this go away.
I only wish I could share this with you.
Do you have a son? Is he beautiful? Innocent?
Did you share with him what you shared with me? You're my beauty mark.

2. That Beautiful Old Victorian Bathtub

Tell me, I want to to know, just how it felt.
To hold it in your hand.
Feel it in your arm.
Did you feel the heat pour into your veins? Tell me about that rush.
Did you lose yourself? Victorian.
This feeling, so warm and safe, slowly ripped from you.
Feel the desperation as your body shakes.
Dependency grips you, it becomes all you are, seconds feel like hours, you want nothing more.
Victorian.
Is this what it's like to hit rock bottom? We all follow suit in our own way.
The joke's on those who deny that this safety is our real death.

3. As I Lie Down To Die

Dead eyes tell us stories we never wanted to hear.
Leaving us no reason to live for fairy tale dreams.
As waste our strength pulling wool over our eyes.
When will we find the courage to take back our lives?
As our demons lie us down to die.
Dead eyes tell me I'm running out of time.
As I lie down to die.

4. Essay

I'm ridden with the guilt of unspoken words, uneasy thoughts, and a head full of zeros.
Silence is golden and our smiles forced on our face.
We hold our breath rather then force the issue.
One day I'm going to do it, that's right.
I'm going to do it.
Fuck calculations and damage control.
We can't be cleared of wrong doing when words are left unspoken, it's better to revolt then to swallow it down.
Will we be haunted by our silence? The blood is on our hands.
Will we act or be ridden by our guilt? The blood is on our hands.
Will we live with a head full of zeros? The blood is on our hands.
Will we hold our breath until our death? The blood in on our hands.

5. Will You Wait Up For Me?

Bedtime, I can't close these aching eyes.
Memories, I can never just let them ride.
And you, you know me well, sometimes better then I know myself.
Sometimes, it seems like we're worlds apart but you're always close to my heart.
You're my angel in disguise and i never want to see you cry.
I just need to get through this and I need you to know, how much I lean on you, so will you wait up for me?

6. Choose Your Poison

There's a stranger in my head who wants a hand in my death.
There's this weight on my chest stealing away my breath.
There's a mask on my face that only our 'love' could replace.
These hands around my neck are teaching me about regret.
Your silence speaks volumes, so there's no need, to line up with your grievances.
Actions mean nothing, regrets powerless, cause we still can't escape our past.
I want to know what it's like to feel so secure, about the promises we make, and those we break.
We always swore we'd be better then this.
Choose your poison.
The thoughts we had, fuck good intentions, they painted us into this corner.
Blank stares, lifeless minds, cutting words, the killing kind.

7. My Favorite Stranger

I've become my favorite stranger just when things are getting desperate.
I've become my most hated rival just when it seemed like I could finally put it to rest.
And there is little control when something is driving you.
And there is little to tell when you wear your heart on your sleeve.
I'd like to know that this is real, to be above your suspicion.
But I won't live my life for you and I won't sing this song for you.
Why can't this just be beautiful?
I guess we need to have our suffering as much as we need to have our bliss.

8. If You Are Going To Kill Then Murder

If I could only believe in the words you said, if I could only relate to the thoughts you had, then maybe I wouldn't feel like you're the enemy.
If you are going to kill then murder.
I can't seem to place your words with your face.
At least you don't seem to mind to fuck those you left behind.
And I can't remember just what you did for me.
All I know is you're my enemy.
If you are going to kill then murder

9. Re-Invent

I want to feel what it's like to feel.
I want to know what it's like to know..
Sometimes I just want to burn this picture.
Feel what it's like to feel free with myself.
I want to feel what it's like to feel.
I want to know what it's like to know.So much motivation to reinvent myself.
I stand stranded in my world of isolation.
Is it fear?

10. Intangibles

Critic to an extreme, you're way of being seen, no matter the expense, it's about the attention you get.
You got it.
Thin line separates, how much I can take, comes to a point in time, where restraint is left behind.
And this is it.
Bleed the intangibles.
I want to reward your creativity and give you what you want.
My undivided attention.

11. Stealing Away

Pictures embedded in my mind.
I guess it makes no sense to regret those things we could never change.
All of those things are a real part of me.
Sleepless nights have a way of playing with our minds, stealing from our lives.
Little drops, they wear away cause I can't be the man you want me to be and I can't be the father he needs me to be and it's this truth that's killing me.
And I can't find solace in wishing this away.

12. Last Song

There's no words, to describe the feeling.
The helplessness, the numbness, that ran through my veins.
And I never got a chance, a chance to say good-bye.
And you never got a chance to see the fear in my eyes.
As my world spiraled out of control and my life could never be the same, this is what it's like to lose control of yourself, this is what it feels like to be paralyzed.
There's no words, to describe the feeling.
The helplessness, the desperation, that ran through my veins.
I watched a beautiful woman lose her life and he lost his wife.
And I succumbed to the numbness that ran through my veins.
no control over life, no more will to fight.
Sit back and watch as it is all taken away.







THE JUDAS FACTOR LYRICS