THE PLOT IN YOU LYRICS

1. Hole In The Wall

This room was empty, holes in the walls I'm fucking melting
Destined to fall do you feel me?
It's pulling me further away, my family's breaking
And I'm giving myself all the blame
how do you explain that you've been so low you'd steal just to keep your stomach full and your habits up?
I've played that game my time is done, alone, afraid to move an inch on a binge,
It's like they've left me here just to reflect on my sins
overdosed, so fucking close, sometimes it takes losing everything, the life I chose

Maybe it's just me and I'll fight it off, I'll find myself [2x]

Maybe it's just me and I can't see I'm hurting everyone that found me
every word that I said all the shit that I fed into the brains of the hopeless

I will take you nowhere, I will teach you nothing
So please just trust me
Open the door just to see this room was empty
Holes in the walls I'm fucking melting, destined to fall do you feel me?
It's pulling me further away, my family's breaking and I'm giving myself all the blame

Maybe it's just me and I'll fight it off, I'll find myself [4x]
(And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself)

I'll fight it off, I'll push it out, I'll make a change, I'll make you proud [4x]
(And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself)

2. Dear Old Friend

Scared for my life, I'm breathing and keeping thoughts away,
Well it's a shame I'm too afraid to fall asleep
It's insane how far we'll go and what we'll do to keep them from pain,
It's my life, it's my time, it's my code I live by,
I'll just keep telling myself that it's right and I'm fine

Wash away my sins, I'm trapped in this hole again,
I can see you and me on a slate that was clean,
I pushed my limits now you think I'm like the pigs in the street,
I could hardly spend a minute in reality,
Getting help was like a vision I was fathoming,
I was weak you would all speak and try to save me but I was taken like a tragedy
(I was taken like a tragedy)

Wash away my sins, I'm trapped in this hole again,
It's sickening to see, you know this act isn't me, I'm trapped in this hole again

I fall asleep to escape all the guilt and all the pain,
Pillowcases soaked in blood, I smoked away my fucking lungs,
And if it hurts you just to face me,
And if you're trying to erase me (trying to erase me)
Know I'll be waiting for the next time
And I'll be praying that you take my life,

Wash away my sins, I'm trapped in this hole again
It's sickening to see, you know this act isn't me, I'm trapped in this hole again,
Trapped in this hole again!

The less you care the less it hurts,
You can mask it or you can take your own fucking life,

I can see you and me on a slate that was clean,
I pushed my limits now you think I'm like the pigs in the street,
I could hardly spend a minute in reality,
Getting help was like a vision I was fathoming,
I was weak you would all speak and try to save me
But I was taken like a tragedy,
(I was taken like a tragedy)
I've been taken like a tragedy
(I've been taken, I've been,I've been taken like a tragedy)
(I've been taken, I've been,I've been taken like a tragedy)

3. Take Me Away

The day you passed away
Something about this place changed
We're waiting for signals of love
But you were cold and I guess you'd had enough

Spoke my name, I felt your pain
As your eyes cloud up and then close shut

I saw your soul leave this room like it was sick of you
You had this look on your face like you were thinking
Just take me away
I'll never change
Take me away
I will never change

My father was broken and low
And I saw a side he'd never shown
So many secrets he'd kept
Some things he was forced to accept

Spoke my name, I felt your pain
As your eyes cloud up and then close shut

I saw your soul leave this room like it was sick of you
You had this look on your face like you were thinking
Just take me away
I'll never change
Take me away
I will never change
Take me away

Crossed his heart and hoped to die
I know you fought so hard
And held your pride
I wish you knew my thoughts and heard my voice
Cause I was tied and knots
But stood with poise
And when you spoke my name
I felt pain as your eyes cloud up then closed shut

I saw your soul leave this room like it was sick of you
You had this look on your face like you were thinking
Just take me away
I'll never change
Take me away
I will never change.

(There's a tear in your bear cause I'm crying for you dear,
you were always on my mind until these last few beers,I've shed a million tears)

4. Runaway

(I'm ashamed, I'm afraid of my options
I'm a loose end
I'm a dead beat
I'm the one writing words cause I can't sleep)

Thrown me away
Paralyze me I'm realizing
Day by day it passes by me uninviting

Counting the days
You're running away from me
Running from everything
Doubting my faith in everything I believe
Taken so casually

Maybe it's just in my head
Or all the cruel things that we've said
I'm not a fool and I am no pawn in your game
Running away
Trying to get away from me
Running away
Trying to get the best of me

Counting the days
You're running away from me
Running from everything
Doubting my faith in everything I believe
Taken so casually

Losing my faith, losing my faith
I'm losing my faith in you

Numb to the pain from all the disappointment

I'm ashamed, I'm afraid of my options
I'm a loose end
I'm a dead beat
I'm the one writing words cause I can't sleep [2x]
(NUMB)

Numb to all the pain
You can live with regret
Ill hang myself up to dry

Till then I'm counting the days
You're running away from me
Running from everything
Doubting my faith in everything I believe
Taken so casually
Losing my faith
(Losing my faith)
I'm losing faith in you.

5. Pillhead

I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with

We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get free
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean

Break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Get clean you filth [2x]
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend

I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with

We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing.

6. Better Vibes

We were drinking, making jokes that night
Popped a pill or two and just stayed outside
She was hinting at more, I couldn't stop or ignore
How could I say no?
She was careless, I could not see straight
Couldn't stay, I had too much on my plate
You were angry and scared but I was never prepared
To take this on

So I brace myself and place myself in better vibes
And it just keeps getting harder now
Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here

Take a minute to collect yourself
You know that you've got a tendency to fuck things up
And we're in the worst possible state that we could get to
Some days I must admit that I can hardly look at you
What's wrong, what's wrong with me?
If you're so sick and tired of being admired, let me free

I brace myself and place myself in better vibes
And it just keeps getting harder now
Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here

Fade away, fade away
(fade away, fade away)
Or fuel my never ending flame
(fuel my flame)
Fade away, fade away
'Cause things could never be the same

Fade away, fade away
(fade away)
Or fuel my never ending flame
(fuel my flame)
Fade away, fade away
'Cause things could never be the same

I brace myself and place myself in better vibes
And it just keeps getting harder now
Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here [2x]

7. My Old Ways

Trapped in my old ways
Can't seem to break free from anything
'Cause this is all I've ever known and I'm afraid it won't let me go.

Drug you down,
Took you away from everyone that ever loved you.
Fooled the crows,
Made them believe that I was real,
But you always knew
I know I'm late but I hope you know I'd kill to keep you safe.
If you love me then I beg that you just leave
Forget my name.

Trapped in my old ways
Can't seem to break free from anything
'Cause this is all I've ever known and I'm afraid it wont let me go. (Let me go)
I'm afraid, I'm afraid
It won't let me go (let me go)
I'm afraid, I'm afraid
It won't let me go

All the pills
All the money
All the pain
Living consequences, breathing just to take the blame.
I was wrong, I was wrong, I can see so clearly, made myself look like a fool, and now you only fear me
Fighting to change, God only knows I've been living in Agony, I pushed you all away

And I'm
Trapped in my old ways cant seem to break free from anything
'Cause this is all I've ever known and I'm afraid it wont let me go.
Let me go.
I'm afraid it won't let me go.
Just let me GO.

ITCHING, SCRATCHING
My blood so thin the fucking ceiling spins.
It's clouding every thought and stripping everything away from me.
CRAWLING DESPERATELY.
It's got me trapped and I've been living in agony

Trapped in my old ways
Can't seem to break free from anything
'Cause this is all I've ever known and I'm afraid it wont let me go. (Let me go)
I'm afraid, I'm afraid
It won't let me go
(Let me go)
I'm afraid, I'm afraid
It won't let me go
(Let me go) [2x]

8. Die Like Your Brothers

Drown this awful sound
It makes me clench my jaw and now it's all around
It's time I leave this town

Last time I went away I came back to a pillhead faded away
You're disgusting, I'm adjusting to reality
Breaking me and shaking me and now you're like an enemy
Such a waste of a great mind
You've had a taste of the wrong kind
Don't bring me down with you
I'm not gonna die with the guy that made me think that
Blowing 30's was fine
I'm nothing like you, I've already been there before
It's a hole, it's a trap that always blinds you

Two dead souls waiting for another hit
Two dead souls, just pass if you can't handle it
'Cause it's a game to see which one of us will die first
It's like a plague we're caving in we've got the same thirst
(We've got the same thirst)

I sink into my bed like the old days
All my friends are rocking xanies it's the new craze
Please crush another two and wait a minute
I saw a pair of eyes watching me as I was in it
Fuck me for trying to get my life back in line
It's not my fault that you have no self control and you're blind

Two dead souls waiting for another hit
Two dead souls, just pass if you can't handle it
'Cause it's a game to see which one of us will die first
It's like a plague we're caving in we've got the same thirst

(Die like your brothers and your father if it's so good
But just remember that they'd take it back if they could)

Die like your brothers and your father if it's so good
But just remember that they'd take it back if they could

Die like your brothers and your father if it's so good
But just remember that they'd take it back if they could

Yes I'd lost self control but that's not where it ends
And though I miss you and I think of you
I can't change this all again
You mean everything to me and I hope that you get clean

Two dead souls waiting for another hit
Two dead souls, just pass if you can't handle it
'Cause it's a game to see which one of us will die first
It's like a plague we're caving in we've got the same thirst

9. Mind Controlled

Did you assume we’d forget this
Were you expecting their forgiveness
Are you that bold and that cold
To think they’d let you run around in the streets as a witness
I never thought it was your fault (no)
I never thought it'd be this cold
Now I'm in a mess, it's probably best
To get away from this place
You get away from this pace or give up and confess

They know, they know where you are
Better run, better hide fast
Just know you're never too far away

Doesn't it make sense now?
What's wrong?
How you're strong for a man bringing us down
Every day it's a chance to repay
All the debts that you owe to the friends that you hate

Mind controlled
You're bought and sold
Keep playing games but know that you've been told
Remember

They know, they know where you are
Better run, better hide fast
Just know you're never too far away

We want you back
The clean man we once knew and respected
Can't believe you stole from the people
who took you when you were neglected
Let you in just to be manipulated
Speak and crawl while contemplating
Cross this off my list, no more charity
I'm sick of writing songs about you
but it's the only way to vent

They know, they know where you are
Better run, better hide fast
Just know you're never too far away

Pray away
It won't save your soul
It won't change your fate
So just fade away
God won't save you now
So just shut your mouth.

10. Time Changes Everything

I let my days slip away
We swore we'd never change
And we'd stay the same
But time changes everything

Let my head get in the way
Kept getting wasted and pilled out
The highs that I feel now are nothing the same
(nothing the same)
Keep to myself
Keep ignoring my health
While you all play it safe
'Cause I never felt so alive
No, I never felt so alive

I let my days slip away
I swore we'd never change
And we'd stay the same
Time changes everything

Let my head get in the way
I kept her cumming for days
I'm just the ghost of a good fuck
It's all just a phase
(it's just a phase)
Swallow my pride
Watch the ones that I can't touch
As I drift away
Fade away
Can't forgive myself
Can't forget yesterday

I let my days slip away
We swore we'd never change
And we'd stay the same
Time changes everything

Sink into a place
Into a self induced coma
Hear the walls sing
Clench your fists and just float on [2x]

'Cause I never felt so alive
No, I never felt so alive

I let my days slip away
I swore we'd never change
And we'd stay the say
Time changes everything [3x]

11. Living Your Dream

Scared I'm off again
Cut me up I'm thrown away
As much as I pretend
There's still a fault that I cant change

Who knows, who knows
If I'll be kicking
I'll living for the next try
Who knows, who knows
Cause I've been using
I've been choosing all the same lines

You think you got me, you think you got me figured out?
It's been to long and you're quick to judge things
Without taking the time to see for yourself

I've been living your dream
And I don't ever wanna wake up
Through these times I became
Another voice for the fucked up
I've been living a dream
(I've been living a dream)

Come on!
You're just remembering all the bad
But we were young and you were selfish too
and nothing can phase you
What's changed?

Do you wish I was dead
Do you hope, do you pray I'm a lost cause?
Was it something I did?
Cause I'll push and I'll fight till it's all gone

I've been living your dream
And I don't ever wanna wake up
Through these times I became
Another voice for the fucked up
I've been living a dream
(I've been living a dream)
(LIVING A DREAM!)

You called me a dead man
You said I'd never fucking make it to this point
And I'm so glad to see your life start to crumble
While I'm living your dream.

12. A Song About Myself

Cornered and stripped down
Eyes on the whole crowd
Drenched in your sweat you crawl away

And I'm sick of dropping hints
You ran us dry and fucked with friends
You're dead
Fucking dead and we're hungry
Brought your girl so you're not so lonely

I say we hold this motherfucker down
Stomp his head till his legs stop moving
I say we cut him all up
Burn his body till he's nothing but ashes

I say that you've had enough time to come to your senses
It's probably my fault for letting things go
And giving you second chances
You seemed lost and afraid and I had a soft spot
It's my fall that you crave

And that's why
I say we hold this motherfucker down
Stomp his head till his legs stop moving
I say we cut him all up
Burn his body till he's nothing but ashes

Dammed if I do dammed if I don't
Wish it wasn't me but that's how it always goes
Screaming like a girl as we're ripping up your clothes
You're gonna die in shame so that everybody knows

Dammed if I do dammed if I don't
Wish it wasn't me but that's how it always goes
Screaming like a girl as we're ripping up your clothes
You're gonna die in shame so that everybody knows

I say we hold this motherfucker down
Stomp his head till his legs stop moving
I say we cut him all up
Burn his body till he's nothing but ashes

Taking time for peace of mind
One less mouth for us to feed

Taking time for peace of mind
One less mouth for us to feed

(feed)

13. Forgive Me

At 15 I was starting to see consequences for selfish intentions
My father was right, the best parts of life are the times
When we let our faults kill our pride

Reading back on the words that I've spoken
A different man at a different time
I think I'm chosen
Some times I fucking hate the fact that I've broken
All the trust and all the lies that kept me going

I've tried to stay sober
I fought to get over the nights that I've wasted
I just can't remember, my thoughts all dismember
I crumble so quickly
I beg just forgive me

Forgive me for always breaking all my promises
Believe me I won't stay away from everything that's killing me

Made my mother out to be abusive
And carelessly ruined my family name
We were penniless and you were so desperate to stay sane
But your emotions were delicate

I've tried to stay sober
I fought to get over the nights that I've wasted
The pills left me faded
I just can't remember, my thoughts all dismember
I crumble so quickly
I beg just forgive me

Forgive me for always breaking all my promises
Believe me I won't stay away from everything that's killing me

...

(Forgive me for always breaking all my promises
Believe me I won't stay away from everything that's killing me)

Forgive me for always breaking all my promises
Believe me I won't stay away from everything that's killing me

At 15 I was starting to see consequences for selfish intentions
My father was right, the best parts of life are the times
When we let our faults kill our pride.

14. Washed Up

They ask me why I hardly speak these days
Sometimes it's better not to say a word and hide my face
It's hard to feel love, it's hard to find peace
There was a time I thought these things but that's the old me
What if I'm, what if I'm made for something else
Something some would die for
It's not enough
It never seems to be enough
I've got a vision and it's something you know nothing of
It's all dejavu
And it will never be real to you
I crossed the line and there's no going back this time

How could this happen to me?
I feel that I've missed my time
(I feel that I've missed my time)
Struggle and scratch till it bleeds
I swear that I'll be just fine
(I swear that I'll be just fine)

They see me, they hear me
They try to twist around the words I spoke clearly
It's sad to see that honesty's is no longer what they're waiting from me
They're seeking lines about false hope
About a world that is fixable
They're craving lies but I'm to cynical
and to this world you are invisible

How could this happen to me?
I feel that I've missed my time
(I feel that I've missed my time)
Struggle and scratch till it bleeds
I swear that I'll be just fine
(I swear that I'll be just fine)

(I feel that I've missed my time)
(I swear that I'll be just fine)

I'm slaving and straining for crooks that betray me
They've laughed in my face and drained all my veins
Been searching for someone to care
(Been searching for someone to care)

How could this happen to me?
I feel that I've missed my time
(I feel that I've missed my time)
Struggle and scratch till it bleeds
I swear that I'll be just fine
(I swear that I'll be just fine) [2x]

15. Happiness In Self Destruction

13 years old, addicted to cigarettes and both his pets were scared to death when he walked through the door,
Baptized at 12, laughed it off, and swore he pissed in the water that had cleansed his soul

We'd been breaking into cars, taking stereos, and there he goes, down the alley way, shit's not the same,
I miss the days when violence and carelessness were no expense but shit's not the same

Your heart may beat,
But you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out.
Desperate you take what you've been deprived.
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat,
But you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out.
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

And do you remember the time when you took 100 bucks from your mamma's purse
And we were so excited?
But you came and got your older brother to buy us some beer and it was so clear.
I fucking hate myself for letting you get hooked on all the shit that you were on
I promise you, next time I'll be strong
I cherish you, I remember every time you bailed me out
And it's safe to say I won't be bailing now

Your heart may beat,
But you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat,
But you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

(happiness in self destruction)

Your heart may beat,
But you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction [3x]







THE PLOT IN YOU LYRICS