TURMOIL LYRICS

1. Dear Jon

slowly draining the remnants of this husk slowly
fading traces of this scar still draining the remnants
of this husk a withering heart blackened by your
consuming flames my tears now fall to dust my hopes
reduced to ash burn it all after all it didn't take
too much to burn the sun out of my sky was it so easy
to watch as my dreams died faint senses you left
behind echoed this haunted form and then you buried me
alive so take what memory you embedded in my mind and
cast it to the flame burn it all i want to thank you
from the bottom of my heart i want to thank you for
reminding me to hurt this is the answer i knew from
the start this is the answer tearing me apart

2. Every Man My Enemy

what did you expect some kind of character assassin
someone to justify fears that you cultivate and cast
you as a victim tell me what is it like to live in
fear of betrayal when every man your enemy when every
man your bane how can you ever expect to command
respect when disgrace and distrust are all you offer
the world how can you ever attempt to bury the fear
when you don't even know what it is you run from bury
the fear bury your demons what were you waiting for a
volunteer scapegoat to take one final stab at your
confidence and kill the last of your trust every man
the enemy bury the fear bury your

3. Fear Of Falling Down

fear of falling down once again I fall their best of
intentions killed my desire their expectations
exceeded mine I tried to appease them though I failed
to make them see I never wanted what they wanted for
me again again I tried to hide my soiled from the eyes
of discipline again I failed to make them understand
this was mine before they pryed the motivation from my
grasp before they bastardized what I held to my heart
I failed and they'll never know how they tainted me
they're obligation killed my desire they're
expectatiions extinguished the fire once again I tried
once agin I failed

4. Impending Doom Theory

everyday i become more afraid of the form i take this
person unfamiliar to me each waking moment fixated on
past encounters as i sift through the ashes of who i
used to be i fight this everyday more of the same
bludgeon myself with the hope of resurrecting my dying
dream i fight this everyday words were spilled
carelessly i'm trying to remove the stain i don't want
to know the answers you'll give i would rather kill
the messenger killing me i fight this everyday i reach
inside to remove the organ that's bleeding the life
from this frame

5. Killing Today For A Better Tomorrow

life sacrificed an empty shell you molded into blind
blind with blind devotion you closed your eyes to
propaganda consume the lies what is this pride you're
so quick to convey pride i'll never understand i'll
never understand standing in line learning to die for
those colors that bleed bleeding away all sense of
value all dignity pledge your allegiance bow down to
greed i will not bleed i will not suffer i will not be
your fucking martyr

6. Let It Die

i've heard this before when it meant more the first
time around you made your mark and tore it down
abandoned this for aspirations of fame so why rekindle
the flame let it die what are you trying to sell a
feeble attempt to reinvent what you once had the first
time around you made your mark rehash the sound now
all those slogans that you wear on your sleeve have
lost their validity let it die this monument that
you've contrived that stale ideal does not apply
anymore never be like before better off abandoned
better left alone all those gears have rusted over
time they've grown still still you try i heard this
before let it die

7. Playing Dead

what the fuck are you what the fuck are you looking at
what the fuck have you become through the course of a
conversation ignorance rears it's head and i turn away
playing dead ignore what was said lay down all my
pride bury my conscious behind a smile playing dead
never again will i compromise this tongue has bled one
two many times so i'll stare in the face of
confrontation and i'll spit in the eye that see in
black and white i will not pacify myself i will not
play dead what the fuck are you looking at

8. Six Demon Bag

feeding the misconception buying the lie enamored by
what you can't acquire label disease mark of the beast
fixated on false idols designed to deceive you consume
their sickness mouth open wide target market swallow
and smile

9. Staring Back

i find myself alone despise the flesh i own this
mirror cuts deep here i go again staring at myself why
cant i accept the image i reflect i iv'e become the
enemy judgement plaguing me with insecurity these
mirrors hate me why why can't i just accept myself i
will never accept myself

10. The Discipline Of Self Loathing

save me from my self save me from giving in give me
the distance i need give me some distance so i can
breath wrapped in a cloth of deceit i made this bed in
which i lie but i won't accept this plastic lie fueled
by my failure sell me salvation tell me what i lack
make me a product well packaged make me a victim of
compromise behind a shield of denial i made this bed
in which i lie but i don't accept this plastic lie can
i amend this average existence growing weary of
staring at these walls caught between myself and my
desire for change fueled by failure can i break this
cycle will i stand the test of time i question this
trial of life will i survive this plastic lie

11. The Locust

conflict driven prince of rebellion wave your flag
proclaim revolution do you even know what you say you
condone rehearse your lines and you play the role do
your best to look the part follower i hear the words
you scream but i don't think you know what they mean
like a locust you swarm around the opinions they from
carving a path of destruction through what you claim
to support follower i hear the words you say but i've
yet to see this war you wage your words only serve as
a means to condescend your actions don't support your
words your words contradict your actions i hear the
words you scream but i don't think you know what they
mean i hear the words you say but i've yet to see this
war you wage follower

12. Throwing Stones

this voice unheard if these thoughts don't manifest
what was learned in all the time we've spent throwing
stones at a wall jaded by what we once embraced as our
own the lines we used to draw have started to gray
fall from grace have we set our sights on something
we'll never achieve making idols into angels loosing
their faith fall from grace all this time we've spent
throwing stones at a wall this voice unheard these
thoughts denied the vision obscured by our content are
we just throwing stones have we set our sights on
something we'll never achieve throwing stones into
this wall we've made falling from grace







TURMOIL LYRICS