TIMECODE LYRICS

1. Antesala

2. Severe Episodes Of Lunacy

[Music & Lyrics: Celso Garcés]

(I'm not sane)

(I)
Like a withered dream
I reduced my life to the size of this room
And here I sit down
Paralyzed, hypnotized by four walls painted grey
No windows, no doors
Just a strange constant voice
Repeating that (I'm not sane)
(I'm not sane)
And insects crawl in my feet
Trying to rise to my futile head

(The voice)
I'm the voice that comes from all around
Echoed in your head as plentiful laughs
I'm the reason of all your fears
When darkness arrives,
Confusion just begins

(I)
The light has gone away
Nothing will make subside my lunacy
I hear a whisper in my ear
Asking if I'm going to die and I say:
-"Touch my eyes to see what I see"-

(The Voice)
But I'm everything in this room
Possible to be seen
(Enas ton m’I)
Don't you ever tell me what to do
'cause I decide what is real

(I)
The light has gone away
Now I feel like a guest in my own life
And suddenly I hear the voice
In reverse yelling that (I'm not sane)
So, take my hand to feel what I feel
I've turned into a part of your feverish feast

(I'm not sane)
(I)
Where were you when I needed you most?
(He)
I was standing beside the locked door
(I)
How can I release myself from it?
(He)
You can't... You will live in here forever

(The voice)
The light has gone away
I'm the architect of this masterpiece,
The silent stalker of your calm
For 32 years I've been trying to break you down
Finally I've succeeded
No one will take your place
No one will hear what you hear

3. Imbalance Result

[Music: Celso Garcés, Danilo Estrella / Lyrics: Celso Garcés]

I've lost identity confined to this place
Where violence grows crushing the coherence
I impelled myself to this psychiatric world
Where everything is an illogical pattern of the soul

"Believe in my shapeless words
Feeds the mind's demise
I am your imbalance result
And you are my chaos that corrodes all wounds"

Creating hysteria in a moment of utter lunacy
Panic separates the senses from reality
To yell won't help inside the mind
To discern is a privilege that here no one has

Progressive stages of dementia
Periods of mental deterioration
"I am your imbalance result
And you are my confusion disturbing the thoughts"

We have no life
We have only fear inside
Living in a permanent lie
Conforming unreal reflections

How can I reach inner sanity to overcome this grief?
Can I define this as real?
-All that you see doesn't exist-

I've lost identity confined to this place
Where I've found my own anomaly
(I'm not sane)

4. Grieving

[Music & Lyrics: Celso Garcés ]

Twisted images are turning into my head
Like a starving vulture searching for flesh
I have no choice, I can't avoid confusion
The damnation has begun
When existence is compelled by distress
Life goes out as my prayers are consumed
By your desire

I repent myself for the sins
(I'm not sane)
I won't be afraid to exist as entity and be your slave
When forgiveness has been gone

In Mother's arms, lingering end
She embraces me tight just to keep me in here
It's useless; I've lost all that I've loved in life,
So, Please let me say wave goodbye
The eternity for me has begun
I prepare myself for the inevitable path of death

Her sorrow
Your will
No matter how much it grieves
Her pain is all around

She blames herself
She'd give her life
To extend this day with me

5. Lapses

[Music & Lyrics: Celso Garcés]

I am walking through my memory's corridors in recess
And I found vestiges of an intangible cage
Frightening pieces like an open grave
Where everything inside is not what it seems to be.
Am I standing here?
-or- Am I waiting outside?
In a discontinuous place
Faced with myself
In a judgment lapse
Repeating over and over again
(I'm not sane)

Now I'm passing beyond my psychological tolerance
An euphoric state of reversion, a prolonged trance
Where I'm nothing and the only one
Against the mindless sequences of my life undone
In a judgment lapse
Faced with myself
In a discontinuous place
Am I waiting outside?
Am I standing here?
Repeating over and over again
(I'm not sane)

Lapses
A discontinuous place...
(I'm not sane)

I'd never meant to be here
It's supposed this should be what I want
Now I can't turn back
Even if I could have controlled my tragic outcome

...In a judgment lapse
Repeating over and over again
(I'm not sane)
In lapses - in recess
Repeating (I'm not sane)
In lapses - reversion
Repeating my name
Over and over again

6. Erratic

[Music & Lyrics: Celso Garcés]

I've no longer control over it
Irrational voices are maddening me
Bounds of mental tolerance exceeded
By intrusion of an incurable disease
A drawing of this systematic organic failure
It's like waves colliding inside my fearful mind

Erratic behavior
The frenzy has been completed

Increased heartbeats, omen of my death
I'm destined to another level of pain
Now it’s not aching -but- remains within

Erratic behavior
The frenzy has been completed
Cerebral dysfunction
Contorted sanity

(I'm not sane)

What part of my life is truly under control or waiting for a cure?
What part of my life can't I replace or hide even if I sell my soul?

7. The Spiral Eyes

8. Impediment To Cure

[Music & Lyrics: Celso Garcés]

When day ends
It seems like I'm drowning with their faces
Regardless of what I've drunk to forget
I feel trapped in small spaces

I wrote on that wall
The nonsense of too many words
Trying to describe what I've lived,
What they made me live.

-"Try to stay away from it"-
(He told me some time)
-"try to live my pain,
Then you will understand"-
(I said)

No therapy able to cure
All those worthless attempts
(I'm not sane)
To recover a normal life
And to close reopened memories

In quietness,
Searching for answers
There must be some way to get out of here
It's difficult to find,
To find a way to heal
For sure,
I'm the impediment to my own cure

It just gets worse
I'm completely weak and exhausted

-"I'm so fucking sick and tired
To be who I am"-
-"But suicide is the best way to forget"-
(He explained)

(I'm not sane)

9. Transtorno

[Music & Lyrics: Celso Garcés]

Incomprensible sensatez
Un desquicio propio de la normalidad
Impulsiva reacción voluntaria
La extraña cordura manipula
Mi realidad irracional

Trastorno
Convicción paralela
Vida inconexa
Una ilusoria verdad
-A la realidad-

Delirio enfermizo
Me despierta aunque no este dormido
Paranoica contradicción
Más allá de la insana comprensión
El ilógico ciclo
De mi configuración irracional

Complejidad
Un retrato animado de la personalidad
Imaginando sin imaginar
Trastorno

10. Hausdorff Space

[Music & Lyrics: Celso Garcés]

The discordant process
Of non-physical rupture of my brain through rage
Projecting a violent other-self
The shocking expression of hollow eyes
-Am I prepared to be replaced?-

The unusual self-contraction of nothingness
Begins in my face
This trance is gestated to itself
With imaginary visualizations

Unanimated contorted holes provoke
Frantic illusory forms
That have replaced the eyesight
With broken mirrors within
-The manic expression of distress
Eloquence makes no sense-

The beauty of two parts in severance
When I see through blindness
And I'm in the middle of none...

Just look down
The illegible iteration has been born

(I)-The reflection unseen
(Am)-The none conceived

(Not)-Two ways inside
(Sane)-(Im)perfectly (in)sane

11. Lasting Sequel

[Music & Lyrics: Celso Garcés]

It's so hard to be pleased,
Pleased when I don't want to feel better,
'cause it hurts me so much,
So much that I just want to stay away forever.

As I look inside my life
I found thousand reasons to hate you
And I realize
That I'll lose my mind at any second

The aging will come someday
Captive growing pain
The calling of another life
The lasting sequel turns inside my mind

Daily I feel distressed,
Distressed and I don't want to feel better.
Instants that can't be erased,
It will never be erased with psychological treatments

Standing beside myself
No one around to dry my tears
That is why
My contempt for you can't be healed.

The spineless whisper
Of mental ailment
The shivers of my past
Running through my eyes
(I'm not sane)
(I'm not sane)
You just have to know
That (I'm not sane)

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