THORNHILL LYRICS

1. Sunflower

What do you see?
I hope to hell it rains on me
Pre-existing stains
Around the room
I have less in my head
Than I want to assume

Like a flower in the sun
I like to watch you grow
I'd give you no water
And put on a show
You caught me in your trap
And tried to tie me up
I'd let you kill me slowly
Just to make it stop

Get out of my head
Get out of my head
I'll put it on the table
Take me instead
I hope you'll learn
I hope you burn
Just wait your turn
My sunflower

Nothing is selfless
Call me a liar and a thief
Place your hand in mine
I'll let you fall
Don't count on me

Now I don't need you around
And I'll make you pay
For the years of torment
Hurt won't go astray

We dance around the sun until we all burn
I need to play my part in this so I'll learn
I'll rip you out like a weed

I'll take the joy from you
While I make you watch
I will rip you apart, I'll fucking rip you apart

No one feels what you feel
This pain's not real
My lies were yours transparently
If you were mine
What would I be?

Do you really know me?
I'm losing you slowly
It doesn't get worse than this
All this commitment
But you just won't get it
It doesn't get worse than this

Nothing is selfless
Call me a liar and a thief
Place your hand in mine
I'll let you fall
Don't count on me

Just wait your turn
My sunflower

2. Parasite

We endure enough to realise
That everything we built will fall and die
All my love has left me
And since then I haven't been the same
I won't be the one to tell you
You matter less the less you own
The more you are the more you leave behind

I didn't want you
I knew that I had you
My love was see-through
I thought that you knew
I knowingly used you
I didn't need you
You have to believe me
You have to believe

It might be cynical
Life's not a miracle
You thought you had it all
You thought you had it all

I need you, I need you

All this violence just for silence?
How did you think this would end?
You tyrant
I just don't want to know

Nothing changes behaviour faster than pain
Put in this world and told that we're the same

Is that how hate is bred?
Is that how fear is created?

I need you, I need you

I didn't want you
I knew that I had you
My love was see-through
I thought that you knew
I knowingly used you
I didn't need you
You have to believe me
You have to believe

It might be cynical
Life's not a miracle
You thought you had it all
You thought you had it, you thought you had it all

3. Reptile

Born from fumes
And built from the inside
I roll my eyes to the back of my head
My salvation is dead
Blood enters in
Ventilation for my skin

I can feel the dirt, it runs through my veins
As I enter eternal pain
My life is yours to gain
And it turns me inside out

I contort and dance, you just sound deranged
It's human nature to stay the same
I laugh and I shake from the heat here
Let me tell you about pain

I do the devil's dance
And it's all in my head
My blood is cold and I'm painted in red
I'd crush my empty skull if it meant no pain
I'll stay hidden underwater 'til I go insane

Does this happen to you or just me?
If so, let me see
Let me in
Let me see
Let me see
I had to learn how to adapt
With my eyes pushed out
And my hands held behind my back

Oh hunters, I can be your prey
Just promise me you'll stay
If I listened to you I wouldn't be the same
Watch as I put myself in the flame

I do the devil's dance
And it's all in my head
My blood is cold and I'm painted in red
I'd crush my empty skull if it meant no pain
I'll stay hidden underwater 'til I go insane

I still hear it ring in my ears
All this pain has brought me to tears
I'm not ready to fight but you should
Don't complain when I stand where you should

Like a trance
I move with your voice
Under chants of horror around me
And I think to myself, "What a life
Why be here if I'm going to die?"

4. My Design

I don't wanna stay here

In search of perfection
You lack direction
You should've listened to me
Hate is a reflection
I just can't give you affection

Creeping up and in return
I was never really yours to burn
Creeping up and in return
We aren't designed to last
And we are moving all too fast
I told you so, just let it go
Not at all to take it slow

I don't want to stay here
You shouldn't want to either

In control I can't pretend
I don't want to see your face again
In control I can't pretend
I'm not yours to defend

You should've listened to me
Creeping up and in return
I was never really yours to burn
Creeping up and in return
We aren't designed to last
And we are moving all too fast
I told you so, just let it go
Not at all to take it slow

I don't want to stay here
I don't want to stay here
I don't want to stay here
But I want to let go

5. Lavender

I lay my head in line with the rest
Bent apart, crooked teeth
Sunken deep into my chest
Claw away my eyes
And empty my head
There's one thing I can't forget
It keeps me upright in bed

People get what they're worth
And I'm hoping you will too
I've been pulling teeth so I could finally get to you
Rearrange my body and turn me into you
My life of idols and stone
I'll hold my breath 'til I'm blue

I can feel your grip crushing straight to the bone
You're so ice cold
You might as well be a clone
I can see that you don't need to be
Exposed now we will see

I'll fucking tear my eyes out just to sew them shut
Try to take my walls down but I'll build them up
Tell me, is it a sin
To kill you now or let it sink in?

Do you think you ended me?
Have you listened to the words that remain unseen?
I know you know who I wanted to be
Why do you put this hate on me?

I've found the meaning is nothing
And living is sad
But at least I feel something
Although all of it is bad

I won't give of myself I know that you will attack
If this was all we had
I want you to take it back

Oh lavender, why do you stare?
I won't take part
I just don't care
I'll cry for you and give you my hopes
So those around me can tighten the ropes

Take a look at my broken fucking hands
I lay upon these shadows just so I can hide my head in the sand
Or just from you

Rearrange me
Cut apart my body
And turn me into something new
My life of idols and stone
I'll hold my breath 'til I'm blue

6. Joy

He put himself here
Just so he could escape
He just can't see here
Just so blinded by hate
On this journey just unable to find
He says, "I'm OK," in his mind
He carries on out in this open plane
With a map of who he was in his brain
There's no pretending he's lost himself in his eyes
He'll just be chasing butterflies

"The flashes in my eyes
The colours, they move like dancers
I just can't hold on anymore
I won't cry for you
I've lost too much time
Here's the answer
I don't want to know anymore"

People see him as he talks to himself
Scared to greet him putting plans on the shelf
No-one truly gets to know who they are
Growing old makes things seem darker

Sunflower carry me home
I feel joy in my heart but death in these bones
Sunflower carry me home
If I feel joy in my heart then why am I alone?

"The flashes in my eyes
The colours, they move like dancers
I just can't hold on anymore
I won't cry for you
I've lost too much time
Here's the answer
I don't want to know anymore"

Say that you love me
Say that you love me
Say that you love me
Say that you do
Say that you love me
Say that you love me
I just don't think that I could forget you







THORNHILL LYRICS