TOXIC GRIND MACHINE LYRICS

1. Amphetamines In Ghost City

every living creature will die alone

unto me:
of piety and obsessive faith
the boundaries of rest
it's like they could answer your questions of death
to worsen and disease

a place in the cold
amphetamine moans
we dissolve like snow in phantom grounds

how cold in this place?
your desperate face
methadone you own me
dreamy haze

surge
I could see when they put you in control
I could see when they sold us out
all is operational
return your breath and just concentrate

a place in the cold
amphetamine moans
we dissolve like snow in phantom grounds

meaningless and left to stare at shapes that form my memories
weaker now the formal void that left it's taste in my mouth
difficult to rest in here
your knife still sharpens at my spine

turning too much in my sleep
the shapes on the wall answer me
thoughts are racing
i'm becoming someone i'm not

don't take me in
you know i'll change again
you have a choice I do not

in vain
the choice is made
we're meant to waste

closing in too fast

mother
should the climate change, we'll drift with the morning tide
mother
the guiding hand has been absent still for years

no more in spirit than empty in flesh
lift your ribs in skinny grace
why would you question divinity's role?
we're the last to carve our names

slip through the lights
exploding fields
the distant glow
our trail concealed

above the gun
the feeling lasts for days
what we've done..
now far away

turning too much in my sleep
the shapes on the wall answer me
thoughts are racing
i'm becoming someone i'm not

don't take me in
you know i'll change again
you have a choice I do not

2. Aphidhaze

one deceiver
he tied the rope and then his arms together
this all-pariah's out

"my wrist unatoned, soaked in rust
loaded stares, they blow me away"

all these motions I come to miss
the altar of anger, a slave to this

"it's all a state of mind"

crawling through comas
we reach you on the way

sacred woes
they're changing shapes
open minds into the alpha light
dream unknown
we're changing shapes

here at the end of the world
(worn faces low)
serotonin all bent cold
(dress maker's gold)
elevate the deep end dirt
(we'll dance in the dirt)
We spit blood and stars

now that i've been painted ashen
slowly on my way
opiated, seance-sainted
demi god, you say my name
(demi god, you sing)

summer hold cracks my frame
liturgy
dirt end, deep thin lethargy

crumbling monumental sons sent to me
spindle spun to save a soul

now hear the sirens of dirt
seraphim you're echoing cold
atrocities in sequence smoke
faint to fall in nerves

summer hold cracks my frame
fever swoon
dirt end, deep thin lethargy

crumbling monumental sons sent to me
spindle spun to save a soul

sacred woes
they're changing shapes
open minds into the alpha light
dream unknown
we're changing shapes

overcome opiate
unearthly trance now
overrun aphidhaZe
i'm all defense

"weakening, my oxygen
I see myself erased again
disappear from sight
I only needed time"

Misery we climb incessantly
it's blinding at these heights

mutable and bare
given to the atmosphere
mutable these days

cutting through her paralyzing, criminal voice
choking out
never wait for tomorrow
never wait for the kill
anodyne and a leper thriving wait for those who will

sacred woes
they're changing shapes
open minds into the alpha light
dream unknown
we're changing shapes

overcome opiate
unearthly trance now
overrun aphidhaZe
i'm all defense

3. Burn Bright, Wry Jackal

do you think that the others care
what you believe and what you hear
it's in your head, just like everything
pray your words will make them give a shit

animated war
stranger than the source
ventilated warmth
dripping from their sores

passerby
don't mind if I become you
need a second skin
mine is growing thing
become new

never had a thought that became my own
never had a thought

eliminate the outer factions
and play your fucking part

god bless the fakes
(they're feeding)
for setting the stage
(performing disaster)
godless we'll wait
(still feeding insane)
with jackal teeth

fabricated screams
razors can't  be seen

sympathetic smile
never quite my style

condition the fear
perdition is here
waiting and beating with thin devil stare

how furious the maker's hand
well show that silver grin

god bless the fakes
(they're feeding)
for setting the stage
(performing disaster)
godless we'll wait
(still feeding insane)
with jackal teeth

everything felt beautiful until you tasted blood
what you lost, was it worth the cost of finally giving up?

it's something you will never be
(reliving Fall)
what you say won't change a single thing
(my head the wall)
it's something you will never be
(reliving Fall)
what you say won't change a fucking thing
(my head the wall)

killing my name as force
leaving my weak and remorse
becoming the lion to spit forth the fire
I know you're so much more

burn bright for us all
you're the star
now

4. Cell 600

from the stars we came to find the remnants of this fucking prison planet

space travel
nothing short of planetary cleansing could stop this objective or halt our retrieval
but space travel has a way, after light years of motion sickness,
of making my temper burn
this intergalactic nausea

"so listen up, the star-fucked admirals are in orbit this is their demand"

fear
fear the second coming of the astral seed
the only hope for survival
your captive kept in holding
we must set him free

let me into cell 600
don't you understand that the prisoner you have is a DNA archetype
modified by the ancient gods for the faithful ones
let me into cell 600
genetically bound to a killing mind
a master dream to kill the bastard breed
the only defense for human kind

origins of fire
out of the sun
out of the sun
emerge the seed
to make us bleed

return to us
spirit of the age, cleanse this shit dystopia
future ages will know our name

carbon red
(a bounty worth the risk)
blood-stained soil
(revolutions don't come cheap)
sepultured
I took the job and now it's blood to pay this planet's debt

we are the shadow in the sun
the fucking weight of
memory reversed
spirit's afterbirth

there's a chance that the engineers were careless
risking a flight without a real technician
really stupid
and the fact of the matter is
there are no other ways to get the fuck out of here

burn the fueling gates
check the hatch for parasites
another brave new hell
the future outlook for star pilot's suck

we are the shadow of the sun
the iridescent figures won
and we will never be replaced
true reign

memory reversed
spirit's afterbirth
don't let it fade to grey

5. Judah, Let's End

no one here will ever know my pain
I know i'm desperate for change
(desperate and down)

all my life
i've been peeling my wounds thinking
all my life
how much more can I lose?

you see me surfacing
but this time I cannot find myself

all my life
i've been waiting to blow
just a time bomb mind
i'm afraid to let go

one hit and my world goes black
I promise you i've never fucking coming back

losing everyone I know
i'm wondering where this will go
you see me surfacing
but this time I cannot find myself

searching out my reasons to live
searching out my reasons to stay with you

save me
all this fucking people never stop
save me
all I ever wanted is to be forgotten

no one here will ever know my pain
I know i'm desperate for change

all my life
i'm the one you control thinking
all my life
with no thoughts of my own

you see me surfacing
but this time I cannot save myself

all my life
i'm not like you at all
but I compromise
just to get what I want

one touch and my world goes black
I promise you i'm never fucking coming back

how can I make this go away?
i'm already apart of things I can't change?
how can I make this go away?
I'm already apart of things I cannot ..

cut the rope
i'm almost out of here
what you know
is only part of it

I could beg you for all your forgiveness
but why even try, I know I'm a failure

[excerpt from 'The Hours' film]

i'm not afraid of taking my life
(take my life)
if you were me, you'd understand why
(you know why)
all this suffering has to lead somewhere
(lead somewhere)
even at my end, I know you care

torn away
don't belong today
is it possible i'm too late?

what would you
if I put you through
all the shit i'm forced to survive in

Judah, i'm blind in this place
Judah, I am waiting

avarice heart is the face of who I am
tell me i'm the one that you prayed for
sulfurous born in a lake of innocence
I confess of all the hate that i'm made of

Judah, i'm godless and sick
Judah, I am waiting

all my life
I can see the regret
and it's all just fine
but I never forget

one touch might make me real
but i'm falling apart so get the fuck away

losing everyone I know
i'm wondering where this will go

you see me surfacing
but this time I cannot find myself

pulled apart and back again
feeble smile and stumbling
meaningless
meaningless
who am I?
weight on my chest
weight on my chest
fuck me

how can I make this go away
i'm already apart of things I can't change
mother you know this just isn't pretending
my face on the floor with the vomit i'm spilling

cut the rope
i'm almost out of here
what you know
is only part of it

I could beg you for all your forgiveness
but why even try

i'm not afraid of taking my life
(take my life)
if you were me, you'd understand why
(you know why)
all this suffering has to lead somewhere
(lead somewhere)
even at my end, I know you care

wish only wish I was dead
(i'm not real but i'm..)
since i've been born, i've been wasting my breath
(i'm not real but i'm..)

wish only wish I was dead
(i'm not real but i'm..)
since i've been born, i've been wasting my breath

[second excerpt from 'The Hours' film]

6. Hymnlock

[caption from 'The Basketball Diaries']

chamber down
we deserve to die

hold your last words
fall inside my crime

comatose in a bed of flames
it's only you and I
so you know that you've been erased
these nightmares drain you

skin grows white

every light is a cancer in front of me
the empty ashen waves of rain

so hold your last words
fall inside my crime

(taste)
I feel like giving up
(blade)
to a needle and a gun
(break)
let the poison come
(taste)
lay blind and paralyzed
(blade)
so let me self-destruct
(break)
with a needle and a gun

apart of this moment now raven
won't sing to sky
the automatic fear of dying too

we will always dress in vacant stares
the blood of frail machines
the creepy light will fall away
again

secrets I can't hide
(here's the part that you press in me)
overtake my life
(here's the part that you press in me)

my wilted hands in broken glass
collecting pieces for a broken mask
a libertine in amber haze
in decadence on parade

i'll tear my limbs apart
to know i'm still alive

(taste)
I feel like giving up
(blade)
to a needle and a gun
(break)
let the poison come
(taste)
lay blind and paralyzed
(blade)

can I separate the real?
am I kneeling to some faultline
your child is gone
he bled himself dry

so let me self-destruct
(break)
with a needle and a gun

7. Morphia

is it time to leave?
where do we go
I'm shaking on the floor
driven in snow

enter me
daughters of morphia
trinity
the blood beneath the sun

anesthesia smile
this may take awhile

enter me
daughters of morphia
piety
the vapor hits the lung

anesthesia smile
this may take awhile
so beyond the waves of sleep

tendancies to choke on sorrow
like a minute without air
recognize the vessel sinking
think it's you inside of there

sanity is compromised
the calm you know is fleeting waves
the derelict forgotten now
the charlatans are falling down

when it's abrasive
try and erase it
trauma takes the lion share

believe me when I say
I have no thought control

yesterday so violent
the pill has taken hold

believe me when I say
I have no thought control

believe me when I say
(nailed to the wall again)
I have no thought control
(intensifying the screams)

enter me
daughters of morphia
piety
the vapor hits the lung

don't mind to kiss the carpet
you are what you take

believe me when I say
I have no thought control

yesterday so violent
the pill has taken hold

believe me when I say
I have no thought control

believe me when I say
(nailed to the wall again)
I have no thought control
(intensifying the screams)

8. Enther

[Instrumental]








TOXIC GRIND MACHINE LYRICS