VILLAINS LYRICS

1. Lost In Translation

I don’t want to be alone anymore. I don’t believe in myself. I don’t feel much anymore, the only thing I recognize is anxiety. Mind buckling, chest crushing anxiety that sucks the air right from your lungs and slowly and effectively kills
your will to live. Why should I be proud of that? Why should I be proud of myself? Every time I open my mouth to speak I embarrass those around me. I am an embarrassment, and I am alone. I don’t want to be alone anymore. I don’t want to be alone anymore.

2. Ugly

Call the doctor
I’ve got all these problems
I don’t know how to solve them
My conscience dead rotten, alone and forgotten

Call the doctor
Send me to the hospice for people who’ve lost it
I’m stuck in my coffin and I think someone locked it

What’s my fucking purpose?
I was born with words that curse every single loving person
I’m sorry I’m a burden
I’m useless, fucking worthless
Think it’s time the close the curtain
All I think about’s my service
I mean it couldn’t get much worse

I don’t want to be alone anymore

This is life through the eyes of a broken man
Who’s let everything he had fall through his fucking hands

Doctor, I am deranged
My brain needs to be tamed
I don’t think I need change
Just a rope for me to hang

I don’t want to be alone anymore

This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it die

Anxiety still swallows my chest and lead consumes my lungs
Everyday the gun meets my mouth
But I’ve never been one to get the job done

3. Rital(in)

I’m the poster child for death
Your number one for a bad time
You really didn’t think that the slit wrists were a bad sign?
I’m sure I’m a nuisance
A recluse with a noose
You’d think by the 3rd song the rope wouldn’t be so loose

Till death do us part

So what?
Now I’m just a waste of an investment?
Incessantly oppressed and always obsessed with doing the wrong thing?
Just me, myself, and I
A head full of broken pistons
So it makes sense why
All my friends have gone missing

Well okay, forget about me
Been living, barely living
Far from what I need

I guess I’m a misfit
I guess I don’t get it
So I’ll take a bath in blood and sickly depression
Well okay, forget about me
Been living, barely living
I can hardly breathe

So carve your name into my bones
Because I don’t want to be alone
Bludgeon me with sticks and stones
As long as I wont be alone

Constantly thinking about death is killing me
My friend, my dearest friend
So till death do us part
Till death do us part

4. Like Father // Like Son

I'm diseased. Struck with melancholy and a deadbeat dad who never said sorry
I'm diseased, I'm diseased. The roots have poisoned the tree
So all I ask is that you take it easy on me

I've got a whole lot of questions that will never get answered
And a pair of slit wrists to match a heart filled with cancer
There's a bastard in my blood that's clawing to get out
But every now and again he escapes through my mouth

I wasn't worth your time. But really I'm fine
I've been like this my whole life
Wrist always pressed to the knife
I swear I'm okay, I know everybody dies
I just wish we could have said our hello's before we said our goodbyes

I'll keep singing this lullaby
And try my hardest not to curse your name with tears in my eyes
Because I swear that I'm fine
I'm fine
I can't miss what wasn't mine
You were never my dad, and really that's fine

A livid existence
Where my thoughts are constricted
Happiness restricted from a person gone missing
That's a 10-57, and I'm a 10-56
So all I dream about is heaven, even though I'm sick
I'm a monster without a father
An embarrassment to my mother
So it's no wonder that I'm going under

Why don't you love your son?
Your pride and joy, I love you dad
Why don't you love your son?

5. Better Off Alone

I think I'm better off alone.

6. Lonely Bastard

They love me, they love me not
I live with a noose around my neck
And the devil on my shoulder pulling me towards death
Waiting for when I slip up next
To whisper faults in my ears hoping I’ll choose him instead

The whole world’s a cutthroat
Fed all these insults
Right down my throat
Chokehold 'til I scream “no”

They love me, they love me not
It really all depends on what I’ve got

Why do I make time for people who could care less if I’m alive?
Because if they don’t love me then who else will

I was born a lonely bastard
A walking fucking disaster
With a passion for being the worst and constantly thinking I'm hurt

So long live depression, long live sin
May you never stop worshipping your demons within
May you always fight the battles that you’ll never win
Again and again and again

They say that the grass is always greener on the other side
But everything’s black and white when you feel left behind

Let me suffer, let me rot
Swallow me with everything I lost
My mind is caught inside a slipknot
Made out of anxiousness and everything I’m not
Let me suffer, let me rot in my cell
They love me, they love me not
I can’t tell

People like me weren’t meant to be happy
We’re meant to choke on our words with everyone laughing
People like me weren’t meant to be happy
I’m not happy, I don’t know how to be happy

7. Bitterromantic Pt. 1

My antidepressant hides in a Smith & Wesson
I don’t know how to make anxiety lessen
I’ve learned my lesson
Don’t ever love first
Or have your psyche messed with
Intimacy lives in a hearse

Love is dead
It only exists in your head
And hangs onto your neck until your face turns red
Until it rips your mind into shreds

Now I’m just old news
A drunk and in love fool
Now I’m old news, a fucking fool

But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had

Drowning in static and feedback from the mic
That’s been stapled to my mouth my whole life
I need you; I love you, is this all in my head?
Microphone check
No one can hear me I guess
Check

I wrote these words in blood to make sure that they meant enough
Can you hear me?
Can anyone hear me?

So say goodbye to chivalry
And all that meant the world to me
Hang me high in this anxiety
And everything I’ll never be
Everything that I’ve been feeling
Left me dangling from the ceiling
I’m only broken and misused
I don’t see what’s so unappealing

8. Bitterromantic Pt. 2

Do you remember the days where I was your everything?
What the world could bring?
Or how at night the world would sing?

I still remember the finest things
Those heartfelt talks about what you meant to me
Or how the nights alone were a deathly thing

Do you remember how you couldn't dream of anyone better and how perfect we were together?
How perfect was the weather before you weren't sure whether

I was what you wanted
My whole life I've been taunted
I’ve always been unwanted

And now I'm sure that your voice was poison
All the words you spoke just noises
While you chewed me up and broke me down like my memories of you before he came around

So I hope you two are happy
With your knife in my throat I'm laughing and thinking of you
Because my only happy thoughts are between us two

And when you break his heart
I hope he doesn't fall apart
Like this man who always talked too much
Like this man who was never good enough

Never really had much
But for you I had love
Every lie you spit built my crutch

Life is pointless without you around
This is me living in the background
So I hope you’re happy now

I hope you’re fucking happy now
I doubt you’ll hear me screaming for help
Because these words drown in my goddamn mouth

9. Grim Game

Before we go any further
Before we go any further
Friends; how many of us have them?
Friends; the ones we can depend on
Friends

Who’s gonna love me when the world acts like its above me?
With its foot in my face
I never belonged in the first place

Maybe you’ll see when I rest in peace
I gave my all for you when you could give two fucks about me
Maybe you’ll see when I rest in peace
I gave my all for you, you left me lonely

Its so much clearer hanging from the rafters
Not everyone gets their happy ever after
It’s so much clearer
Hang [4x]

A ticket, a tasket, I’m just a fucking has-been
I’m falling off course ‘cause I just wont fucking have it
I’ve had it

Don’t want to be alone anymore,
Whens death knocking at my door?
Don’t want to be alone

10. Better Off Dead

It lives in my home, it sleeps on my floor
Every night I hear it’s nails on my door
And kill every bit of hope before it leaves my pores
Stop coming to my house
Stop stealing words from my mouth

So I bite my tongue
To avoid confrontation or offending anyone
(Anxiety)
I’ll never win; I can’t win
Just a hopeless villain

I don't know when my demons conquered
Or when my skeleton softened
Or when the rest broke free from the closet
But I know every damn thing put a nail in my coffin

Distant, slime, lost, scum
All of the above
An embarrassment to everyone I love
The reaper still hasn’t come
I’m so sick of myself
So sick of screaming for help

I’m still in fucking hell
I’m still in fucking hell

Rendered motionless by anxiety
A dead man to be
Trapped by this dead mans dreams
Cursed with the nervous luck of being me

Fuck the doctor; fuck his pills
Fuck the self-loathing that stems from the guilt
Fuck my arrogance; fuck my carelessness
It’s irrelevant; fuck my therapist
Better off dead
Let the grievance commence
I’m still second best
I’m still second best
Fuck

11. Freudian Slip

I'm sorry for everything I never did
I'm sorry about all the things I've never said
I'm sorry I've been such a hassle for you all to string along
I'm sorry that I'm not proud
I'm sorry that I feel like I belong in the ground
I'm sorry the concrete feels more like home
I'm sorry that everyday I feel more alone

Just one of those days

I’m sorry that every second I feel more weak
I'm sorry I'm caught up in all that I'll never be
I’m sorry that I always talk too much
I’m sorry that nothing was good enough
I'm sorry that I’m a has-been, with his smile dimmed
Just a nuisance who can't take a hint
I'm sorry that I could never help
I'm sorry for feeling sorry for myself

Just one of those days where I just want you to stay

I swear to god I tried my best
But the world won’t stop beating on my chest
I swear that it’s cracked my skull
And made everything I feel so dull
I swear to god it’s not your fault
I just never learned how to fall
But I promise that I gave it my all
I swear it’s not your fault

I'm sorry I’m not always okay
I’m sorry that I’m always the one to blame
I’m sorry that I always make you upset
I’m sorry, I hope you can forgive and forget me

12. Ketamine

So sedate me, sedate me
So I can die happy

I’m not okay, I’m not alright
I’m sorry these tongue-tied words don’t come out just right
But it was nice to know you
It really was

I’ve watched everything I’ve tried to reach for
Just slip through the cracks
That’s why I overreact
Maybe you’d understand
Could understand why I’m desperate
Why I beg for attention

So sedate me, sedate me, so I could die happy
(So sedate me) but it was nice to know you
It really was
A backwards life

I’m a burden of a person
And I know that I do
Always feel out of place in a crowded room
Even my own fucking room
When its just one on one
Who I am and who I’ve been, coming undone

Just me here to pull the trigger
A Freudian slip
Arms dressed with the slits
My dirty little secret
A Freudian slip
Shoulder to wrist

Murderous and self-loathing
Eyes shut, veins coated
With cyanide I’m hoping that it stops my heart real slowly
Maybe I’ll start a trend
Load up your guns for your friends
Help them put it to their heads
The End.

13. Alone

I am alone and it’s all I’ve known
I deserve to be alone
I am alone.







VILLAINS LYRICS